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( I don't know it fits or not, but I really felt the vibe from it while writing this chapter.. Enjoy..)

Areum's P.O.V

When I heard Jungkook made it possible to bring back Suzy, and apologized to her.. I was really shocked, but it's Jungkook.. He can do anything to catch his dreams.. Now as I see them as a couple having the best time they can have.. All I pray to the Lord is that they don't get separated again..

Just as I'm seeing them right now.. Fighting over the remote, but still laughing, tickling each other, kissing sometimes as they didn't realize I can see them from the 2nd floor.. My lips thin with a smile seeing them like this, but someone has to interrupt..

That night was the worst for both of us.. It has been so awkward even staying under the same roof with him.. Neither he talks with me, nor do I.. I ignore him with my everything.. I am feeling so guilty thinking I hurt him.. All he has done is shown his feelings to me, caring about me.. And I hurt him in return.. It's always me who hurts everyone..

I get up to leave when he holds my hand, and I've had to stop " What happened to us?" He asks..

" I don't know.. I've somewhere to go.. Please.." I say without looking at him. Obviously I lied.. I've nothing to do as I've resigned from the institute.. All I can do is visit Dasom, and spend some time with her.. She's talking with me everyday, after that incident..

" Can we talk before that? Please Areum.." He pleads with his heavenly soft voice..

" Is there even anything left to say?" I look back at him..

" Yes.. There is. I've so many things to say, and you didn't give me a chance to clear my position.. I listened to you.. Now it's your turn.." He says taking some steps closer to me..

I exhale deeply.. " Fine.. Let's seat he-"

" No.." He interrupts me.. " Not here.."

" Then?"

" Umm.. It's been so long since we went on any dates don't you think?" He says..

" Oppa I'm sorry but I can't just go on a date with you after what you've done.."

" I know I know.. Okay cut the term date.. Why don't we just spend some time together outside.. And clear the problems in us.. We'll go anywhere you'll ask.. I just want to talk to you.. I.. I can't let you think this much low of me.. Please Areum.. Please.." He pleads, holding my both hands..

I huff.. " Okay fine.. Lemme take my purse.."

He smiles.. " I'm waiting for you in the car.."

We try to be normal as much as possible in the car, because we both realize ignoring each other like this will make things worse.. After like 45 minutes we reach a roadside restaurant.. This is not a good place to talk about something serious, but still he doesn't say anything, nor I..

Seokjin is in front of me looking for a table for us, and talking about things with me, when I feel something suddenly.. I feel something like this more often but I found it's just my hallucination, which is why I brush it off everytime..

But this time it feels stronger.. Sometimes I feel like someone is stalking me.. This is the reason when Taehyung was looking at me at that party, I sensed it instantly.. I can feel if someone lays their eyes on me for more than 3 minutes..

I stop walking, and try to feel it with closing my eyes..
Someone is here..
Someone is here who is just looking at me, piercing my back with their gaze.. And the more I want to feel it, the more it gets stronger..

I snap, look back at me, to see no one is there.. All are the random people minding their business.. But I can't be wrong.. Someone is really there.. Someone who means to be here that is also just for me..

" Areum.." Seokjin's voice interrupts my little investigation.. I look at him, who looks back at me confusedly.. " Why are you standing in the middle of the road?"

I blink sometimes.. " Oh nothing.. Thought saw someone I know.. But realized I've no one here though.." I smile.. He already gets what I'm trying to say.. " Come'on I've found a table.."

" You're not changing your decisions right?"

" Which one?"

" All of them.. Like is there any chance of thinking again about your decisions if I make myself clear here? Because when I got the label that I'm forcing you for staying with me.. I really don't want you to make any assumptions.." He says placing his phone on the table..

" I told you this, and I'm telling you once again stop making things please, why are you making me a bad person here?"

" I'm not Areum.. I-" He inhales deeply, and sighs. "I'm feeling like I'm going crazy after that night.. After you've returned this to me.." He slides his hand into his pant's pocket, and brings out the ring..

" Areum I understand you were caught in the moment, and I'm the one to blame.. But believe me all of the things I did for you was from the core of my heart.. I really never wanted to make you feel otherwise, and I'm sorry if you ever felt this way.."

" I understand.." My attention got on his phone, which was repeatedly buzzing with new messages.. He turned the phone upside down, and started talking again..

" And I can do more than that.. Just tell me.. I can do anything for you.. Tell me what I can do to win your heart, Areum.. I admit I was slightly protective over you.. I-"

" Slightly?? Seokjin do you even hear yourself? You ground rules for me to obey, or I would face the consequences.. And I did.. Did you forget the way you've treated me for some silly reasons?" I ask in disbelief..

" I understand.. This is why I said I admit I was protective over you.. Which is why I took off all the rules or whatever there was.. You can live the way you want.. I just want you to be happy.. That's it.. And.. I want to be a part of it.." The waitress serves our food, when my stare doesn't leave him..

" Then you've to accept that I'm leaving Italy, that also forever.. If you want to start all this again, you've to come to Korea.. Because I've had enough from here, and thanks to you.."

For the 1st time today I see his face becoming pissed off slowly.. He's not liking what I'm proposing.. But I can't help.. I won't stay here no matter what..

" Areum.." He suddenly holds my hand.." Please let's start a new.. Just give me a chance please.. I promise after that you're free to go.."

"So you're telling me I need your permission here?"

" WHAT? NO!! I just want a chance from you.. For us.. That's it.." He pressed his lips to hold his emotion..

He won't take no as an answer, and I chose the fair option.. " I'll think about it.. And also I-"

" AREUM!!" Someone interrupts me and I look up..

"Just fuck me already!!!!" I said in my mind scrunching my whole face.. Why the fuck Taehyung is here like can't I breath a little in peace? Why is my life like this..

"I didn't know I'd see you here.." He says with a smile..

"Maybe because she didn't want you to have you here.. It's called common sense kid!!" Seokjin says..

"Well judging by her reaction even before she saw me, I can tell she doesn't even have any interest in talking with you too oldy!!" Taehyung barked back... Here we go again..

"Well I'm here to cheer her mood, but you're being a pain in the ass here.. So why don't you just fuck off and mind your business?" Seokjin takes his phone, and starts typing on it..

" Oh how much rude you're.. You're here spending time with whom? Your phone or with her ha? But I know people like you... It actually suits you.." Taehyung chuckles..

"Listen you-"

"Oppa I'm going home.." I take my purse and turn back to leave, but Seokjin holds my hand once again...

" I'm sorry but why are you giving him so much priority?" He asks..

" Because maybe I deserve it.." Taehyung smirked..

" Oh you deserve shit!! Areum come, we're going back home.." He yanks me a little.. And Taehyung grabs my other hand at that time..

" You're no one to decide where she will go.. She can decide for herself.. She's not a toddler like you.." I may be angry at Taehyung, but he has said the exact thing I feel..

" All the time what I've chosen for her is only the best and she had no problem with it.. Now why are you giving your opinion that doesn't even anyone want to hear??!!" Seokjin snaps..

"Because I know her far more better than you, so leave her hand.." Taehyung yanks my hand a little..

"I brought her here.. She'll go with me.." Seokjin puts pressure on my wrist...

" But she is th-"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!" I screamed loudly, and jerked my hands from them which gathered all the other people's attention out there on us..

"I'M SERIOUSLY FUCKING HAD MY ENOUGH OF YOU TWO.. Why is my life like this? Why can't I just be happy like all the people out there? Why did you guys even come into my life to ruin it? Just why don't both of you fuck off and LEAVE ME FUCKING ALONE!!!!" I start walking, leaving them there, but then I turn back..

I hand my purse to Seokjin.. " I swear to Lord if I see any one of you near me I'll fucking slit your throat by myself, cut you in so many pieces, that your fucking parents will struggle to identify you!! DO NOT FORGET I DON'T GIVE THREATS BECAUSE I'LL ACTUALLY DO IT!!!" They don't have any fucking idea how much I want to cut their heads off because they're getting on my nerves...

I leave the place with a heavy heart.. My eyes are soaked in tears when I sit on the bench, and let my emotions take over me..

Why don't they get that I don't need any one of them in my life.. All I just want to be happy in my life, and I don't know if I would ever be that.. I want to leave this place as soon as possible.. I need to talk with Yoongi Oppa tonight..

I start wandering in the city by myself, not caring about anything, nor even that feeling... If anyone wants to kill me, then this is the best opportunity for them .. It's better to die than live like this...

Suddenly someone covers my eyes from behind, then my mouth... "Shhh babygirl. You won't do the mistake by screaming would you.." That raspy voice is sending goosebumps over my neck.. I try to scream but I can't...

Out of a sudden someone starts poking me in my sensitive area.. And it leads to tickling me.. I am trying hard to talk, or remove the hand from my mouth but I can't, and I've had to bite that person's hand..

"Aish my hand!!" I was about to attack when I see the culprit..

"The fuck is your problem? You've grown up for fuck sake, how could you still behave like this!!" I am really holding myself to burst on him..

" I just did some pranks like old times.. Why are you scolding me??!!" He says massaging his palm..

" What the fuck is everyone's problem like why-"

"Areum it was my plan.. He's no one to blame please.. We came here to do some shopping, and saw you here walking alone.. So I asked him to scare you a little, that's it.." Suzy suddenly comes in front of me..

I just sigh.. I'm too tired to have these shits.. " I'm going home.."

" Areum?? What happened?" Jungkook holds me by my shoulder, and stops me..

" Nothing, just mood swings.. I'll be okay.." I say lowering my head..

" Use these tricks with someone else, not with me.. Look at me.." He tries to lift my head but I deny..

" Areum look at me please baby what happened??" He holds my face to see I am sniffing..

" Wha- what is this why you're crying Areum!! What happened? Did Yoongi hyung scold you? That grumpy old man won't listen to me.."

" He's not grumpy old, okay? He's an evergreen handsome man you'll ever see.." I wiped my tears..

" Okay fine.. He's the most handsome and hottest person in this world, now tell me what happened?" He's being so pissed off, as I'm not saying anything.. With that I told them what's going on with my life.. From breaking up with Seokjin to today's incident..

" Hmm I see... Seriously like why can't they just think about you? All they're thinking about are themselves.. Also I do-"

" Jungkook, will you stop making her feel more miserable? Stop it.. She doesn't need your lecture, rather something that might make her feel better..." Suzy stops Jungkook..

" Okay so do you've anything in your mind??" Jungkook asks in a mocking way, and Suzy smirks..

"Like seriously why the fuck girls have to have all the fun? Take me with you, I might come handy.." Jungkook screams from behind us holding all the shopping bags..

" You're already helping us by holding those bags.. Thanks baby.. Love you.." Suzy giggles with me, and drags me to somewhere

When I didn't realize Taehyung actually came after me, and called Jungkook when he found him alone...

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"What the- Suzy??!!"

"What?"

" Why did you bring me here like what I'm doing here??!!"

" You're going to pamper yourself.."

"Are you crazy or what? I'm going home.." I move, but she stops me.. " What's the problem?"

" Nothing.. I'm leaving.." Suzy may forget it but I can't.. These dresses are my worst nightmare.. Even if I close my eyes, I can imagine myself in these dresses, and the things I've faced..

" For how long will you let those memories haunt you?" She says, making me look at her..

" I know these will make your day worse.. And you're the one to blame.. How long will you bound yourself saying you've a bad past over something that makes you happy Areum?"

" Suzy please I'm not in a mood.."

" I'm not asking you to be prepared to have sex with someone.. I'm asking you to pamper yourself.. We buy these not to impress, but doll ourselves up.. Why don't you do it too?"

" Exactly.. This is the reason.. You, and I are not the same Suzy.. You may wear them thinking about how much it'll make you sexy or hot in front of Jungkook, or how much hot you'll look in it, just like a doll you've mentioned.. But for me all I can think is how people are touching that doll, ripping these things off, as well as ripping the doll too to satisfy themselves.. We're not the same Suzy.." I say fisting my hand..

" Then how did you stay with Oppa when he reminded you the same thing you fear the most?" She bluntly asks me, which makes me think a little..

" What? Oppa said himself to me how much you were scared of him when he came in front of you, and now look at yourself.. You stand for him each and every time when me or Oppa were about to get humiliated.. So now as you change your perspective about someone you once scared.. Then why don't replace some good memories with those bad memories which are killing you painfully each and every day?" I hate to admit, but she does have a point..

" Suzy I-"

" What? Give me any reason that might make me think that you should drown yourself in those bad memories, and never try to live once again with something new?" She folds her hand over her chest..

I look at her, remaining silent, when she gets the idea pretty well.. She smiles, and hugs me, trying to calm me down, because I'm gonna take a huge step today.. She gives me her shoulder to calm down a little, and when I do she wipes my tears, and drags me inside the store..

She starts showing me the most revealing clothes, to the most decent one.. It's all up to me to choose in between.. I choose some, and go to the changing room.. She wanted to come with me but I denied.. I don't want anyone to see my actual version that I hide with overly baggy clothes..

But I've had to let her in, because I was struggling with these two pieces of cloth.. She comes, and I clearly see the shock in her eyes even just for a split of seconds, after seeing those scars.. She laughs, and looks at me with wide eyes.. " Mamma miya who's this hawt girl??!!" She smirks..

" Will you shut up, and fix this?" She giggles, and helps me to wear the least amount of fabric I've ever put on my body.. I'm wearing a robe on top of this to hide my skin.. " Is lesbian a thing?" Suzy whispers in my ear, and I gasp..

" YAH WHAT THE FUCK GET OFF ME!!" I screamed..

She laughs.. " Seriously if anyone sees you right now, believe me he'll squirm then and there.. You're really making me blush by how sexy you're looking right now.. I can't even think what a man might feel.."

" I know very well how a man will feel.." I bitterly smile, which makes Suzy stop talking..

" Ugh again those talks.. Just look at you bitch!! You're not dolling yourself up for someone, but for you.." She takes me in front of the mirror, and lets the robe slide down, falling on my feet..

A maroon lingerie was covering my private part.. The stripes are enough to lift up my curves.. The bra holds up my breasts firmly, giving a lift to it to make it a little bit bigger than it is.. The underwear used a transparent cloth, but covered to the right place that should be covered.. The satin fabric, with velvet touch in it.. The laces just put on the stripes to make it even more eye-catching.. But when I look all over myself all I can think about those nights where something like these were ripped off to devour me..

I breathe a little bit faster, while trying to calm myself down.. Gulping a little I close my eyes, when I feel two hands wrap me closely.. " You're safe here with me bitch.. No one dares to touch you when you're with me, okay?" Suzy lifts up my face to make me look at the mirror.. Even till now, I struggle to look at myself in the mirror.. I try to close my eyes, but Suzy slaps my arm, and I've had to look again..

" Do you see what I see?"

" A broken soul?" I whisper..

" Mhmm.. I see the most strongest girl I've ever seen in my life.. The girl who fights for everyone, the girl who never slides anything that might feel wrong to her.. The girl who put up a war with whoever tried to harm her, or her loved ones.. The girl who never dodged off even in the crucial moment.. A girl who might show she's ruthless which she is, but behind her strong image there's a beautiful girl who only has love to share.. Who can do anything, and everything to make herself happy.." A drop of tears fall from my eyes, which I wipe sharply..

" Don't think I'm making things, Areum.. But I'm seeing the best version of you in front of me.. Which you hid from the whole world outside.. Can I request you something?" I nod lightly..

She makes me face her.. " Never ever show your weak side to anyone.. You carry the best version of yourself... No matter what happens, never let anyone feel that you've changed, or become weak.. The past you faced is nothing in front of the toughest girl I'm seeing right now.." She caresses my scars, making me flinch a little..

" Remember these marks.. These scars.. make you who you are.. Let people see what kind of survivor you're.. Hiding this just makes them have the worst idea about you.. Just remember one thing, Areum..

" These scars are the one that make you different from everyone out there.. That no one can beat you.. No one can be you.. Got it?" She smiles, and I hug her.. I don't make friends that much, but I can proudly say I haven't made a mistake making her my best friend who knows what I'm feeling, who knows what I need to hear..

Each and every time she hits the exact spot where I start to think about my decisions, and she does this once again.. She kisses my forehead, and leaves the room for me to change.. I look at myself for the last time, having an idea that maybe I'm actually looking beautiful.. I smile a little, and start removing the pieces..

After I've changed, I goto the cashier to pay when something hits me.. " Suzy.."

" Liked something else? We'll take them too.." She says placing the pairs on the counter..

" No, these should be fine.. But tell me one thing.."

" Hmm?"

" I've been staying here for like more than 5 years, but I didn't have any idea that this mall has so many lingerie shops.. But how come you've so much knowledge about this place? You've only been here for a few months only.." I raised my brow, and she just nervously gulped..

" Suzy?"

" um.. yeah" She laughs weirdly.. " Aish you're such a stalker.. I came into these shops so many times with Jungkook okay? Which is why I-"

" Hello again ma'am.. We've placed your order.. Kindly pay the bill.. Should I use the previous name here? Jung Hoseok??" WHAT!!!???

" WHAT THE FUCK??!!" my mouth widens so much it hurts a little, but I look at her.. " SUZY!!!"

" AISH!! Please name the bill on my name.. Park min Suzy.."

" Suzy What is this?? How come Hobi's name is here, on top of that in a lingerie shop?! Suzy please don't tell me you're cheat-"

" WHAT THE FUCK YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT??!! NEVER!!" I press my lips..

" That's what I thought.. Now spill.." I glare..

She looks at me, pursing her lips together, thinking should she spill or not.. " Suzy.." I call her with a dark tone..

" Tell me right now or I'm calling Jung-"

" Hoseok asked for my help to buy some lingerie, okay??" I get a shock all of a sudden..

" You're making things.. Hobi, asked you, to buy what? Lingerie??" I chuckled.. " Stop it already Suzy.. Tell me the truth.."

" Ma'am here's.. you receipt.." The cashier bitterly smiles for spilling the truth.. Suzy takes the card, and leaves the shop..

" Suzy, wait!!" I stop her..

She groans.. " Listen Hoseok asked for my help to buy some lace for his girlfriend.. He didn't know the size, so I had to buy the sizes I found that might fit her okay? And he paid the bill last time.. That's it.."

" Hobi having a girlfriend? You're joking.."

Suzy sighs.. " This is the truth, believe it or not.." And at the same time Dasom calls me saying where I'm, as I'm supposed to visit her..

" Anyway, let's go somewhere else.. I need to clear my mind.." I say..

" Where?"

" One of my colleagues' houses.. She invited.. Come.." I drag her to the car she has parked outside the mall..

I press the bell of her house, and wait for a little.. I got to know from Suzy that Hoseok was really forcing her to buy the best from the shop, and he also paid for her pairs as well.. I wonder who's that lucky girl that stole my Hobi's heart.. She's the luckiest girl in this world I've to say..

The door opens, and I smile.. " Hey Dasom, how are y-"

" YOU!!" Suzy suddenly shouts looking at her.. We get confused by her reaction..

" Suzy?"

" Areum, she's the one whose picture Hoseok sent to me to buy.." I get the second shock of the day.. I stop reacting, and slowly look at Dasom, who is praying to the Lord that He may vanish her then and there..

I narrow my eyes.. " Ms. Dasom.. We've so many things to talk about, don't you think?" I give him a sinister smile, and push her inside..

" Okay what the fuck is going on? How come you're the girl who is Hobi.. My Hobi, my precious little sunshine, the sun of my life, and a ball of happiness can be your boyfriend?"

" I'm sorry Areum.. I never knew you'll find out like this.. I'm feeling so ashamed right now.." Dasom lowers her head..

" Well you should.. Now spill.." With that she revealed everything about her, and Hobi's relationship.. How they met, how they agreed to have a distant relationship, and how she had to say goodbye to him..

" Areum I'm really sorry.. I knew you would get angry about our relationship, and won't accept it.. But please don't say anything to Hoseok.. I love him way too much, Areum please.." She pleads, and I get confused..

" Why would I get angry?" I scrunch my nose..

" Huh?"

" Why would I get angry about your relationship? You love him, he loves you.. What have I gotten into this?" I shrug

" Like you're not pissed off that me, as your colleague, dating your brother?" She asks lowly..

" 1st of all I quit the job, and you're my friend and not my colleague.. And 2nd why would I be pissed off in the 1st place?"

" So you've no complaints about it?" Her eyes sparkle..

" I guess no?" And suddenly she hugs me.. " You don't have any idea how scared I was of this that you might not accept our relationship.."

" Why wouldn't I.. Before having any connection with me, you both are different people who have every right to love someone you deserve.. I'm actually happy for you guys.." I hug her back.. " And finally I'm happy that you're his Kohinoor, not any cheap fake shits out there.."

She looks at me, and smiles.. " But I can't say the same for Hobi.. I've to call my dearest Hobi.." I grit evilly, and she laughs..

" What's going on here?" All of our attention gets caught by a voice, and we all look at the owner..

" Yuri?" Like how many shocks are left for me to have today?

" Ms. Areum.. What're you doing here?" She asks, placing the book she's reading..

" I came.. here to... meet Dasom.. I didn't know you shared your house with someone.." I look at Dasom..

" Oh yeah for sure.." Yuri chuckles.. " She has to share her house with me, because I give her the expenses as I'm the older one.." She shrugs..

" Now please don't tell me you're sisters.."

" I'm afraid we're.." Dasom laughs..

" So now you've a sister who works under..." Suddenly today's incident comes to mind.. Which I wanted to forget the whole day.. Which is the reason I've come here.. To spend some time away from all the dramas..

" Areum you okay?" Dasom asks, and I just nod lightly with a smile..

" Cut this act okay.. Dasom, blame it on your boss AKA Mr. Grumpy old fart bitch Kim Seokjin who ruined her whole day.." Suzy groaned..

" Suzy please.. Don't say like that.." I protest..

" Shut up okay? That bitch is the reason you're facing all of the shits.. Like why doesn't he accept that you don't want to stay with him, or anyone!! ALso that little piece of shit Taehyung.. Such a shameless prick!!" I know why Suzy is pissed off about them.. They hurt her friend..

" Please don't start now Suzy.. I just.. Let's talk about something else shall we?" I say, trying to ignore the topic..

" So you're not the only one mourning over some dickheads huh?" Yuri asks Dasom..

" I'm sorry what?" I ask..

" My little 2 years older sister here is crying over the fact she won't get laid anytime soon, as her boyfie flew to Korea.. So I was thinking of diverting her mind with something.." Yuri rolls her eyes..

" Unnie please don't say like that.. What would you feel if I said something like this about Yoongi Oppa ha?"

" EXCUSE ME WHAT!!!???" I scream.. Seriously I start hyperventilating after having these much shocking news just in one day..

" Areum why don't you come with me, and I help you to get ready, and have some chitchats about your beloved brother.." Yuri smiles..

" Ready for what?" I ask..

" When I said I'm doing something for my sister, I thought it's only her suffering, but judging by your state.. You need it more than Dasom does.."

" Want what Unnie?" Suzy asks, and Yuri smirks..

" A girls night party, what else?" She winked

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