This chapter will have 3 songs, because of the scenes.. You can stick to the 1st one or change them to feel the vibe.. 

https://youtu.be/dW9AkAbHOGA

(Play the video and turn on the loop, please)

A/N P.O.V

" Care to tell me what happened? "

" 1st tell me what happened there.. What do you mean by

Jimin is missing? He was under Yoongi's instruction..

How could he be missing?? "

" Ask hyung.. He even knows but didn't tell you I assume..

I just finished my shift, and went home, and the next day..."

" Next day what?? "

" Hyung.. Jimin attacked two of the wardboys..

Maybe some nurses too..

The guard's situation isn't that stable.

We can't say anything right now..

Jimin literally put on a blood show last night..

Other patients are scared as hell..

Some are feeling powerful that they can be free like Jimin..

We are really in a big mess hyung..

I don't think so anything are in our- "

" Everything is under control.. I'm coming back..

Where's Seokjin hyung? "

" He's talking with the police.. Where's Yoongi hyung? "

" With Areum.. "

" What happened hyung? 

You didn't tell me what happened there..

Is Areum okay? She didn't hurt herself again, right? "

" In a way she did.. "

" Huh? "

" She.. She let go of Taehyung.. "

" WHAT??!!! How.. I mean why? "

" I'll tell you everything face to face..

We're coming back today.. "

Namjoon hangs up the phone and sighs.. Everything is messed up. He's really feeling confused right now.. He can't leave Areum in this state, on the hand , asylum needs him right now..

" You should go.. We'll take care of her.. " Hoseok says..

" But I want to be with her.. She needs us hyung.. Also, if all of us keep her busy all the time then maybe she'll forget about it.. "

" You want to keep her busy? "

" Yes hyung.. I don't want to make the same mistake again.. Last time we literally caged her in a room so that she couldn't face the outside world, until she had a state of mind.. "

" Hmm.. We should check on her.. " He says and Namjoon nods, and goes to Areum's room..

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Hoseok's P.O.V

We enter the room where Areum is sleeping peacefully.. Seeing her face is enough to calm us down.. Who'll tell this girl literally put up a war against herself, and now lost all of this in the way...

Yoongi hyung is sitting beside her, holding her hand while his other palm is on his forehead.. This boy is really blind for her.. And they're not even real siblings..

" Hyung.. " I call him lowly..

He looks at me, and my face softens. His eyes soaked with tears, visible tension can be seen on his face.. I sigh and go to him. I place a hand over his shoulder.." Hyung.. It'll be alright.. "

" Yoongi, you should stay strong.. Well at least for Areum.. " Namjoon sats..

He doesn't reply and wipes his tears.. " Hyung I know it must be so hard for you, but we're feeling not less than you.. You need to take everything normally.. To make Areum normal again.. It's not new to you.. "

" I'm tired, Hoseok.. " He says not even glancing at us once..

" So is Areum.. But still she did something we couldn't think about.. She risked everything for him.. She knew she'd be like she was years ago still she did.. If she's this much stronger... We are her hyungs... Can't we do this simple thing for her?? "

Hyung sighs and lowers his head.. I hold his shoulder.. " We need to start a new.. Please hyung.. "

He nods a little.. and looks at Namjoon.. " Did you talk with Jungkook? I think this is serious now.. "

" Actually yes.. By what he said, the situation is pretty serious.. We need to act fast, hyung.. I don't want to mention, but I think you also realized what might happen.." His voice clearly shows some tension, and hyung's face also becomes a little dark.. " But how could he sneak under your surveillance? It is nearly impossible!!" He questions

Hyung stands up.. " Nothing is impossible if you give a hand from the inside, Namjoon. We need to be there.. I can't stay here folding my arms after this.. I need to do something.."

" I'm going back too.. " Namjoon says..

" What about Kuzi then? "

" She'll go back too.. " I say and two pairs of shocking eyes met mine..

" Have you gone crazy hyung? After what she had faced.. You're telling us to take her back to that hell again wher-"

" Where you forcefully sent her one day to keep her sane, Namjoon.. Don't forget that.. " I say..

I stand up... " She'd be in better condition had you not forced her that time. She'd never even meet Taehyung if she was here, Namjoon. But still it was her fate to face all of these shits. You're telling me you need to keep her busy huh? What's your idea then about keeping her busy? "

" She'll leave this country, and continue her job somewhere else.. The more she'll be here, the more she's gonna face this.."

I chuckle.. " Will that keep her safe, and most importantly.. normal? "My tone darkens

" I don't see why.. " Yoongi hyung states..

" Hmm I see.. Then tell me this hyung.. We're here for her if something happens.. Don't forget what she's able to do.. We're here to give her company.. But imagine, what'll you do when you'll call her and next thing you hear from an unknown person that she's being hospitalized, and fighting for her life?? " I say.. I can see hyung is literally ripping off my soul with his eyes..

" You can get angry at me, curse at me, don't agree with me.. But you've to accept that Areum isn't someone you can read properly.. If you want my opinion.. " I look back at Areum, who's slowly getting her sense back..

" Let her decide.. "

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Areum's P.O.V

I slowly open my eyes.. My head feels so heavy that I may collapse again.. I try to move my body a little, which catches the attention of someone whom I can't recognize.. That person comes in front of me and bends down, and starts to caresing my head..

" Kuzi.. " He whispers softly.. My vision becomes a little bit clearer.. I close my eyes, and open them again.. I try to pull up my body, when that person helps me.. I sit on the bed, but my head is still beating like shit.. I close my eyes again and take some deep breaths and open them.. I see three figures in front of me..

" Oppa.. " I say slowly..

" Yes baby.. Good morning.. " Another person says and smiles.. Wow!! He really has a bright smile.. I love him already..

" Where am I? "

" You're in your room, and just woke up from a beauty sleep.. " The third person says, smiling sweetly, which shows his dimple.. Is it too early to say I've got a crush on him just by seeing his smile??

And then I realized.. I'm seeing my world in front of me.. Who is the one who gave me an unbearable power in me.. This dimple holder is my strength.. This bright smile is my happiness.. and this gummy bear is my reason to live..

They all smile at me, so do I.. " What time is it? Why didn't you wake me up? "

" You were sleeping so peacefully so we didn't want to disturb you.. " Hobi says..

" Oh!! " I say and get up from the bed.. I tilt my head left and right to ease the neck pain.. I start to stretch my shoulder.. I stretch my finger which make some crack sounds..

I look at them... Something is wrong.. I get confused.. " What happened? "

" N-nothing.. Are you hungry? " Hobi asks..

" Mhmm... Are you? " I shake my head

" N-No.. But you need to eat.. You didn't even take your dinner last night... " He replies..

" Oh.. Okay then.. I'm freshening up.. I'll join you at the dining table.. " But Yoongi Oppa stops me..

" Kuzi.. You ok? "

" Why wouldn't I? "

" Umm.. I... " I narrow my eyes, give him time to tell me what he wants to say

" Actually Kuzi yo know abou-"

" Baby you're hungry right? Go freshen up.. We're waiting for you.. " Hobi interrupts with a smile, and I nod

" But what was Oppa talking about? " I ask

" He didn't sleep that much.. He's sleep talking.. Ignore him.. " Hobi says, and Yoongi Oppa hits his head. I laugh a little and get up from the bed

" You forgot I'm your hyung.. "

" And you forgot she just woke up.. " Hobi says seriously

" Can you guys stop jerking off? We don't have time to waste.. " Namjoon Oppa says..

" About? " I ask..

" You won't understand.. We're waiting for you.. Go freshen up.. " He holds my shoulder, turns me back, and forces me to go to the washroom..

I sigh and go to the washroom..

Did they really think I didn't know??

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I go to the dining room where I see they're arranging foods.. And maybe arguing over something??

" No hyung.. You're not getting this.. We should think before taking any steps.. " Namjoon Oppa says..

" I know what I'm saying. you dickhead left your 148 IQ brain in some gutter.. Go and put that on!!! " Hobi says, and I raise my eyebrows.. Now Hobi has bipolarity too???

" It's not like he's not saying something illogical Hoseok.. I can't risk about it.. I still want to stick to my previous opinion.. "

" I'm sorry to make you wrong but this gutter brain was there when everything happened.. I saw how things were going out of our hands and how me, Jungkook, Yoongi, even Seokjin hyung fought over this.. Seokjin hyung knew what the situation was, but not the reason behind it.. " Namjoon Oppa raises his voice a little

" Yeah so what's the problem this time? All of you'll be there.. Then what's the problem? Why don't you guys are getting my point of view.. Keeping everything as it was is the best way to make things normal again.. " Hobi replies

" Why are you forgetting the situation is not the same anymore.. You know that right ? How could you say this when there's a huge problem hanging in front of us just to fall at the right time and ruin everything.. I can't take any risks.. '' Yoongi Oppa says

" But to me I think situation will come in handy when-"

" When I'll return to the asylum where must me some fucked up shit happen that you guys are fighting like little kids.. " I cut Hobi's words gathering all of their attention on me..

" Areum.. Yo-You.. " None of them can't talk because I actually know what they're talking about..

" What? " I go to them, and shove a piece of tangerine..

" What do you mean by that? " Hobi asks..

" Mmmm it's so sour!! " I winch after eating the tangerine.. " I said I'll return to asylum, and everything will come in handy.. "

" No.. " Yoongi Oppa says..

" Reason? " I say without looking at him..

" That's not a safe place for you.. Well at least for now.. " Namjoon Oppa adds..

" Why? "

" Because Jim-"

" Because I think we should go for a vacation to clear our mind.. " Hobi interrupts again..

" Then what I was doing for the past months? " I was on leave for freaking 4 months.. And Hobi telling me to take a vacation??

" You were still working.. That doesn't count as vacation.. I'm talking about a real one.. "

I straighten my posture and directly look at Hobi.. He becomes tensed a little tense when I come near to him.. " Do you really think I don't know why you're doing this? " I say directly looking into his eyes..

" Baby I- "

" What Hobi? You just said a minute ago that you want me to go back to the asylum, now you're telling me to go for a vacation.. You're not a person like this Hobi.. "

" Areum I think you should think before making any decision.. I know this mean to you but-"

" Taehyung means nothing to me!!" I say, hardening my face enough to show how serious I am..

" He was my patient, and my job was solving his case which I did, and I handed him to someone who can take care of him much better than me.. Now he doesn't mean anything to me.. Then why're you behaving like I'm doomed after he left? What's going on??" I see all of them leaving a heavy breath carefully..

" But still it's better if you work from home.. I think you need to clear your mind for your next case.. " Namjoon Oppa says when I look at him..

" My mind is crystal clear Oppa.. don't get too stressed about me.. I don't want your handsome face to have wrinkles that also for me.. " I wink at him..

" Kuzi you're not going anywhere.. At least for a month.. "

I sigh and go to Yoongi Oppa.. I hold his hand.. " Oppa.. I understand you care for me, but what I know is I'm not staying here anymore.. My life belongs somewhere else.. " I look around.. " I know that asylum is kinda a hell to me.. Which I survived and still surviving.. But this place.. It also becomes a hell to me.. " I look at him..

" And it's unbearable.. " I whisper

" But Kuzi you'r-"

" I'm going back to the asylum.. That also today.. End of discussion " I cut his words and leave all of them and go to my room to pack..

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I start to pack everything.. My hands are shaking, I don't know why.. I don't have that many varieties of clothes, so it doesn't take me much time to pack everything, but I can't focus on anything.. It's like I want to take my shirts, but when I'm about to, my brain stops working.. I'm already pissed off seeing hyungs are hiding something from me again..

My head is messed up, so is my life.. I can't think of anything properly.. What might happen in the asylum that they're forbidding me to go there.. I stop doing whatever I am doing, and try to calm myself down..

I close my eyes...

But a face, a human being, a person who left me here in this hell all alone without even thinking what'll happen to me formed in my vision... That smile, that laugh, that face, that gaze where I gave in all of myself.. I breathe fast.. I try to form anything but that face, anything.. Any fucking thing that might remove that face but no.. Nothing, not even a single thing is making me forget that face.. I wish I could rip off that face from my vision but no.. I can't even do that...

I find myself panting heavily.. I fist my palm to control myself..

But I fail.. I open my eyes and scream.. I look for something to calm myself down, and when I don't find anything.. I go to my table, and I drag whatever the fuck is on my table on the ground.. I break all the vases, the show pieces are lying there lifelessly, everything.. Every fucking thing.. I rip off the books, the notes, the photos hanging on the wall.. I pull out the bed sheet. My mind wants to put up a flame on everything, but I can't do that. I put up a horrific show in my room.. Anybody can feel I become a maniac the moment they'll step in my room at this time..

I try to calm myself down.. My throat feels dry to me.. I look at my hand.. Blood drips from my wrist.. " So this is the reason I'm still in sense.." I chuckle..

I take a piece of cloth.. Wrap it around the wound, and clean the room. Whatever the reason.. This is not my house.. I need to clean my mess..

It feels like an hour, after I'm done with cleaning.. My whole body is filled with cuts and bruises.. I go to the washroom to clean myself.

After I'm done, I pack my belongings.. I look for the last time in this room.. I'll miss this.. It feels home still it isn't...

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https://youtu.be/nXt6Ycruo5s

( Stop the previous one and play the video and turn on the loop, please )

I go to the hall room.. To see Namjoon Oppa, and Yoongi Oppa are already there with their bags.. They notice me, when Namjoon Oppa comes to me and takes my bag.. He doesn't notice the bandage on my wrist.. Good for me

" You still want to go? You can stay for some days.. I'll talk with Seokjin hyung if you want.. " He says..

" That won't be necessary.. Where's Mommy? " I ask..

" Coming in a minute.. "

" Okay then.. " I look at his backpack, and see his ID card is hanging from his bag pocket , and then suddenly I remembered I don't have mine one with me..

" Oppa I'm coming in a minute.. " I rush to my room.. I look everywhere but my ID is nowhere to be found.. I curse myself under my breath.. Why did I have to destroy this whole room that also today? How can I become so callas.. Fuck!!

I try to remember where I saw it last time, and then I remembered..

I sigh.. My bag drops from my hand.. I was trying to avoid this whole day, now I've been dragging there that also because of myself..

I take my bag from the ground, and leave my room, and go to the room that used to belong to someone even this morning.. And when I open the door.. An unknown emptiness fills my heart that sinks my heart down to my abdomen..

Everything is in the right place as it should be.. Only the one who used these for months is not there..

I take a deep breath.. My heart aches.. Days ago I came here with my handbag, to give him a medicine I used to keep to myself.. I kept so many things in that bag including my ID card.. Somehow I forgot to take the bag with myself.. I search for the bag and find it on the table..

I take the bag , and open it to check if it's still there.. My pen, highlighter, ID car that I'm looking for, clips, medicines, one time bandai- Something catches my eyes.. I take that in my hand..

He totally forgot about his bracelets, and I kept them to me.. Never have I ever thought this simple thing will mean so much to me.. I remembered how he saved me from Jimin.. How he showed his caring side for the 1st time, even though he didn't want to.. Why is my heart aching a lot??

I gulp, and put them again in the bag, then find a folded paper.. I open it.. A phrase is written on the paper

" I'm waiting for you in the backyard.. "

I bite my lips to control my tears.. The wait has been over.. The work has been done.. And he left..

I sigh heavily.. Pressing my lips tightly, I try to prevent not to fall any tears falling from my eyes.. I look up and see a mirror.. Even till now I don't keep mirrors in my room, nor I look at them.. But this time I get hypnotized by the mirror.. I look at myself after a long time.. I get hypnotized not because of my face.. But something else...

Some marks on my neck which were purposely done to show me I'm weak, I'm nothing compared to him.. I'm nothing in front of him. I'm no one for him.. I don't deserve him..

And he was right..

I touch those marks softly.. I can still feel his touch, his sweet words, his smell, his breath every fucking thing.. Why it's so hard to forget about something that doesn't even exist in my life..

A hand suddenly touches my shoulder, and I flinch a little.. I look at the owner.. 

" Let it go.. " He whispers

I start chewing my lips not to show him my weak side anymore.. But I failed.. He holds my shoulder, and slowly pulls me into him, holding me tightly, he starts caressing my hair.. " It's okay Kuzi.. You don't need to pretend to be strong in front of me.. Let go.. let it go.. "

Tears start flowing from my eyes nonstop.. I hug him back and finally let go of everything I hold in myself.. My pain formed in whimpers.. My sniffs, and hiccups are letting me to free myself a little.. Just a little.. He caresses my hair like I'm a little baby..

" Why is the world so complicated, Oppa?? " I say with my broken voice..

" The world is not difficult Kuzi.. You're too good for this world.. This cruel world actually doesn't deserve you.. "

" Why can't I be happy, Oppa? Is it too much to ask for?? "

" Let go of those things which make you feel like this.. You only can be happy if you remove everything that ruins your happiness from your life.. Let go Kuzi.. Let it all go.. Let's start a new start.. My Areum is the strongest.. There's nothing she can't do, right?"

He lifts up my face, wipes my tears, while I see he's sobbing a little.. " I know you can do anything and everything.. This is nothing to you. Right? "

I nod, and he kisses on my forehead.. " I'm proud of my Kuzi.. I knew only you could fill my heart the moment I saw you at the foster care.. And I knew I won't be wrong.. " He hugs me again..

I let go of all of the emotion I had in me.. I let go of all of those things that were aching my heart a lot.. I hug him tightly, hoping that'll calm the storm, the thunder going inside me.. He holds me too tightly, securing me from this whole world..

Somehow I feel a calmness in my heart.. After a while he releases me, and holds my hand.. I take a deep breath, and nod.. I look at the room for the last time, and leave the room..

Mommy cries a lot, literally begging me to stay a little bit more.. But I state my mind.. I can't stay here anymore.. I promise her I'll visit her soon..

We hop on the car.. Hobi wants to come too, but we don't let him.. He has a whole hospital to take care of.. And he has to come to the asylum for some work.. We say the last goodbye to Mommy, and Hobi, and drive off...

https://youtu.be/si3kBbVItsw

( Play this one.. Please.. )

We reach the asylum the next morning.. I get out of the car, and look at the hell I created for myself..

Something seems so off I assume.. Why does this hell feel extra calm today?? Calm before the storm?

Perfect!!

I take my hand bag and am about to go inside the asylum but Oppa calls me..

" Areum, let's go home 1st.. We just stopped here for a moment.. we're not going in right now.." Namjoon Oppa says

" You guys go.. I'll come later.."

" But Areum where are..." I don't even let them finish, and I enter the asylum..

Ah how I missed this corridor!!.. Which makes me remember who I actually am.. Which gives me the idea of my power.. I smile a little and start walking..

I look to my left to see people, I mean patients are looking at me with a shocking face.. Fear is screaming by their looks.. Like they have seen someone that will kill them..

I wasn't here for months.. maybe some of them forget about me, or they're new.. I don't think much about it, and go straight to Jungkook's chamber.. But I don't find him there.. Where's this bitch?

I call him, he gets shocked knowing I'm here.. I ask him where he is, but he tries to change the topic, so I cut the call, and go to where he'll be..

The moment I step into the building where every psychotic patients are taking care of, I gasp...

Who did this?? What happened to this asylum.. The whole floor literally become an abandoned place.. All of the furniture, beds, windows and everything are shattered.. It's like there has been an earthquake a day before.. I can still smell some ironic, dusty smell here and there..

All of the staff look at me, like they're scared for their life..

What happened here??

I step into the room.. All the beds where patients used to take rest, now fills with dust, cements, and the bed sheets are torn apart.. I look at the ground.. Blood has colored this pace, making it more scary..

I try to think of the most possible person who can do this, but nothing comes to my mind..

Until I look around the corner, something is there.. Like something red..

I go there, and drag the bed and look at the wall and gasp..

Who's this maniac? Who hit his nerve? Nobody found this one?? I look at the staff and they are equally shocked as me.. I gulp and try to look for other places.. This person must've left some other messages for us..

I look down again.. A dried blood trail is showing me a way... I follow it slowly, and it takes me to the common bathroom..

I search on the wall but only bloody fingerprints there to be found.. I go to each toilet stall but nothing.. The whole place is looking so fucked up and scary that the staffs that are following me stop right in front of the washroom.. I take a deep breath and go to the shower corner...

And I was right..

A malicious smirk forms on my lips.. I don't even need to think that much.. I place 2+2 together and eventually it becomes 4.. And a name spits out from my mouth

Jimin...

I hear some fast footsteps, and it stops right behind me.. " Areum... "

" So this is the reason hyungs were stopping me from coming here? " I say and turned back...

" You shouldn't be here.. At least for now.. " He says out of breathe

" Why? " I tilt my head..

" Are you fucking dumb or what?? He stabbed countless patients without showing any mercy.. That also within 15 minutes.. He killed two of the guards at the spot.. Are you fucking crazy that you came back??!!"

" What's my relation with this? He became a maniac and did all of this.. How should this concern me?? "

" How did you find out he's the one? " He says

" Easy peasy.." I shrug my shoulders and look back at the writing, then at him.. " He meant that about me.. "

" If you fucking know that it's mean to you, then why the fuck you're still here?? " He shouts

" Because I want to see how far he can go.. "

" So you don't give a fuck about people's live huh? "

" He won't do anything.. He did all of this because you guys captivated him like he is a crazy person.. "

" He's a fucking psycho.. " He screams

" And you treated him like that.. Which is not a way to treat people.."

" Now you'll teach me how to take care of my patients.."

" He was never your patient.. "

" I don't fucking care.. You're leaving this place.. "

I smirk.. " No.."

" Areum.." He grits his teeth..

" As I've told you already.. He did this to show me how powerful he could be.. He won't do anything after this.. "

" Areum you've lost your mind.. "

" Which is why I 'm here.. Lost my mind, still helping others to find their one.. Now move.."

" Areum you're-"

" FUCKING MOVE!!! " I scream this time, and pass him, and leave all the staff that are enjoying that little show of Jungkook and mine in that room.

I start walking toward my chamber, but when I'm on the 2nd floor, some voices stop me..

" Dude.. Are you fucking serious?"

" Of course.. Do you think I'm joking? If I was there that night I would easily rip off the head of that psychotic bitch.. "

" Stop saying bullshits, okay?? He literally killed 2 people, and the whole asylum filled with patients, who are literally fighting for their life..

" You don't believe me right.. Let me give you an example then.. "

I slowly go close to them, but hide myself from them, but I can see them clearly.. Two staff may be cleaner, or some wardboys I assume are having a conversation not even caring about their surroundings..

" What is it?? Spill.."

" You know that psycho doctor.. What was the name.. Ar.. aram..umm.. "

" Ms. Areum.."

" Yeah that bitch.. I heard she was a maniac before coming here.. She used to behave like this bitch.. But still she's doing a job here, that also as a doctor.. What you can do when you've powerful people wrapped around your finger.." He laughs..

" But how Ms. Areum is related to whatever you're trying to prove.."

" It has.. Definitely it has.. You remember she had a patient last year.. The one who came here, didn't even speak to anyone until this Areum talked with him?? "

" Who are you talking about? "

" Bitch whose history said he was found in an abandoned house, was stabbing something.. What was the name.. Areum took him with her off somewhere like her puppy lol "

" Taehyung? " I wide my eyes after hearing that name

" Yes. That bitch!! " He gets closed to other one, and say something lowly..

" Don't tell anyone but.." He looks around.. " I put him in his place once.. "

" How?? "

He smirks.. " It was my turn to clean him that day.. I was already pissed off because of that motherfucking Namjoon.. Who the fuck he think he is.. He scolded me because I didn't clean up the mess some motherfucking bitch created.. He could just politely ask me but no.. He put up a scene like I'm the only worker here.. I was so pissed off , and that bitch Taehyung made it worse.. I was trying to clean him, but he didn't let me..
My eyes became red when he didn't listen to me for the 3rd time.. I took the scissor and shove that harshly on his thighs.. Motherfucking bitch still didn't spit a word so I stabbed the scissor again.. He still didn't say anything.. " My mouth widens.. So it was this boy who made him bleed, and he didn't even point this once to me?? I wonder what he had faced when I wasn't there with him..

That voice again catches my attention.. " Now you know why I'm telling you I could easily defeat this Jimin bitch.. " He smirks..

I don't listen to their talks anymore.. I turn back.. I close my eyes and open them again.. I tilt my head left and right to crack my neck bone a little.. I look with the corner of my eyes.. Those shitheads still can't guess I'm here.. I look in front of me and smirk..

Well then let me show you what this psycho bitch can do...

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