(41) Selfish 💠💠
(Play the video, and turn on the loop please)
Two Days Later
Areum's P.O.V
I was taking a nap.. Doctor suggested I need to take rest as much as possible after the traumatizing, terrible days I've passed.. I'm mentally tired more than physically..
Jungkook didn't tell anyone that he caught me.. Rather he ordered Suzy to stay with me by my side, even if I go to pee.. And she followed him like an obedient girlfriend..
But that's okay.. I could talk with her, even though it's too hard for me to open up.. Still she tried to get along with me from time to time..
As now she was making juice for me.. My eyes open by the sounds of utensils.. She looked at me, seeing I moved.. " What did you dream about this time?"
I smiled.. " I saw I'm playing with a flower in the field.. Nothing else.. Just the flower.. Looked like a lily to me.."
" Just like the one from the field where you meet him for the first time?" I smiled, caressing my belly a little... " I saw that exact field actually.."
She came to me with a glass.. " Sometimes I feel like he's here by listening to your dreams.. It's like only you can see him.."
Taking the glass from her I smiled.. " Because he talks with both of his babies so.." She chuckled.. " Finish it.. Let me get you your breakfast.." She turned back, but I held her hand.. " Thank you.."
" Fuck you bitch!!" She jerked off, and glared at me, and I laughed.. She won't change.. Before leaving the room, she looked back again.. " Want some coffee?"
" With butter please.." I nodded, and she left.. I sighed, and looked at my belly.. " I'm feeling extra energetic after you came in me.. Is it because of you, love?" I smiled a little, when the door opened again.. A panting Suzy came in front of my sight..
" Her water broke!!"
It took us nanosecond to take the car and head to the hospital.. Jungkook, me, Suzy, and Yoongi Oppa rushed to the hospital.. Namjoon Oppa didn't have time to talk to me that much, and I understand.. Heejin's condition wasn't very good.. Doctor said they would risk everything to keep both the mother, and the baby safe.. But still it's in the Lord's hand..
When we went to the hospital, Heejin was already moved to the labor room.. Hobi was inside.. Namjoon oppa wanted to go, but the doctor told him she'll become weak if she sees him.. I went to him, and held his shoulder.. A strong man, a well built man who left everything to be with the love of his life, praying to Lord the whole time.. It hurts me seeing him cry.. " Oppa.."
" I'm scared, Areum.. I'm scared I-"
" It's okay.. Everything will be okay.. She's a strong girl okay? She loves you.. Your love is with her.. Please be strong Oppa.." He cried even more, so I hugged him closely.. " Oppa.."
I caressed his back to calm him down, but he was literally shaking.. " Areum.. What if she won't make it.. What if my baby.."
" Oppa!!" I cupped his face.. " Shut up.. Nothing will happen like this.. We all are here for her.. We'll do anything, anything.. Please calm down.." He cupped my face, and hugged me.. " I'm sorry I can't even come to see you.. I'm the worst brother in this world.. I couldn't congratulate you personally.. I couldn't be there for you when you needed me.. I-"
" Oppa.. It's okay you couldn't come to me, but I came right.. That's what we are.. Please calm down.. I love you so much, don't cry please.." He buried his face on my shoulder.. I can hear his mumbles.. Him praying to Lord..
Our beautiful yet sad moment got disturbed by the doctor's voice.. " I'm sorry but who are patient Heejin's relatives?"
Oppa went to him, " We're.. What happened?"
He took a big sigh before continuing.. " I'm sorry to say but both the baby's, and mother's condition is getting worse.. She's losing too much blood, and the baby's heartbeat is decreasing.. We need to hurry up!!" I saw Namjoon Oppa fall on his knees, not even reacting a little.. I bent down to give him support, when he looked up.. " What can we do?"
" Right now we need blood.. We can't tell anything else right now.. The group is A.. Please do it fast, we don't have time.."
" Can you specify which type?" Jungkook asked..
" it's AB+"
" I've A+" I said..
" I'm sorry but we need AB+.. Even you've the type, we can't take your blood, because you're pregnant as well.. " Namjoon Oppa harshly wiped his tears and got up.. " Start the process.. I'm managing anything I can.." He said, and left us there.. Before leaving the corridor, someone blocked his way.. Even far from here we can hear Namjoon Oppa's shaky breaths.. His hand fists just by seeing that person's face..
" My blood type is AB+.. I can give blood, if you.. if you give me the permission.." He gulped harshly, before meeting Namjoon Oppa's eyes..
" Jimin!!"
" No.." Namjoon Oppa said sternly..
" Oppa!" Suzy came to him..
" I know you're trying your best not to kill me, but I just want to-"
" I SAID NO!!!!" He screamed, and pushed him on the ground..
" I'll turn this world upside down for her, but I won't let her have your dirty blood in her, and in my child.. NEVER!!"
" Oppa!!" I ran to him.. " Oppa at least think-"
" You can be blind by his act, I WON'T!! How fucking dare can you think I would think about it??!!"
" Oppa 1st listen to me please"
" SHUT UP!!" He jerked my hand off, and was about to hold Jimin's collar, when Yoongi Oppa stopped him..
" Calm you fiery ass down and listen to me.." He ordered.. But Namjoon Oppa didn't budge..
" You can turn the world upside down, but that won't make your world recover from the danger.. Think about Heejin 1st.. I know he hurt her, but right now, you need him.. Deny it how much you want, but you need him Namjoon!!"
" I fucking don't need him!! I don't want any of his near me, or my family.. You want him, keep him.. But I won't.."
" Hyung, please just think about it once.." Jungkook said, and Hobi came from the OT room.. " Namjoon.."
" Hoseok.." He went to him.. Suzy, and I helped Jimin to get up.. " Are you sure you can help?" I asked..
" If I've to give my life then I won't hesitate.. I really want to help.." Jimin said..
" Oppa.." Suzy hugged him, and I went to Hobi.. " Is there any other way?"
" I'm sorry baby but we need blood as early as possible.. I'm trying my best to contact people, but it'll take so much time.. Please do something.. Namjoon, Heejin wants to see you.. She's crying saying it'll be the last time seeing you.. Please come in front of the window.." Namjoon Oppa felt stoned beside me.. I hold his hand to give some of my warmth, but it's not helping..
" What about the blood bank?!" Jungkook asked..
" I contacted.. As it's a rare group, it's hard to keep a store.. Namjoon, come with me.."
" I'm coming too.." I took his hand, and dragged him to the OT room..
He came in front of the window, and took a sharp breath.. The tear that was dried on his face, became alive again.. He bite his lips to be strong.. Heejin couldn't see her till, but he tried to be strong.. I held his shoulder, and wiped his tears..
Heejin's condition is getting worse.. Her face became pale.. Even with the oxygen mask, we can see how much pain she's enduring. " Oppa.. Please think about it.."
" I- What if she hates me after this? She hates him, Areum.. She's scared of him.. Till now she had nightmares about that night.. Can you imagine what she might feel.."
" On the bright side, maybe she'll think about forgiving him for saving her baby's life.. Think positive Oppa.. What if she actually sees him in a different way.. After all, you can't deny Jimin has changed.. At least let's see if he can still donate, if he can't then we'll have to search for it, but before that.." I held his face, and made him face me.. " Let him help.. He wants to repay.. Just keep your anger, your ego aside.. Just for this time.. Please Oppa.."
He said nothing, but looked at her.. Who finally looked at him.. Heejin raised her hand, tears rolled from her eyes.. She whimpered in pain, when Hobi came to her.. He smiled at her, and started saying warm words.. Hobi looked at us, and told us to leave.. She's getting excited which might be harmful for her..
I took him to the corridor, and let him sit.. I went to Jimin.. I got to know his blood matched with Heejin.. " You've only one chance.. If you fail, forget about even coming in front of them.. Okay?"
" I'm glad at least I can come helpful.." He patted my shoulder, and went to Namjoon Oppa.. Slowly he bent down.. Namjoon Oppa turned his face from him.. He sighed, and tried to hold his hand, but Oppa jerked him off.. But still he held his hands.. " If I could, I would give my life for your forgiveness.. If it means to take everything I've, in return you would look in my eyes with a little bit of empathy.. I won't think twice before giving everything to you.. If you want I would kiss your feet my whole life, but please.. Give me a chance I beg you.. Let me repay my sins.. I can't even die thinking there's someone out there who still kept the hatred for me, which I'm to blame.."
Oppa slightly looked at him, left a big sigh, and looked other ways.. " Just bring back my family to me.. You won't need to do anything.." He said lowly, and Jimin smiled.. He looked at me, and I nodded happily.. Suzy wiped tears from my eyes, as she hugged me sideways..
" I hope I come useful.." He kissed Oppa's hand softly, and left the corridor with the doctor..
3 hours later
Jimin came after 30 minutes, telling us her condition wasn't so good, but doctors are trying their best.. Not a single time it didn't happen that I looked at Namjoon Oppa, and he wasn't murmuring.. I didn't know about the others, but Oppa will destroy the whole hospital if something bad happens to Heejin..
We all were waiting to open the OT room door, and give us any news about her.. It's been nearly 5 hours since they took Heejin inside.. Suddenly Hobi came.. His head was low when he opened the door.. Removing the surgical cap, and glass, he looked all at us.. We ran to him, asking what happened to her.. What's the news.. He said nothing..
With a sulky voice, he called Namjoon Oppa.. His shoulder brushed with mine, and I felt chills feeling how cold he was.. Still he was sweating.. He held Hobi's hand.. His pupil shook, hands were trembling.. " Hyung.." He whispered..
Hobi said nothing.. He held his shoulder, and took him inside.. We called them so many times but nobody answered.. I sat on the seat, praying to lord nothing bad might happen..
It felt like 10 minutes, after the door swung open.. We all looked at the door, with our heart feeling stopped, becoming stone.. Hobi came out 1st with his signature bright smile.. We got confused, but the confusion faded in thin air when we heard soft voices from behind..
Namjoon Oppa, with a baby in his arms, whimpering a little.. I never saw him smiling like this.. He looked at us, and nodded fast.. " He's here.." He whispered..
Our faces widened.. I ran to him, he smiled with tears in his eyes.. I looked at his arms, with my blurry eyes.. A tiny little baby, with tiny little hands, leaving soft cries time by time, hitching a little..
" Oh my sweet Lord.." I said, and laughed.. " My baby you're here.." I looked at Oppa, and hugged him.. He let go another shed of tears, when I asked if I could take him.. He slowly gave the baby in my arm.. I cried, when rest of us started adoring him.. Suddenly I looked at Oppa.. " Heejin?"
" She's fine too.. She's sleeping.. You can meet her tomorrow.." Namjoon Oppa looked behind me, where Jimin was resting his head over Suzy's shoulder, eyes closed.. He went to him, when he opened his eyes.. Oppa tried to say something but nothing came at that moment.. So I went to them.. " Jimin.." He looked at me, and got up.. I looked at Oppa, and he just nodded.. I smiled, and looked at Jimin..
" Aren't you gonna take your 조카 (nephew) in your arms?"
His lips parted, when he took a sharp breath.. I could see how his eyes filled with tears.. I held the baby in front of him, when he slid his arms slowly underneath the baby.. He looked at the baby.. With whimpers, his lips shook.. He looked at me, and gulped.. " Is it.. Do you.. Am I really.."
" Uncle? Of course you're.. You're his.. Hmm what can I say... You're his Uncle mochi!! Ask me why?" He waited, so I said again..
" Look at your face.. Totally looking like a steamed mochi, don't you think Suzy?" I winked, and she laughed.. " Then I'll be his aunt?"
" Yes you're.." I looked at Oppa, who was just smiling at our conversation.. Out of nowhere, Jimin handed me the baby, and hugged Oppa.. He was startled a little.. " Thank you Hyung.. Thank you.." He cried over his chest, when we all looked shocked.. What if Oppa hit him again..
To our surprise, he hugged him back.. Not totally but we could say it wasn't awkward.. " Thank you too.. For... saving my family.." That was it, when others came to us, and were giggling with the newborn.. My cheeks hurt by smiling like this.. My family.. My own family finally smiling like I wanted.. They're laughing, joking, caressing the baby, calling him by sweet names..
I stepped back a little, when my smile faded away a little.. " I wish you'd be here too.. My family would be filled then.." I held my tummy, and sighed.. " You love babies so much.. I'm sure you would be the most excited one if you were here.. I wish you were here Tae.. I wish I could give you this news that you're going to have your own baby.. I wish.. I wish.." I slowly wiped my tears, putting a smile in front of them, burying this cold feeling of not having him around..
After a week
Areum's P.O.V
I was playing Uno with Jungkook, and Suzy in the backyard. By my surprise my mental health condition wasn't that worse as I was thinking.. I could still smile, think something else other than hurting myself..
" Can I join?" We looked up to see Dasom came..
( She's so cute, look at her smile UwU)
Yes.. Dasom came to Korea.. Not only her, but Yuri Unnie, and Maya came as well.. I called Jimin before I decided I would take my life..
" I saved your life, you said.."
" Of course you did.."
" Then I owe you your life I guess.."
I can hear the gulp from the other side..
" I'll do anything, even if it's givin-"
" Your life is nothing to me..
I might break your neck, still will feel nothing.."
" I'm sorry Areum.. I wish I could save my best friend,
and bring him back to you"
" But you can save someone else.."
" Mean?"
" Finish the fuck you're doing in America,
and come back to Korea for real..
Bring Yuri, and Dasom with you as well..
That's what I want you to do..
Convince them, scare them, beg them. Do whatever the fuck you want..
I want them back here.. To my hyungs.. I want them to be happy.."
He sighed.. " I'll try my best.. Anything else?"
" Bring Maya with you as well..
Or else you won't keep your sanity.."
With that I cut the phone, took the pills from the packet, and mixed them with their food..
Jimin came back with them the day Heejin was in the labor room.. He saved both of their lives.. Since then he hadn't come in front of us.. He said he would scare Heejin even more if she knew about it.. I tried to talk with him but he didn't budge..
Yuri , and Dasom are living with my hyungs.. I could see the brightening happiness in them.. Radiating throughout the room.. They looked at me, 1st with a glare, but that became a soft one, when they hugged me.. Even if they didn't admit.. I knew they're fucking crazy about these two sister.. They were missing them so badly.. Soon they're going to get married, and I can't wait to see it..
As for Maya.. She didn't want to come here.. Rather she started to work right away after coming back here.. It was like Maya keeping herself busy from all of these trauma with work.. I tried to go to her house, but she said it would be better if we don't communicate..
Dasom sat with us.. We were talking like old time friends.. Suddenly I felt a little stinging inside my belly.. Sometimes I forgot I'm carrying a precious bean in me.. I slowly got up to drink some water.. I went inside, when Dasom joined me..
" You okay?"
" I'm.. It's just I need to drink, and eat more often.."
" No problem, let me help.." She smiled, and slid a hand over my forearm, and went inside the house..
I sat, and drank some water.. We sat down, and were talking about how Dasom made Hobi to propose her for marrying, and how she twirled him around her finger, when suddenly we heard some shouts.. We looked at each other, and ran upstairs from where the sound was coming from..
" WHY DID YOU BRING HIM HERE??!!"
" HE WOULD KILL MY BABY TOO!!"
" NAMJOON WHY??!!" By the time we entered the room, Heejin was clenching the baby in her arms, Namjoon beside her trying to talk, but she was crying and screaming, making the baby cry too.. And then my eyes fall on him..
Jimin was on the ground on his knees, his head was low, his heavy breaths echoed in my ear. His hands were fisted over his thighs.. I got to know that Jimin came here to meet Suzy. He was about to take her to his house for a few days.. But by mistake he went to Heejin's room, when she was breastfeeding her son..
The loud scream was enough to call everyone in the house.. But we were outside so we didn't listen..
I looked at Namjoon Oppa who was trying his best to calm her down, because the baby was crying.. " Heejin baby please just calm down, you're scaring the baby.."
" He's just hungry!! And the screams you're hearing are for this animal you brought back here! Are you even thinking right now? Didn't you remember what he did to me!!?? You were the one who took care of me!! How could you forget Namu? Just how? He's a living nightmare, and you brought him here? You want me to leave this place with my baby? You know I still see nightmares, and the face would be his.. How shameless of a person can be that he came here to show even his face? Wasn't it enough to torture me like that? He would even kill me that night.. Because of whom?" She looked at me..
" Only because of her.. My life is ruined just because of you Areum!! Because of you, he tortured me, blackmailing you to come and take my position.. And you did what? You made him your friend? Oh what kind of hypocrite you're Areum!!"
" HEEJIN!!" Namjoon shouted.. Dasom came to her, and took the baby from her.. She went to another room.. The baby was scared, and crying nonstop.. Heejin couldn't even stop him..
" Don't shout at me!! She might be your sister, but she's as much as responsible for whatever happened to me.. It's not a secret anymore, that she even killed people for her own good.. So she can do anything and don't give a fuck.." She stopped, and slowly came to me..
My head was hanging down.. I wasn't even reacting.. I was listening to her carefully.. I was letting her throw out the hate she built up for me.. " Forget about me.. Did you realize Areum just because of you, none of your hyungs were starting their life? They sacrificed their personal life just to be sure you're okay.. They would forget they've a life, but will do anything for you.. And you did what? You abandoned all of them, and flew to somewhere having the best life.. And when you ruined everything back there, you're here again.. Am I right, Areum?" I took a sharp breath.. Daring to look at her..
" You know what this type of person is called?? Selfish.. A selfish person, Areum.. That's what you're.. A selfish person!!"
" HEEJIN SHUT UP!! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!" Namjoon Oppa came to us, but I stopped him.. I felt a lump in my throat when I gulped, and slowly looked at her.. Fire was spitting from her eyes to me..
" It's okay Oppa.. This was the actual truth, even I knew it.. You were the one who put the blindfolds.. I'm sorry.." I looked at her.. " I don't know how I would repay everything you've lost.. I'm sorry to ruin your life.. I'm sorry to take your soon to be husband from you.. I wish you all the best for your upcoming life.." With that I bitterly wiped my tears, I looked at Jimin, and went to him.. " You're a part of my sin. You're coming with me.." I stood him up, and left the room..
Before leaving, I bumped into Jungkook, but I didn't bother.. He looked confused and went to the room..
A/N P.O.V
" What happened?" Jungkook asked.. But nobody replied, so Heejin spoke again.. " Oh nothing.. Your lovely best friend couldn't take the bitter reality" She scoffed..
" Reality? What do you mean?" He frowned his brows..
" Heejin, please stop.." Namjoon gritted..
" Oh nothing!! I just revealed the truth you're hiding since I can remember.. That she's a selfish person who only thinks about herself.."
" Is that so?" He raised a brow
" Or else what? Don't you agree you guys sacrificed your personal life for her? That you're giving your best while she threw all of it? That she's being selfish that she left all you here, and went to Italy with someone just to ignore all of us for 5 years?"
In return Jungkook just laughed.. " I didn't know you're making this type of girl as your wife hyung.." He looked at Namjoon, and he lowered his head..
" Areum and being selfish.. Hmm I see.. Then how you'll explain this that she was the one who was the victim in all of this.. To polish your memory, Heejin.. Areum never wanted any of us to stay by her side.. Rather we forced her.. Whatever you've faced that night, she was facing much worse than that long before you got to know her.. That time for your information, she didn't want us to be with her.. Rather she wanted to kill her, because she was feeling she's being a burden to us. Even today, she still tried to take her life thinking we might move on.." Namjoon's shout echoed through the room when Jungkook spilled the truth..
" I wonder you didn't realize this hyung.. She tried to kill herself from jumping off the cliff that night.. She didn't pass out because she's pregnant.. She was the one who called Yuri, and Dasom because she could see her hyungs weren't doing very well.." Heejin rolled her eyes..
Seeing this he chuckled.. " That night.. She would be damned, to care for you.. Because you were not related to us.. Why would she care about you? But here we are.." He mocked..
" If that night she didn't show up, you would be dead already, and no one would give a fuck, because as always.. You were no one to us.. A call.. A simple call made her run to that factory, and surrender herself in front of that psychotic bastard.."
" Speaking of him.. You still see the nightmare of him.. I understand.. He was brutal to you.. But do you know what he had faced because he hurt Areum, and you? He was chained, treated like an animal.. Getting beaten was one of his daily activities.. Ask him to lift up his pants a little.. Some yet bleeding wound you could see on his ankle.. Not only Seokjin hyung tortured him, but threatened him saying he might hurt Suzy.. His only family.. Seokjin.. The one who took Areum from us, again wasn't her fault.. Till you blamed her.. When she tried to talk with us, never forgot to ask about you.. That she was about to risk her life just to save you, and your child, but guess what someone else took her place.. You know who?" Heejin looked at him with guilty eyes..
" The same person that was responsible for your nightmare.. Yes.. Jimin saved your life Heejin.. But before that hyung even tried to hurt him, even seeing without him no one can save you at that time.. Without his help, you and your baby won't even see this world today.. So stop with all your bullshits that they're being selfish, because right now, you're the one who is selfish.." Jungkook left a big breath..
Heejin took some sharp breaths, her eyes wandering the whole room.. She didn't say anything, and left the room.. She didn't need to go far, because she could see Jimin was hugging Areum, and patting her head.. If it was the normal time, she would freak out, but she started seeing things in a different perspective..
Dasom came to her, and handed her the baby.. " I don't know what happened to any of you, but if you're hating Jimin.. He's an angel.. I never saw him hurting someone, rather he used to be a silent boy.. I don't know what happened, but after he found his sister, he changed upside down.. I feel happy seeing him happy.. His smile can heal people.. Just give him a chance.. I hope that smile will heal you too.." She smiled, and Heejin looked at them.. She went to them.. Hearing footsteps, Areum moved back, and about to leave, but she stopped her..
" I need your help.." Areum stopped, and looked at her.. " Yes?"
" Hold him like your son.. You need to do some practice as well.. It's not far away you're gonna hold your baby.." Areum frowned her brows.. Heejin looked at her softly.. " I-" She gulped..
" I-I don't know how to say these but.. All I know is there's a life ahead of us, and I don't want our children to face anything we've faced.. I want to bury all of the bad times, and start a new.. I'm sorry to lash out on you.. I'm sorry I-" Areum said nothing, and hugged her..
" It's okay.. I should be the one apologizing.. Because of me you've to face those.. It's okay you just said the truth.. I'm not holding anything on you.. I knew all of these long before you said.." She looked at her, and wiped her tears.. " And as you've said.. Let's bury all the bad memories, and start something new.." Both of them smiled..
Jimin softly smiled, and turned to leave the place.. " Did I tell you to go??!" Heejin shouted.. Jimin stopped and looked back.. " Just because I'm forgetting the memories, doesn't mean I'm forgiving you.. You've to earn my forgiveness.."
He lowered his head, and nodded.. " Anything you order.. I will obey.."
" Heejin I think-" Areum tried to talk but she stopped her.. " He might be your friend, but not mine.. You!! Come here.. FAST!!!" Areum was feeling upset seeing Heejin still keeping the hate for him..
As an obedient person, Jimin came to her.. She suddenly moved forward with her baby.. " Sniff."
" Huh?" He asked..
" Sniff his butt.." He got confused but sniffed, and scrunched his nose.. " He ruined the diaper.. He needs to be clean.. It stinks bad.." He said.. So Heejin gave the baby in his arms, and he took him softly, but he was confused..
" From now on, you'll clean his potty, and diapers.. Even his vomits.. And this is your punishment for hurting me, and scaring me.." Heejin said, and Jimin's mouth hung open.. Areum couldn't control herself, and started laughing.. Heejin chuckled a little, tried to be serious but failed.. Her baby started crying.. " Come'on Jimin, clean him fast!! Or I'll let him potty on you!!"
" Yah no I'll clean, but at least tell me how?" We were struggling to stand still seeing his face..
He took the baby close to him, even when he was dirty.. He was calling him beautiful names, singing songs to stop his crying.. Wiggling him a little, he went inside, but Heejin stopped him again.. He looked back when Heejin came to him.. " I don't know if you're really the Jimin I used to be scared of.. But I want my son to have this angelic uncle Jimin in his life.. I won't say I forgive you, but thanks for bringing me, and my son back to this world.. Thanks for saving our lives.." She softly wiped tears from Jimin's eyes, and left us there.. Jimin looked at Areum, and she patted his shoulder..
" Congratulations!! Welcome to your new life.."
-------------------------------------------------------
Several Months Later
Areum's P.O.V
It's been nearly 9 months since Taehyung left all of us.. Left me.. Left me in this world without him.. I was sitting on the bed.. Sometimes I felt suffocated to breathe.. I feel choked.. I couldn't even move without anyone's help.. My belly became bigger, and anytime my water might break..
My daily check ups showed me and my baby are doing pretty good.. We both are healthy.. Just I need to be careful in this last stage.. I woke up from the bed, holding the chair beside it.. It hurts.. My belly hurt even from the slightest move.. The baby kicked most of the time, and it was visible..
In these months my family took great care of me.. They never left me alone in this room.. They would come to talk. Mostly with the baby.. Jungkook would sneak some snacks into my room.. We'd eat them quietly, trying not to get caught, especially to Hobi.. He'd straight take me to the hospital, because that's where he could keep eyes on me.. Still he found out sometimes, but my puppy eyes saved me..
Dasom, Yuri, or Suzy took care of my food.. They made sure I never skip my meal or medicines.. Heejin guided me how to take care of the baby even when it's inside the womb.. She suggested some exercises to me as well..
Each of them took extra care of me.. I'm blessed to have them.. I wonder what they're doing, as I'm alone up here.. They might be busy.. I should go downstairs.. I need to walk a little as well..
Placing a hand behind my waist, I slowly moved my feet.. I took heavy breaths.. I'm feeling extra dizzy today.. My body was feeling so low.. I was sweating a lot.. I was thirsty as well..
Suddenly I flinched a little.. I felt some kind of shock inside my belly.. It was normal, Heejin said, as the baby was moving inside.. But today's pain didn't seem normal.. I took another deep breath, and tried to move..
Suddenly I felt someone start stabbing inside my belly.. The pain was unbearable.. I was whimpering a little, but that turned into screams when I couldn't even move.. I started screaming, and I felt huge pressure inside my pubic area.. Like I didn't pee for a decade..
When I tried to hold myself, but that was it.. My water broke, and I screamed.. " OOOPPPPAAAAA!! AAAHHH!!" I fall on the ground holding my tummy.. The pain was increasing so much.. Heejin already gave me a fair idea about the pain, but it was worse than I'd imagined..
Namjoon Oppa was the 1st one who entered the room.. His eyes widened, and he called others.. Hobi already arranged an ambulance, when the doctor said my time is near.. They took me in the ambulance.. I was crying, screaming in pain.. " Oppa I'll die, Oppa I need to be alive for my baby, Oppa please it hurts aaahh!!"
" I'm here okay? Nothing will happen to you.. I love you baby, I'll do anything for you.. Please try to take deep breaths.." Yoongi Oppa sat beside me, and let my head lay on his lap.. Jungkook on the other side started massaging my feet, and hands to keep me warm.. Namjoon Oppa, and Hobi were in front of the car..
" Oppa.." I called him.. He looked down at me, caressing my chin.. " yes baby?" I took some breaths.. " If something happens to me.. Please tell my baby his father was a great person!! He would be the best dad in this world.. He would love my baby more than me.. I wish he would be by my side, Oppa!! I wish I could give him the baby by myself.. I wish.."
" Try to think positive Kuzi.. He's here with you.. You know it better than us.. So what if your baby won't have a father? H/she'll have the best mom in this world!! Calm down Kuzi, please.." He gulped, and kissed my temple.. Tears rolled from his eyes, and I closed my eyes a little.. I was tired..
In a matter of time I was already in the labor room.. With everything settled, my oxygen mask was fogging every time I was taking heavy breaths.. " Okay Areum.. You did a great job of taking care of yourself.. I'm so proud of you!! Just bear today, and you could see your baby okay?"
I cried, and nodded.. He asked me to push, and I did, but it was still not enough.. " Push Areum.. Use your strength, your anger, your love, everything.."
My love.. My love he said.. I'm doing this for him.. I couldn't be weak.. My hand was fisted, when I opened it a little.. His bands.. I still kept them to me.. I clenched them close thinking he's in them.. He was supporting me.. I had to be strong for my baby, and for its father.. It's his last thing I would carry with me.. Clenching my jaw I gritted my teeth, and pushed hard.. My lower part felt someone tearing apart, but I didn't stop.. I pushed again with all my force, and they could see the head..
" Just one last push.. Let's make it a call Areum!! Just one push.." With one last push I screamed that echoed through the corridor, and I felt something pull out from my body..
There she was.. Coated with my blood.. Her crying was sending chills in my ears.. She was crying and I was laughing, while wiping my tears.. " I promise this will be the last time I will be laughing in your cries.." I whimpered, and wiped my tears.. I looked up at the ceiling.. " She's here Taehyung.. She's here.." I whispered, when the doctor caressed my head.. " You're such a strong girl.. Congratulations Areum.." His smile was the last thing I saw, before I passed out on the OT bed..
When I woke up, I was in another room.. All of my family members were laughing, talking and having good times.. I tried to look at the whole room filled with people.. Nobody left the room, until I woke up.. I could see Jungkook placing his head over Suzy, snoring softly, and waking up time by time.. His eyes fell on me when I smiled.. His eyes widened, and he got up..
" She woke up!!" All of their eyes went to me, when I tried to get up a little.. Hobi came to me, and helped me.. " Were we too loud?"
" Mhmm.. How long did I sleep?" I asked..
" Not more than an hour.. Good thing you need to feed her.."
" Where's she?"
" There she is~~" Yoongi Oppa held her tiny little hand, and was talking with her.. He really couldn't wait to take her in his arms.. " Come'on hyung let us hold her too!!" Namjoon Oppa said..
" Nah!! 1st she'll go to her mother.. Then you can take her.." Oppa looked at me with teary eyes.. He came to me, and softly put her in my arms.. My hand shook when I took her in my arms.. I looked at her.. He's looking exactly like her father.. Same nose, same lips, same cheeks.. I hugged her close and cried.. I cried till she started crying back.. She's hungry.. I need to feed her..
" She's so beautiful, Kuzi.. Just like you.." Oppa said..
" But still she got his father's structure.." I sniffed..
" Okay enough talking.. Everyone outside please.. She needs to feed the baby.." Hobi said..
" But we need a name.. The baby seems so weird to me.." Jungkook said..
" Exactly.. Areum.. What will be her name? Did you choose any, or should we help?" Yoongi Oppa asked.. I looked at her.. I never thought about it.. But right now I couldn't process any name.. Except one..
" My baby is a fighter.. She fought for her life when I gave up.. She came back as a warrior.. One day she'll rule this world.. I know she will.. And as the mother of the warrior, only one name comes to my mind.." I looked at all of them, and then looked at my daughter once again..
" Kim Un Aurora.. That would be her name.."
=============================================
N.B: I really know nothing about pregnancy, or labor pain or anything related to this.. Everything I've written was my own imagination.. Sorry if there's any mistake.. Thank you
Bạn đang đọc truyện trên: Truyen247.Pro