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Y/N P.O.V

My eyebrows furrowed. Something didn't feel right. My body felt tense and my mind felt troubled. Time felt like it was still. Before I had realised it, Zeldris and Cusack had walked inside.

I slowly took each step towards the edge of the balcony. A gentle breeze blew, small flower petals scattered in it. I cupped my hands around a single petal. I analyzed the petal, soon realizing that it belonged to a gloxinia flower.

"But- gloxinia's don't normally grow at this time of year," I muttered softly to myself, looking up at the clouds. My eyes slowly widened, when a memory came across my mind.

My wings unsheathed themselves and flew myself into the air. My wings flapped as fast as they could. Tears slowly welled up in my eyes. They whiped past my cheeks the wind blew hard against my face as I flew.

'All of my other memories were clear as day, so why wasn't this one?

There were two figured. One was petite and the other was very muscular and much bigger than the other. I could see a faint silhouette of a smile.

But the only other detail I could make out was faint strands of red hair..'

"No....please don't let me be right...-" I cried to myself. I tried to keep most of my tears contained. I wasn't sure if it was true. There has to be some hope. There has to be!!

Slowly, my worst fear came to life.

I came upon a small clearing. At this moment, I allowed the tears to fall. Gently lowering myself to the ground, I faced the scene before me with a quivering lip.

Drole's unconscious body lay on the ground. His arm and left leg were severed. Blood coated his body and a stab wound was on his chest, bleeding severely.

Not much further, was Gloxinia's body. His amber eyes were dull and a small smile graced his face. The same exact chest wound was inflicted on Gloxinia. The worst sight was, his beautiful and lively wings were now cut and dull, without even a small glow to them.

I felt my body go limp, falling to my knees beside Gloxinia. A shadow covered my eyes while my hands shook. My tears fell onto his cold chest.

"H-hey, Gloxi," my voice shook as the tears fell down my face. "Hey Drole, not sure if you can hear me-....but I remember now," I smiled softly. "I wish that I could've seen you both after I regained my memories," I chuckled softly.

"It's sad really, you've always been here for me, but the one time I'm laying in a bed sick, you two idiots go and die on me!" I laughed to mask the pain. "Guess you guys can finally meet Ace.....he was one of the people that helped me regain my happiness after all that happened, but I couldn't protect him either....."

A small drop of water landed on my cheek. "I love you guys! I just wish that I could've said that to you! You all saw me at my worst when I tried to hurt Meliodas. That must've been hard, knowing all that we've been through together,"

I gently took Gloxinia's broken wings in my hands and moved them to a small spot. "Do you remember when I was a small child? You two would always be put on babysitting duty,"

I looked at Gloxinia's wings with solemn eyes while the rain picked up.
"With these wings, you taught me how to fly. You flew with me all the time,"

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"Gloxinia!" I exclaimed happily; flying quickly, tackling him into a hug. "Look! I think I got the hang of this. Flyings easy!" I chuckled.

Gloxinia let out a laugh and smiled. "There's still a lot for you to learn little goddess, and one day, you'll be the one teaching Sariel how to fly," I smiled and nodded. "Yeah! I'll be the best teacher ever!"

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"Drole," I set Gloxinia's wings down and stood next to Drole's fallen hand. "You'd always cradle me in your hands so fondly. You'd always put me close to your cheek so I could kiss it. You never got mad at me when I used your hand as a coloring page or a landing dock," I laughed at the fond memories.

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"Goddess incoming!" Gloxinia exclaimed with a small hint of proudness. I let out a small scream as I came closer to the ground.

"You never taught me how to landdd!!!" I suddenly remembered the most important part. "Crap! I did forget!" Gloxinia suddenly went into protective brother mode, his amber eyes in a panic.

I decided to make my way towards Drole's hand. I clutched onto one of his fingers, hurting my nose in the process. Dizzy stars practically floated around my head. "I'm alivvee?" I mumbled loopily.

Drole and Gloxinia bursted into a laughter.

.......

My tears never seemed to stop. "3000 years ago it hurt a lot when I thought you all were dead," I gripped my hair tightly as I cried. "I still remember the sound of my screams as I shouted that I was sorry for everything,"

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My F/C dress was stained with mud. My once pure white wings, were marked with stains of blood and mud. I slowly stood up, my legs stumbling. My eyes were devoid of any color as I looked up towards the sky. My eyes widened as it all came crashing down. The grand Deity and the Demon King had told me about the rest of the battle......

"The Holy War is over, but the Goddess Race is no more,"

"The Fairy Kings Forest has almost been destroyed,"

"Your brother, Sariel, is gone,"

"The Demon Race has been sealed away..."

Tears welled up in my eyes. Everyone I loved was gone. My lip trembled, tears streaming down my face uncontrollably. Gloxinia's whereabouts were unknown. Drole was the same. Meliodas and Elizabeth were presumed dead. Zeldris had been sealed away. Sariel was dead.

What else did I have..?!

"Darn it! Darn it all!" I screamed. "I couldn't do anything at all to prevent any of this.....I was selfish and stupid...I was only thinking about my desires, not the war itself...." my voice faded out.

"I'm sorry!" My broken cries were drowned out by the rain. My tears couldn't seem to stop. The memories all came back to me. Back when we were all happy. "I'm sorry that I never said thank you for all the things you'd done for me...."

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"I'm still sorry even now!" I cried. My tears fell even harder. My body shook. My fists were clutched so tightly that blood began to drip. "Except now, I know that you're dead for good!" My hands covered my eyes. My breathing became uneasy. I fell to the ground and screamed.

I couldn't stop the tears. "Darn it! Just come back so I can say I'm sorry!" I cried. "I guess that I really can't protect anyone, can I?" I muttered softly to myself.

Slowly, I pushed myself off the ground and wiped my tears. "Well, there's better time than the present to change that," I smirked. I raised a hand and pointed up at the rainy sky that was beginning to clear.

"Gloxinia! Drole! You hear me up there?! 'Cuz I'm making a promise here and now! I'll protect everyone! I promise you! I won't let your deaths be in vain!"

I set off into the sky once again. With a smile on my face, I felf confident. There was no way I was going to fail again.

I wouldn't let myself.

I would die, before I let anyone hurt the ones I love.

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I'm sorry for all the pain this chapter- love y'all though!

I have some real good stuff planned so make sure to stay with ;)

I also published the first chapter of Hearts and Mind Entertwined.

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