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Areum's P.O.V

" Ahh Hobi."

" Shut up."

" Are you treating my wound or hurting me?"

" What about both?" Hobi becomes pissed off and I really don't know why.

" Hobi stop it ok? Give it to me, I can do it by myself." I try to take the cotton from his hand but he refuses.

" Hobi!!"

" Shut up." He puts too much pressure on my wound which I got accidently by Taehyung. After telling him so many times finally he starts pressing it lightly.

" This will work." He's about to leave with the first aid box but I hold his arm, as he turns back.

" What?"

" Who was that girl??"

" Areum we'll talk about this once we're home." He again tries to leave but I call him.

" Hobi."

" Areum-"

" You'll say everything right now, or I'm gonna meet her on my own." I look at him blankly. Though I struggle to see clearly.

He sighs a little. " Areum I don't know how you would react, but I'm confused too. This is the girl I was talking about the whole time."

I narrow my eyes. " What girl?? Hobi you're hiding something from me?"

" You remember I had to leave months ago suddenly because my workers found a girl in the jungle??"

" Yeah??"

" That's the girl, and me, Namjoon, and Jungkook were discussing about this girl."

My mind goes blank. I can't think of anything properly. How- How could. Why? How could that girl be Maya?? I get really taken aback by this. How is this possible?? How can this girl be connected with Tae??

" Areum you okay?" Hobi asks

" Let's go home."

" Baby I-"

" Hobi. I want to go home please!!" I burst out. I can't control my mind right now. I need to calm myself down before doing something worse.

" But Taehyung?? " He asks

" Let him sleep. I gave him the therapy, you would just increase the dose. I'll come here again tomorrow. Also."

" Yes?"

" Make sure he's in control." Hobi nods and we leave for home.

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" Kuzi, can you please calm down a little?? We are here for you. We can talk about it." I walk left to right in the room, panicking, thinking, guessing what the fuck I should do now. Nothing is making any sense on top of that as soon as we reached Yoongi Oppa, and Namjoon Oppa started questioning about it.

" Don't forget we all are working on these types of issues. It's normal okay? Besides, it still doesn't confirm that the girl is Maya. What if Taehyung is mistaking her with someone else."

" So you're telling me what I asked him at that time when he basically couldn't even recognize me, when only some words were left to communicate with him, he mistook all of it right? Nice way of thinking I must say Oppa." I say to Namjoon Oppa.

" But how did-"

" I don't fucking know okay?? I'm not Wikipedia, or Google that whatever the fuck you'll ask me I'll answer. He's my patient for fuck sake! I'm much more concerned and fucked than you. So stop fucking asking me multiple time why? when? how? what? I don't fucking know okay??" I breathe. My mind not fucking working, I'm seeing everything blurry. My head is beating like hell, and my hyungs are making it worse.

" Areum!! You can't burst out all of the time whenever you feel stressed, okay?? This is not the way you should speak to your hyung!! Apologize to Namjoon right now!!" Yoongi Oppa shouts.

I close my eyes, take some deep breaths." Listen. I don't know any of your questions. I don't even know who that girl is. But all I know is he's connected to Taehyung. and I'm gonna work on it." Hobi comes to me and holds me by my side

" I've so many things to work with. I don't know how, but I've to. So I'm sorry if I hurt you this time. This is the last thing I would do to you. I'll let you know when I come to a conclusion." I move Hobi's hand and leave the room, but before that I stop and look at them. " I know you've so much hope in me. I know you expect so many things from me because I lift up your expectations from the past year. So when I say I'll solve this case. I'll. No matter what happens. No matter.

" What I would lose." With that I leave the hall room.

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I go to my room, and lock the door.

I close my eyes. I let the dark consume me again. This time, I won't stop it, or won't stop myself from the pain. This time I let my demon come outside, and when it does. I open my eyes.

My vision goes totally blank, so I need to use my senses to do something. I sit on the ground and fold my legs. I take a deep breath. I need to calm myself down first. I can stab myself, I can bite myself but I don't have time for that. I start to think about something that always calms me down. My real family. I don't remember much about them, but I try to remember them which distracts me from the headache. The more the headache will increase, the more I'll have to hurt myself.

I start to think about my mom's smile. My father's mustache. My brother's T-shirt which I used to wear the most. Everytime I think about them, it calms me down. People say family is your medicine when no medicine works for you and I believe it. The memories I've of them are so vivid as if they're right in front of me. But I reach out my hand. They suddenly disappeared.

Pain starts to consume me again. This time it becomes worse. The demon finds a way to hurt me again so it is trying its level best to take me down. The pain is killing me but I still stick to my position.

But I've had my enough. I start to breathe heavily. My vision becomes pitch black and the more I'm trying to calm myself down. The more it consumes me.

I hold a fistful of hair and pull it harshly. I try to think of anything that'll make me happy, or calm me down. Kookie's hugs, Oppa's birthday gift, Namjoon Oppa's dimple, Hobi's smile, everything but nothing is helping me now which used to help me all of the time.

I start to roam in my memories and finally find something that starts to form in my mind. Or someone I specify.

The gaze I've fallen for. The stare that makes me weak for it. The face I would love to see for the rest of my life even if I've to give everything in my life. The one who soothes me, the same one who destroys me. Who calms me, also the one who brings thunder in my life.

I start to remember how he smiled that day. His laugh seems like a rhythm to me. I release my hair as my pain starts to calm down. I take some deep breaths. Of course I remember everything about him. The kiss he gave me on my birthday, him making the cake for me. That bright laugh he gave me when me, and Kookie were fighting. His smile, his moles, his hair. I can even remember his smell.

I slowly open my eyes and my vision starts to be crystal clear. I look to my left on my laptop and see a picture.

Tae wants to walk alone?? Then let him show the way. I just smirk and take my laptop. I open the file Hobi gave me .

Name: Cha min Maya

Age: 22 years

Nationality: Korean

Disability: Traumatized

State when found: Was roaming in the jungle

So Maya is the same like me ha? But something is not making sense. If Maya is here, then who was that girl Oppa found in that house with Taehyung?? Though I took a little glimpse of Maya, she seemed normal to me.

I start to go through the file, but suddenly someone knocks on my door.

" Don't disturb me please."

" Kuzi, it's me."

" I'm working."

" Kuzi."

I roll my eyes. "Coming." I open the door and see three of them standing there. I clench my jaw. " I told you I'm working. and if it's about earlier then can w-"

" We are not here to give you punishment, or any judgment. Move." Yoongi Oppa states and passes me and goes inside the room. Hobi, and Namjoon Oppa smile a little following Oppa. I see Yoongi Oppa brings his laptop, Hobi as well. Where Namjoon Oppa holding a food tray?? What's going on in their mind?

" What is this?"

" Nothing. Your room is perfect for work, so we're here." Hobi smiles, and I look at him sternly.

" We're here to discuss about your case." Yoongi Oppa says

" I don't need your help, please leave."

" At least listen to us, Areum." Namjoon Oppa says

" I don't need to. Now please leave." They don't even know I just had an attack, so I won't behave properly, and I don't want to hurt them.

" Baby I-"

" Fine, I'm leaving."

" Cha min Maya. Age 22 years, lived in Seoul. The managing director in Taehyung's company. Studied in management, worked with the company for more than 3 years. Was a topper in her university, Never had in any kind of fight, or problem. and last but not the least." Yoongi Oppa looks at the doorway looking at me.

" Your patient's fiancé "

I stand right there. It takes me some time to process what Oppa said at last. I slowly look at him. Not only me. All of us are looking at Yoongi Oppa.

" Also the girl you saw in the hospital. Yes, I'm exactly talking about her."

" How did you find this information?" I ask

" Don't forget your brother is a police officer" Yoongi Oppa stands up and comes to me.

" I may not understand what's going on in his mind, but I can make 2+2=4 when issues like this come in front of me. Anyway I thought this information will help you. rest is up to you." He says and turns back sitting in his usual place and starts scrolling his phone.

I blink sometimes. " Excuse me." With that I leave them in the room, and run to the backyard.

Wasn't that enough to know he has someone in his life?? Now I've to bear this too?? I'm strong, nobody can fuck with me. But that doesn't mean I don't get hurt. It hurts. It fucking hurting me a lot. I just gave my heart to someone who already belongs to someone else. Who was already destined with someone else. Why did I do that with me??

I sat on the grass. My whole body feels numb to me. Why does it have to be me all of the time to feel pain? Why I can't be happy for a fucking moment?? WHY?? Why did I forget that he had someone in his life? Why did I forget all of the signs that were visible in front of me all of the time. How could I ignore them?? How would I live my whole life thinking that I gave the last piece of myself to someone who was never gonna be mine. How could I bear this? He was never mine. There was nothing between us. Everything was fake. I was in a hallucination, with someone who's never gonna be mine. Whom I made my world.

Which becomes hell right now.

I find myself already in hell when I created another one, which is the worst. I bury my face in my palms and burst out. I can't tolerate this anymore. I'm becoming weak. I can't control it anymore.

Buti I wipe my tears. This is not me. It was all from my side. It was all my fault. And I'll be the one who'll repay it. I stand up. This is not the end. I won't give up. I've faced worse. This is it.

I won't give up.

I

Won't

Give

Up.

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I burst into my room." Hobi!"

All of them look at me." Yes?" He replies

" Let's go to the hospital."

" Why?" Namjoon Oppa asks.

" I called someone. They'll drop Taehyung here." Hobi replies

" It's not about him." I go to him and bend down on my knees.

" Hobi" I hold his hand.

" I want to meet her."

He holds my face." Baby I-"

" Please Hobi. Please, I'm begging you. Let me meet with her, Hobi please."

He bends down to my position and hugs me." Baby. You okay?"

I hold my tears with all my living being." I'm perfectly fine, Hobi. Please let me meet with her."

He releases me and looks at me. " Are you sure you can tolerate this??"

" Hobi. You're forgetting something. There's nothing in this world which I can't tolerate." Except for Taehyung's tears.

His face becomes soft and he nods a little." Come outside in 5." He stands up and leaves.

" Kuzi."

" Oppa. you don't know what you give to me. Thanks a lot." I stand up but Namjoon Oppa holds my arm.

" I'm sorry. I never thought thi-"

" This case would mean so much to me?? Well Oppa every case means a lot to me. There's nothing different in this one." I softly smile before leaving the room

Both of my hyungs eventually understood I was clearly lying.

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In the whole ride I didn't talk with Hobi, nor did he try to. I was playing with my finger and was thinking about what I'll say to Maya.

Once we reached the hospital. I take my steps, when Hobi stops me

" We should check on Taehyung 1st." I look at him, then sigh. " You check on him. I'll talk with her."

" But he needs you the most right now." I look at him and smile. " That is temporary. I'm focusing on what he needed the whole time. Don't worry. He'll be okay."

We walk through the corridor. Each step I take, my heart beat increases. I don't know why I'm doing this. I don't know what I'll ask her, I don't know how she'll react. I don't know anything about it. It feels like the 1st day I met Taehyung. Well that time I was confident, because I was about to show him his place which I did, but this time. Neither I'm gonna show her the place, nor dominate her. This time I am about to seek help from her. I don't know how I'll cope up with her, but I have to.

We stand in front of the room. Hobi called someone to bring her into this room, from her cabin. So that I can talk with her peacefully.

" You sure you're gonna do this??" Hobi asks

" Mhmm"

" She's under my observation. So if something happens the blame will be on me."

I look at him. " I know what I'm doing." Again I look at the door, " And I know how to play with mind."

" Okay then. Best of luck. Take this. It's an alarm we all keep if any patient tries to attack us, we press this so we rush to save them. I hope you won't need to use this." He hands me a remote containing only one button.

" Don't worry. I'll be fine." I take a deep breath and open the door.

I see a girl laying in the bed showing me her back. This will be the 1st time I'll see her. Will talk with her. The air conditioner is working fine, but I'm still sweating. I'm feeling thirsty suddenly. I become so conscious about my surroundings that I can even hear my fast heartbeats.

" Are you asleep?"

No response.

" Hey."

No response.

" Ummm I'm someone the same as you.aaa. I'm here to talk with you." I know by myself that sympathy and sweet words hit our nerves. She's not responding which means I've to be straight forward. Saying sweet or comfortable words might turn into a disaster so I won't take the risk.

" Look. I'm here to discuss something with you. It won't take much time. Besides, it's all up to you whether you'll let me talk or not. Can I come??" She moves a little which I take as a yes.

I walk past the bed and stand on the other side of the bed, her face covered with the blanket, preventing me from seeing her face.

" Maya."

She moves her toe, and as soon as I call her name she stops.

" It's okay if you don't show me your face. But I know you're Maya." I move again to the other side. My words get stuck in my mouth when I notice something.

Her fingers.

All are safe and sound and there's no sign of any bruises, or cuts. Does that mean??

She's not Maya?

I think for a while and sit in front of her. " Maya. It hurts right?"

She slightly removes the blanket and I see her eyes. She has the perfect eyes I've ever seen. I don't know how to describe it but anyone will fall for their eyes I'm telling you, and I chose them to show my power.

" It hurts when people don't have any idea how to talk to you?? It hurts right when you don't even know what is going on?? It hurts when they just stab you with sweet words right??"

" I know what you're thinking. Not expressing what is going on is the cruelest thing you can ever do to yourself. Having everyone beside you while you still feel alone is the most painful thing you'll ever feel. Trying to survive even if you're dying from the inside kills you in the most brutal way. Can't find anyone to whom you can express yourself?? Can't be like yourself?? It hurts right??" I ask her, but it feels like I ask myself all of these.

I look at her, as she removes the blanket from her face. She's looking literally like a fallen angel. No wonder why Taehyung reacted like that. Her plump lips, defined jawline, perfect hooded eyes, a small yet wide forehead, made her no less than an international model. Although her face is pale, still that can't hide her beauty.

She gets up and sits on the bed, and looks at me. I sigh and take my phone." Maya. I hope this is not yours." I show her the ring.

Her eyes widen. She shoves the phone from my hand and looks at the photo, and then looks at me. Suddenly her face becomes straight, she clenches her jaw and hovers over me. And wrap her unharmed fingers that I was cherishing moments ago on my throat.

" Ma-Maya lea-leave me."

" where did you find this?? WHERE DID YOU FIND THIS??"

" I-I c-can ex-plain MA-YA p-plea-se "

" I'LL KILL YOU TODAY!!!"

" That will be the last step of you being captivated for the rest of your life here that also by yourself." I say despite that she's giving too much pressure on my throat.

She looks at me angrily." You'll get n-nothing by k-killing me. Because you w-won't even know h-how I found that. SO LEAVE ME!!!!" I clutch the remote tightly. My mind tells me to press the button, but I didn't. I don't want the single and last chance of solving this case goin in vain.

She presses her lips together, and gives the final pressure, where I just stop breathing for a second when she releases me.

I get up and cough a little. I take the glass from the side table, and drink all of it. and look at her who breathes heavily too.

" You're nothing compared to me Maya. even if you cut my throat today, I would still show you who I am." she just chuckles.

I smirk and lift up my sleeve and bring it in front of her as she gasps.

My whole arm is covered with cuts, and bruises. Some are still new, and fresh, but most of them left scars on my arm. Most of them show how dangerous weapons can be used to make this type of scar.

I scoff a little. " You can't beat me Maya. You can't even hurt me a slightest. Show me your arm."

She hides her hands. I sigh and take my phone again and show her a photo.

" I assume you know him." She looks at it and her eyes widen, as she gulps. She looks at me once, then again at the photo. I put my hand on her shoulder. and throw the phone to the other side of the bed. I grab her arm softly and bring it in front of her face.

" He has these bruises too. same as you've." She looks at her arm, there is one or two cuts she got by accident, and looks at it.

" But the difference is, the bruises he has. it's on his mind. not in his body." She again looks at me.

" I'm Areum. The one who thinks she can find out how to heal the bruises Taehyung has. and you. Maya. has the same bruises but they're visible. But Taehyung's aren't."

I continue. " I assume your bruises have some reason that includes Taehyung. If you help me. Maybe I can find a way to heal Taehyung too, which can heal you too. I didn't find the ring by myself. It was him, who showed me this ring, which brought me here. and I want to take something from you to give to him."

" Why?"

" What why?"

" Why do you care?"

" I don't give a fuck about him. It's my job, and it's my nature to go as much beneath as I can to solve a case. Also Taehyung is a good person I assume. It'll be a good deed if I help him." She just chuckles. Of course she doesn't believe me.

I get up and take my phone." Look I really don't give a fuck about you guys, but let me tell you. If you don't help me. Neither you'll be able to see him, nor he'll. And about me?? I'll take him to any kind of mental hospital and captivate him for a lifetime, because there's nothing I can do if you or he won't help me. So in a way you'll be the one who's gonna lose. Besides, I've nothing to lose in my life. So I actually don't give a fuck what you do, or don't. I tried my best, but nothing came from you, or Taehyung. So see you never." I turn back and start walking.

" We used to love each other so much."

Another stab I give to myself. My heart starts bleeding once again. I stop and gulp harshly. I bury all of my pain. I squeeze my eyes to prevent any type of water falling from my eyes no matter what. I open my eyes and face her with a smile. I know the truth will come in front of me right now. I know this is the moment my case will be solved by itself. And I've to be normal from the outside as much as possible.

Where I'm about to literally burn from the inside.

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