(Play the video and turn on the loop, please)

I take a deep breath and enter the room. My mind gets jammed. I don't know what I'll do. I don't know how I'll do it. But I only know one thing. If I really want to cure Taehyung. I need to bring him back to Maya. I've to forget about myself. He's my patient. I can't think of anything other than that. Yes I've feelings for him, but I've to bury them deep down in me. What has been done, already done. Now I've so many things on my plate.

I close my eyes and open them. " I hope you had a good sleep?" I ask him, when both Taehyung and Hobi look at me.

" Yeah maybe. How much time have I slept??"

" Not that much. Anyway, are you feeling good?" I ask sitting in front of him

" Mhmm. My head was hurting a lot but now it's okay. You know I again saw something which felt so real to me."

" Dream?"

" Yeah. Like I was crying. I was tied up, and I was screaming for something or for someone??."

" Someone named Maya??" Hobi shot looks at me. It's justified if he thinks I'll hide things from Tae as I was doing, but not this time.

" Y-Yeah. It was like. I-"

" Taehyung. just tell me one thing. Why did you feel you dreamt about whatever you saw, It can be real too?"

" If it is, then you would tell me right?" I sigh and nod.

" Taehyung."

" Hmm."

" Will it be okay if I.. start to collect your memory?? Can you handle the pressure??"

" What memory?"

" Some pages are torn apart from your life and I just found them. I need to place them in the right place. "

" Areum. What are you talking about?"

" Nothing. Let's go home." I smile. Before we leave the room. Hobi's Intense stare gives me shiver.

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" Areum." Once we reached the house. I take Taehyung to his room, and when I move to go to my one, Hobi calls me.

I turn back." Yes?" He doesn't say anything. He just holds my arm and drags me to the study room.

" Spill." He leaves me, and closes the door.

I don't utter a word. " Areum." He calls me again, his tone darkens

I look at him and sigh. I tell him everything Maya told me. His eyes widen everytime I mentioned his parents. The torture. How they escaped, and chased their dream. How they fall in love. How they became inseparable. How Jack and his parents ruined all of their success, and how... How Jack raped her.

He lets himself sit on the sofa, and starts breathing heavily." I never knew this much could happen. I didn't even realize they were connected, that also this much."

I sit on my knees in front of him." Hobi. I know you couldn't believe it. Neither did I. But this is the truth, and... We're running out of time."

" Hmm. Taehyung is remembering her. So you need to act quick, or he might lose the memory he gained too."

" I know. and I'm working on it. You do one thing. Talk with Maya. Try to get along with her. She might need someone who can process what is going on. Also she's your patient. So you could handle her. While I'm gonna work with Taehyung." He sighs and nods. I get up to leave but he again stops me.

" What about you, Areum?" My feet stop moving forward. I gulp a little

" Huh??" He gets up and comes to me

" Don't act dumb. You know what I'm talking about you."

I look at him and smile a little." It's my job. Nothing else."

" Lie."

" No Hobi. He's my patient and I need to-"

" STOP FUCKING LYING TO ME AREUM!!!!" He shouts. It's so rare seeing Hobi losing his cool. I lower my head, and close my eyes.

I take some shaky breaths. My pupil moves fast, preventing tears falling on my cheek that have formed in my eyes. But my silent whimpers calms Hobi down. He sighs and wraps me in his arms. While I cry like a mess. He caresses my hair to calm me down." It hurts Hobi. It fucking hurts! What will I do now, Hobi?"

" Tell me everything. Don't keep anything to yourself."

"He loves her so fucking much that it hurts. Everytime she mentioned it, they were close. They were together. It was... It was killing me, Hobi. I can't take it anymore Hobi. Why did I do this to me, Hobi? Why? Why? WHYYYY? " I clutch his shirt, screaming. " Why must the Lord hurt me this much?? I buried all my feelings, the actual me, everything in me. I made another version of me just to suffer this hell, but Lord again brought me in the same place where I was running from. Why is it always me, Hobi? Why can't I be happy? Why do I fall for him, who is already meant for someone. Why did I let him play with my heart once again, Hobi. What have I ever done to feel this way?? Just a trash!! Just a piece of something that people use only when they need it?? Why Hobi? Why???" I hit his chest, and he holds me tightly.

" Shhh. It's okay. Everything will be okay baby. Calm down. Calm down baby." His voice softens

He releases me, his own eyes are soaked in tears. He wipes my tears and kisses on my temple.

" My Areum is the strongest lady I've ever seen. and no one can change it. Who said you're a trash huh?? Do you even realize how much good vibes you spread when you step in someone's life?? Do you even realize how much lucky people are by having you? Need an example?? Taehyung himself.
I still remember when Namjoon 1st found him, he was like someone dead from the inside, who can't even know who he's or nobody knows what to do with him, until you talked with him. Whatever you've told me about his past, If it's not you he would kill himself Areum.
You gave him a place where he can talk, where he can give his messed up part, and someone can untangle that. If it's not you, we would never come this far. If it's not you he won't even smile, he won't even express his feelings, he won't even get along with us."

" And he took everything from me again, what you've just mentioned, Hobi." I press my lips together

" That was not your fault, nor his. You were meant to fall for him and you did. You can't change that. What you can do is now make him happy, and joyful again as he was. Which will make you happy right? You've found the torn pages, now it's time to place them in the right place." I see he becomes serious. I just nod and lower my head, but he holds me again.

" Areum. There's light at the end of the tunnel. You just shouldn't stop walking. You can do anything. You can be anyone that can calm you down. I understand you fall for him, but you've to-"

" Sacrifice him." I whisper and smile.

Hobi closes his eyes and sighs. He opens his eyes and looks directly in my eyes. " Do you want it?"

I get confused by his question." Tell me Areum. Do you want to sacrifice him?? Can you really move on from him? Can you suffer everything again of what you've suffered years ago?? Do you really like hi-"

" I love him, Hobi." I again burst into tears.

" So it means you want him close to you. You just can't say it directly."

" No Hobi. I don't want that."

" Then? Just let me take Maya far away from here. Taehyung just remembered her for a moment. He will forget her eventually. And you can be happy again-"

" NO!!!!" I scream, and Hobi just looks at me blankly.

" Why?"

" I-I-I can't do this to him, Hobi. I love him for sure. But I can't make things worse. I can't be selfish. All he needs is Maya. Only she can make him normal again." I hold his hand and move it away from my face. "And I'll make sure of it." With that I unlock the door and leave the room

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At night

In the kitchen I help Mommy when my mind drives somewhere. How to process everything to Taehyung. Because if I just say everything to him directly it'll make a bad impact too. I need to be careful about it. Giving him ideas about his past that is also brutal is kinda risky. I need to measure every step very carefully at this point.

I place the plate on the kitchen island, when I see Taehyung come to the dining table. I look at him and start thinking about something. I take a deep breath.

Let's test how much pain he can bear.

" I hope I'm not late." He smiles..

" Not at all. But before you settle yourself can you please take the Jug to the table please. You see, my hands are busy" I ask.

" Yeah Sure." He smiles and starts walking to the kitchen. I observe his every move. He takes the jug and about to leave the kitchen.

" Hey Jack." I shout. Taehyung stops in the middle and after some seconds he looks at me. I tried my best not to show any kind of emotion. I see how he startes to breathing heavily, how he's gulping. How his eyes are on me but his mind is somewhere else. I gulp a little. He slowly tears his gaze from me and lowers his eyes.

I rush to him. " Taehyung. I was calling you. What are you doing?"

" What did you just say earlier??" He says in a low tone

" What?"

" What name did you take moments ago?" He mutters behind his gritted teeth. His eyes give me a burning feeling against my skin. One single mistake I'm done for this life

I pretend to be confused." I called your name Tae."

" NO!!. You said something like." He breathes heavily and gulps a little.

" Something like?" He looks at me and blinks a little." Nothing. Wh-Why are you here?"

" Oh I was calling you to bring the cake too. But you were not listening so I had to come."

" You said cake?" He knits his brows

" Yeah! What else would I say?" I tilt my head. He thinks of something and looks at me. " No-Nothing. I'm bringing the cake."

" That won't be necessary. You take the jug I'm bringing the cake with." He nods and leaves the kitchen

I look back at him. " You heard it right, Tae."

"I called out your nightmare"

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Meanwhile

In the Asylum

Jungkook's P.O.V

I rush to Seokjin hyung's room, I called Heejin on my way and she told me the meeting was already over. I hope hyung is in a good mood or I'm seriously doomed.

I knock on the door. No response. I knock again but no response. I can hear keyboard typing sounds or something like this. Make me sure someone is inside the room.

" Hyung. Can I come?"

Silence.

" Sir. I'm Jungkook. Can I come?" I heard something fall on the ground, or someone throw something on the ground??

I take that as a signal. Taking a deep breath I open the door. I see he's sitting on the chair showing me his back.

I bowed. " Hello Sir."

"Finally it's time huh?" He says without looking at me.

" Ah- actually Sir. I-" I stop when he rolls his chair and looks at me. " I think you've just arrived here. Come take a seat" He says with a smile.

I take a deep breath. He won't kill you Jungkook. Calm down.

Or will he??

I take a seat in front of him. " Umm Sir actually umm-"

"Since when I become your Sir?" Hearing this I sigh a little. " Actually Si- I mean hyung I totally forgot that I had to attend the meeting and there were some network issues so.."

" This is not like you Jungkook. No matter what happens you will be the one who will bring everyone in the meeting and you're the one who missed it this time. You know right I've so many things to discuss, but I can't. Do you know why?"

"Because I wasn't there.??"

"Exactly Jungkook. I don't even know which topic we are gonna work with. I hired someone who is gonna give me an overall summary of what we did and what will be our next step. But I didn't find him on time, finding out he was so drowned in his holiday that he forgot he had some responsibilities to perform." He directly looks at me.

" I-I I'm sorry hyung actually I went to my home after long time so-"

"So you just forgot about your ethics. Good to hear."

"N-no hyung. Actually I would come back in time but." I think so hard shall I tell him about Areum or not. But he knows Areum likes him right. He may show concern.

" I'm waiting for some logical explanation, Jungkook."

" Umm- hyung. Actually."

"STOP FUCKING WASTING MY TIME. IF YOU'VE ANYTHING TO SAY JUST SPILL OR GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!!" He shouts at me. I can see he's controlling his anger a lot from the beginning but now he just bursts out.

" Hyung, please calm down, I'm explaining everything." I say

" I'M NOT HERE TO LISTEN TO YOUR MUMBLING. YOU SHOULD BE HERE WEEKS AGO. I FUCKING TOLD YOU HOW MUCH IMPORTANT THIS MEETING WAS. NOW WHEN I HAD TO CONTROL EVERYTHING BY MYSELF, YOU CAME HERE TO SHOW YOUR FUCKING DISGUSTING FACE????"

" Hyung, I had to stay there. I didn't come back because I had some reasons."

" I DON'T FUCKING CARE ABOUT YOUR REASON. I TOL-"

"Areum again hurt herself." I stop him. He can't just burst out without giving me any scope to explain.

" What?"

" Yes. The day before I was about to return. She did that." I sigh a little

" What are you talking about? Where is she? How did this all happen? Where the fuck was you? She needs to be hospitalized. Now don't tell me you came alone." He starts panicking a lot. He was fuming minutes ago, now why is he behaving like this?

" Calm down hyung. If it's not Taehyung then we might admit her to the hospital." He knits his brows

" What do you mean?"

" Yes hyung. Taehyung found her in the jungle and he stopped her."

" Where were you? Why did that kid have to save her?"

" We were in our room. Areum was with Taehyung in his room. We didn't know what happened, but suddenly me and Hobi saw Taehyung leaving the house. We ran to find him and when we did, we saw. Areum was in his arms, where her whole body was covered with blood and mud." When I look at him back, I see he's listening to me while his eyes are closed, and he clenches his jaw.

He opens his eyes. " But Areum wouldn't do this. Something triggered her. Or someone."

" Yes hyung." I sigh. " It was Taehyung who triggered her."

" WHAT THE FUCK???" He stands up from his chair and shouts. Why is he reacting like this?

" He. He wanted to show his dominance so."

" SO WHAT JUNGKOOK FUCKING TELL ME!!" He punches the table.

" He bruised her neck." Seokjin hyung just looks at me

" But seriously hyung, if it was not him. Areum might drag herself into a coma." He says nothing to me and sits down.

I continue." I had to be there to comfort her. and I thought it would be better to spend some time with her family. Also her birthday was coming so I though-"

" Her birthday?"

" Yes. It was the day before yesterday. We all planned something for her. Also her brother, his aunt, and Taehyung even made a cake for her birthday. To our surprise, he's getting better. Areum was right. This asylum, this place was the thing that was preventing him from getting better.." He narrows his eyes while thinking about something.

" Hmm. Looks like that kid is making progress." He chuckles a little

" You can say that. He also started getting along with us. Mostly with Areum. They become like long lost friends. So much to talk about but time is running away. Something like this." I intentionally bringing Taehyung into our conversation. I want to make sure what I'm thinking makes sense.

" Of course. Her area is something like this. She has to get along with her patients. Anyway I hope we won't need to treat him that long. What do you say?" He smiles in a twisted way

I sigh. " I don't know hyung. I just want her to be happy. That's it."

" She'll be happy" He rolls his tongue inside his mouth." Anyway it's late. You should leave."

" But hyung, what about the meeting? I need to know what we're gonna do after this batch."

He just looks at me and chuckles." You should think about your responsibilities before enjoying her birthday. The least you could do was inform me that you won't be here. I would postpone the meeting, and."

" And?"

" Join you to celebrate her birthday. Come'on she's my worker too!! It would be great to forget for sometimes that I'm her boss, and enjoy some quality time with you guys." He smiles

I look at him for a moment and smile back." Sure. And I'm sorry for not letting you know hyung. Now please give me the details. I don't want to make you feel that I'm good for nothing."

" Suzy has all of it. Contact her." He says and rolls his chair facing me his back

Hearing her name is enough to make me smile. Glad that hyung can't see." Okay hyung. I'll report to you soon."

I stand up and about to leave but he again calls me. " Jungkook."

I look back." Yes hyung."

" Tell Areum she has other patients to take care of. Taehyung is not her only priority."

I just hum and leave the room. I smirk, and looked at my watch. Hmmm 9pm. Suzy went to her house long ago. Looks like I've to place a visit to her. It's not like I wanted to, but work can't wait right. I start humming a song and lead my feet to my car.

I start to think how she'll react when she sees me suddenly. She may shut the door on my face, who knows. But I'm dying to see her. It's making me crazy. I laugh all by myself. What has happened to me??

(Stop the previous one and play this one)

I get out of the car. Check myself if I'm looking good enough to steal my girl. Gggeeezzzz how much cringe I've become. But still if it's for her then I can do anything.

I stand in front of the door and call her. It rings a few times then she picks it up. I try to look inside the house and see her doing something, and when she picks the phone, she doesn't even look at the ID

Hello?

Hi Baby.

Jungkook?

Wow you're so in love with me huh?

You took the phone without even seeing it.

and now you just recognize me

just by hearing my voice??

What?? How did-

Jungkook, are you spying on me??

And if I am??

Jungkook..

I just passed by your house

and saw you by the window.

Oh I saw someone in front of your house

with something. Stay strong, okay .

it might be a killer that gonna kill you

Jungkook I'm not a baby okay..

Then why you're making your baby wait

for so long?? Open the door.

What!!!??? You're- you're in my h-house?

If you open the door only then.

I see she leaves whatever she's doing and rushes to the door, and opens it

" I missed you." I hear the door swing open, I don't even give her time to reply and hug her tightly.

I was really missing her a lot. It's like a part of me wasn't there for me. I've been in love with her for months but can't tell her. I was scared that she might complain about it to higher authorities but she didn't. I also told Areum to say sorry to her on my behalf, and when she did Suzy just said she didn't mind at all. I can't really describe what she has done to me.

"Jun-Jungkook I can't breathe le-leave me." She struggles a lot in my arms but I still hold her. After a while I release her and kiss her forehead

" I can hold you like this forever if you want."

She smiles a little and moves aside to let me enter the house. When I do she stops me again.

"Jungkook."

"Yeah baby." I look back at her

" What happened to your pants? They're wet.

" Wow!! You make me wet just by hugging me. I wonder what would happen when I'll kiss you." I tried to be funny but she just sighed.

" It was raining and your lower part of the pants got soaked with dirt and water." I look down and see I literally messed up her floor with mud. Shit!!

" Aish!! I'm really sorry Suzy. Actually I was so excited to see you again that I forgot it was raining. I'm sorry."

" Don't be. Wear this sandal and wait here. Let me see if I've any oversized trousers." I just nod and she goes to her room.

Suzy's P.O.V

I go to my room to search for something that can fit him. I don't know if I can find any or not. But Jungkook's sudden bursting here is literally worrying me. It's true that I've feelings for him, but I'm damn sure he just wants to play with me that's it. And I don't want to hurt myself. Also I don't have time for this high school romance. I've so many other things to do.

Yeah it's true I'm weak for Jungkook. Like who won't. He's just a perfect boyfriend material that any girl will easily fall for. And I did too. But I don't want to fall for him anymore. It'll make things worse.

I found a trouser that might fit him. I look at it and sigh. " I wish you were here. I miss you a lot."

I go back to the hall room and see he's dusting the dirt in front of the basin.

" Jungkook."

He looks back at me and flashes me his bunny smile. " Oh! You're back. I was just trying to clean my pants. It's ok if you didn't find anything."

How can someone look so cute and hot at the same time?? This is purely illegal. I blink sometimes to distract myself from his aura. " Well I found one. I don't know if it will fit you but it's better to wear a dump one than a tight one right??"

" How do you know this trouser will be tight on me?"

" You're wearing a tight jean Jungkook. I just assumed that maybe it'll not fit you." I say normally, but I regret the moment I finish my words.

"Are you checking on me Suzy??" He says smiling and raising his one eyebrow.

" I- No Umm- I- actually." He laughs a little." Don't worry. It's normal to me, you know? Girl literally drools over me all the time."

I roll my eyes and chuckle. " You will catch a cold, change your clothes. And you didn't tell me why you came to my house in the 1st place." I give him the trouser and he takes it

" Now you're concerned about me huh?" He smirks

" Jungkook."

He laughs. " You look cute when you get mad. Anyway I came because Seokjin hyung told me you've the documents of the meeting I've missed."

" You shouldn't, you know?? You missed so many things."

" And what about you?"

" Huh?"

" Didn't you miss me?"

" Everybody missed you Jungkook. So do I." He straightens his posture, slowly starts to come close to me. I don't realize when he comes in front of me towering over me.

" I don't care about others. I'm asking you. Didn't you miss me?" He removes strands of hair from my face. This is too close.

" Jungkook I think you are-"

" I'm what, Suzy?" I can't look up at him. He's literally dominating me. I gulp hard. I don't want to rewind the hospital scene again.

" Jungkook I-" Suddenly he holds my face harshly and makes me look into his eyes. Which fills with lust.

" Suzy. You're making me crazy." He whispers which literally sent shivers down my spine.

" Jungkook please." I close my eyes. He's too much intimating.

He slowly releases my face." Show me the washroom."

I nod and go to my room and he follows me.

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I organize the papers he'll need for further research. Which is why I can't hear when he gets out of the washroom. I'm working on my table when I feel two strong arms slide around my waist.

I gasp at his sudden action. My breath get caught in my throat. He starts to caresing my bare neck with his nose. " You smell nice Suzy." He whispers and places a soft kiss on my neck and I flinch.

" Jungkook." I gulp hard, and he forcefully turns me to face him. He holds my waist firmly and holds my face with his other hand. There is no space between us.

" What are you doing to me Suzy?" I get lost in his eyes again.

He comes forward to kiss me but I stop him." Jungkook stop it, please." He gets taken aback by my words. " Huh?"

" Stop it Jungkook. I know everything."

" Everything?" He leaves me and gives some space between us

" Yes, everything. I know what you're trying to do."

" What am I trying to do?"

" You want to make me fall for you. You want a reason the same as Areum has, right?"

" What?" He scrunches his face in confusion.

" Areum still comes to this asylum just because of Seokjin Sir. She made an obsession for him, which dragged her everyday here. You want the same so you have a reason to come here everyday right??" I just burst out of what I've in my mind the whole time.

He just widens his mouth and looks at me." You think like that??"

I tear my gaze from him. He again comes to me and holds my face harshly. " Do you really fucking think I'm showing my feelings to you because I want you for a reason? Did you really take this idea after what I've told you???"

" Jungkook, you're hurting me."

" Well you stabbed me. Now bear with it." He says and I see his eyes which were looking at me full of lust moments ago, now filled with anger.

" Jungkook."

" How many fucking times do I need to tell you I fucking love you for fuck sake!!! I don't fucking care about this asylum. I can resign from here still having you beside me. I'm not Areum, Suzy. I don't distract myself from something. I don't play with girls. I don't play with people's feelings. How could you think so low of me?"

He continues." I can still continue my work from my home, but I rushed here for what?? For that fucking meeting?? No!! I came here just to meet with you. And you thought asylum was my 1st priority?" I can't say anything. His words are irritably making sense

He leaves my face, and holds my hand and presses his on his toned chest. He looks at me like he's hurt by me." Can you feel it Suzy?" I feel his heart beating too fast. But he's breathing fine. I look back at him.

" You don't have any fucking idea what you're to me. What I feel when I'm around you. You didn't even realize I was in love with you for months. I hold myself because I didn't want to barge into your life suddenly. I wanted to take time. I wanted to understand what you feel about me. You don't know I need this fucking asylum to be with you. Not the opposite." My eyes become blurry and tears start to fall down my cheek.

He wipes my tears, holding my face. " I really love you Suzy. And I don't know how to make you believe it." He comes close to me and presses his lips on mine.

I close my eyes because of his sudden action. He's really giving his everything on that kiss. I can feel how much passionate he's for me. How much he cares about me. How much he loves me. I sob hard, so does he. This is so new to me that I can't even describe what I'm feeling. All I can do is slide my arm over his neck, and deepen the kiss even more.

He's still kissing me while he lifts me up and I wrap my legs on his waist. I get so lost in that kiss that I don't even realize when my back touches the bedsheet. And when I do, he's on top of me.

" Suzy. Do you really want to know what you did to me??" I take a deep breath. There's no way to step back. And I nod.

" You sure?" He asks me again, and I nod again. I can't hide my feelings anymore. I want him.

He says nothing. He pulls off his t-shirt, and again comes on top of me. " Then let me show you."

" Let me show you that you're the cause of my Euphoria.."

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