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Areum's P.O.V

I whimper in pain, and the blame is on me. It is always me who hurts me the most. The main problem in this fucking world is me. I thought I might make work a simple thing, but that didn't happen. Honestly I tried to get along with him a lot, it was him who always shoved me away. Well maybe I didn't give him enough effort which he'll respect.

I can see he's transforming from a person to another. I was actually once sure when he left me this morning that he won't listen to me anymore. But when he came back it was unexpected. The way he behaves with me. I won't accept it. He saved me last night and I'm honored for this but he can't disrespect me, my hyungs like that. Nobody can.
I'll rip their throat alive if anyone dares to say anything about my hyungs. I've never ever imagined Taehyung would think this low of me. I was the one who made him believe that he can change, I myself brought him out from that hell named asylum.
He'd never get better in that environment. He is the reason I did this to myself, I didn't even say anything to him for this and this is what he gave me in return? Well I've had enough. I know we've to keep our cool with patients but I've had enough. There's nothing I can do about him when he questions my ability.

I struggle so hard to get up but fail. Blood soaks my pants and I can't even stop it.

" Morning my Sunshinneeeeeee. How's my ba- AREUM!!" I hear someone shout my name but I can't even turn back.

" H-Help me aahhh"

" Areum, why are you here?? You were sleeping right? Wha- Fuck you're bleeding again!! How did this happen?" Hobi asks

" L-long story short. I fell down. N-now p-please. he-help." I say winching in pain. It's too much.

Hobi lifts me up in bridal style and puts me in the bed." Did Jungkook give you the medicine??"

" He did."

" Good. Lay down. It'll be painful but you're my brave girl right?? You can handle it"

I just nod and he starts to roll over my pants. He starts to clean my wound when I hear another crack sound from the door

I see how Yoongi Oppa's gummy smile turns into a shocking face. The fruit bag he was holding fell down on the ground. His eyes widen..

" O-Oppaa!!" I whisper.

" Kuzi!!" He runs fast to me. I really feel bad for this boy. It's been months that whenever he comes to visit me, he sees me in this situation where I'm wrapped with white bandages, and helpless

" Wha- Why are you bleeding again?. Kuzi??"

" Hyung I understand you're freaked out, but please don't freak her out now ok? Help me to clean her. and you. How did you come in the middle of the room out of nowhere ha?" Hobi asks.

" I just-Wait. Oppa what are you doing here? " I ask to Yoongi oppa

" Namjoon brought him. We were gonna discuss something about a case, so Namjoon brought hyung too since you are here." Hobi replies

Hobi applies some kind of ointment which starts to feel cold against my wound, it is so soothing. " Wow I never realized you guys are so good at hiding things from me. Good to know. I'll remember it in the future." I look at them, and their face become pale because they know what I'm talking about

" I think this is not the time to talk about the issue you're trying to brag about. Just know this one thing. Whatever we did, either because we care about you, or we thought that was not the right time. because either way you proved to us again that you've changed. And it's better to know by yourself than others that you've some problems , right? " Hobi smiles

" Kuzi. We just. We love you so much Kuzi. We just don't want to make you feel worse after this. Please don't misunderstand us." Yoongi Oppa sniffs.

" Oppa!! Why're you crying like this? Look at me. See I'm doing better okay? I really would appreciate it if you guys would talk with me directly. Either way I'd know about my symptoms ok? It hurts me seeing that everyone of you knew about me still decided to hide things from me. Now what was about to be done, has been done. Nothing we can change right now ok?"

He nods." I'm sorry." I smile at him.

Hobi sighs," Areum. Why are you doing this to you? Where are the things I taught you?"

" Believe me Hobi. I would give my life but hurt myself if I could. But I don't know why I see everything in black, and until I hurt myself. I can't even see a slightest vision. It's like I became blind and only destroying myself can get my vision back. I also medicate before sleeping, the way you told me." I reply while he covers the wounds with bandages.

" Hmm. It'll be difficult for you in the 1st place, your case is a bit different from others. You're going to face the worst for some time. It'll take time to work the meditation and once it does, you won't need to hurt yourself anymore. medication will help you then."

" When she'll be cure completely? Why is she doing this when she's on proper medication? What are you guys doing, Hoseok? Why can't you treat her like you do with others? The way she started to behave it'll not so far one day we will find her dead b-" Yoongi oppa gulps

" Hyung for fuck sake shut the fuck up ok! We are concerned about Areum. She's not our blood related but we love her not less than you do. Stop saying this shits. And for your kind information what do you want? We keep your beloved Kuzi in a room without any window, and give her electric shocks five times a day to keep her sane?? Do you really want it??"

" Hoseok watch your mouth." Oppa says seriously

" No I won't. How could you think I'll treat Areum like I did to others? She's my sister for lord sake. I'll give my life but never ever hurt her. That's the difference between her and my other patients. I won't treat Areum like I'd with Taehyung" Hobi snaps

" SHUT UP WILL YA!!! You guys are literally hitting my nerves. Now if I start hurting me again, you will be responsible and that time you have to give me shocks to keep me sane Hobi and you'll see that I'm never gonna be normal again Oppa!!" I burst out

Hobi sighs and looks the other way, and suddenly looks at me. " Speaking of Taehyung. Where's he? I haven't seen him since this morning?" I blink, looking away.

" I- Actually. Don't worry about him. I. discharged him. He's no longer my patient nor I don't want him to be. We're leaving tomorrow and I'll finish all the paperwork and he'll be free to go"

" You did what?"

We all look at the voice coming from the door.

(Wrong GIF sorry.. I was searching for something that matches with the scene and found this one matches perfectly but...... Sorry again.... ._.)

( Ah it kinda matches but that one was the best. anyway moving on.)

" What do you mean by discharging him?? Where's Taehyung?"

All 3 of them look at me at the same time, and I just gulp. It'll be a hell of a ride to convince them

Moments later.

" And I don't think after that I can do anything about him. He's questioning my ability which I can't accept" I didn't tell them what Taehyung told me about them. They'll literally kill him and.. I don't want that.

" Is this your final decision?" Namjoon Oppa asks

" Maybe."

" No might. I want a straight answer. He's under my supervision then he's your patient. If any of the patients doesn't cooperate or the doctor thinks it'd be better to let them go. I have to interrogate them personally." He states

" I think what she needs is sleep. Besides, I think we should think before acting." Hobi looks at them. It feels like he's giving hints about something??

" Finally something I can agree with Hoseok. Kuzi I think you need proper rest and then make a decision. if you still want to free him we won't mind, or Namjoon, Hobi or Jungkook will handle it. I want you to take a rest and let your mind free okay?" Yoongi oppa smiles

" But before that you need to eat baby." Hobi says and Namjoon Oppa brings the food tray that is lying lifelessly on the ground.

" It's been a long time since I feed my Kuzi with my hand." I smile but my smile fades away after a moment." Because I stopped feeding you because you bite every time I give you something you don't like, you rat." Yoongi Oppa says and all of them start laughing. where I just pout angrily.

" Oppaa!!" I whine

" Ok baba sorry. Now open your mouth wide~~." He knows what I love to eat and he only gives me that to eat.

" What about you guys? Did you have your breakfast?" I say gulping the toast

" We will. with you." I smile and feed them a little from mine. When they'll be with me. They'll feed me 1st and then eat from me. To us, this is how we show how much we care about each other. Others might find it cringe, but this is one of the precious moments of our lives which we cherish the most. They started to chitchat about something which I don't understand. I just smile. These three men have no competition. They're the bestest hyung in the world. I've been seeing them since childhood. Never ever they make me feel like they're not my blood related except Yoongi Oppa because he's my real brother lmao. When Yoongi Oppa had to leave for the military. I never missed him that much because these two always were with me. Treat me like their own sister, make me feel what brother-sister love is.

Moments later.

(Play the video above and turn on the loop, please)

I wake up hearing some noises from the outside. I slowly open my eyes looking in front of me when I see a face which I don't want to see. Well at least not now.

I knit my brows due to heavy sunshine, also for what he's doing here?? I try to get up but see all of my hyungs sleeping around me. I don't know when we fell asleep. We came to our room because I wasn't feeling comfortable in Kookie's room so they brought me here. We were gossiping about our school time and somehow we fell asleep.

I look at him with lots of frustration. His face is literally killing me right now. I wish I could stab him like I did to myself. That is also because of him. I see Mommy is holding his hand.

" Mommy? What is he doing here?" I get up and sit on my bed.

" That's my question to ask. Why was he snooping in this room?" She asks and I blink twice. What? But then I look at him.

" It's ok Mommy. He was snooping to make him believe something he said. Right Taehyung??" I smile and raise my eyebrow.

He doesn't reply. He looks at me and again lowers his head.

Mommy looks confused." What?"

" Nothing Mommy. Tell him to leave or don't show me his face. I want to have a peaceful time." I close my eyes again, but at that time hyungs wake up by the voice.

" What is it?? Who's disturbing me in my sleep?" Yoongi Oppa says, opening his eyes a little, and seeing a face he doesn't like that much. Namjoon Oppa, and Hobi also wake up from their nape

" What are you doing here, Taehyung?" Hobi aska

He doesn't reply. He's still looking at me. Namjoon Oppa gets up and gets close to him." Why are you here?" His cold voice even makes me shiver

" Speak, or I'll throw you out after what you've done to her." Namjoon Oppa isn't joking. He can do it, because what I told him made him really mad but he somehow controlled himself. I don't know why?

" C-Ca. Can I- talk with you?" Taehyung asks me.

" No." I say blankly

" P-Please."

" NO. Hobi, please tell him to go. I want to sleep."

" Please Areum!! Please I'm requesting you, I won't take much time. I'll leave after that. I'll never show you my face like you told me to. I just want to say something, and after I'm done I won't come in front of you, please." He's literally begging me!!! But I'm not gonna fall for it.

" Do I look like a "servant" to you that I'll listen to you? Leave Taehyung."

" Areum!! Please Just hear me once please."

" You listen to the lady. Now move." Namjoon Oppa says. He sighs heavily. Making a sulky face, he nods, and turns back.

" Wait!!" He's leaving but Hobi stops him.

" What are you doing Hobi?" I ask

" Areum, I understand you don't want to see him. But just think about it. You released him meaning he can do anything he wants but he didn't. He came back to talk. So there must be something you should know. I'm just telling you to give him a chance and then I myself will kick him out."

I look at him blankly. Then I look back at Taehyung. " I'm giving you 5 minutes. Spit whatever the shit you want and leave."

He just nods. Hobi tells everyone to leave the room to let us give some room to talk.

He comes in front of me slowly. I look at the other side, watching the photos hanging on the wall. Each of them holds a special memory of me.

" Areum." He calls me

" I'm listening."

" I'm- I- How are you now?"

" By the grace of lord my "Oppas" took extra care of me, and now I can even walk from tomorrow. if this answer makes you feel good."

He sighs." Listen, I didn't mean like that. I just wanted to. I-"

" Just wanted to show me I'm much worse than you right? That I used my Oppa to join the asylum, and I don't have the ability to cure any person right? Guess what, I agree with you. I know what I'm capable of but I don't have that capability to cure a person who himself thinks that I'm just a waste of time. I can't do anything for them." I snap

" I really was not thinking with my mind at that time, Areum. I don't know how I just said those things to you."

" As if it was new to you!! Listen Taehyung I don't know why you came back but just tell me whatever you want to say and leave please." I say in a frustrated way. I don't know why his words feels like a stab to me which was much more worse than mine one.

He comes to me and sits on his knees." I don't know how to make you understand that I just said those things to hurt you. I really thought you're showing me sympathy because at this moment I've no one to help me except you. It'll be obvious to question when you see someone that you're seeking help from, is the one who needs help" I frown after hearing him. What is he trying to pursue???

" I-I actually thought you needed help more than me. The scene I saw last night. I don't want to witness it next time. You were more aggressive than me. I'd never think of doing this to someone. let alone doing it to myself."

" Well just because you don't hurt people or yourself doesn't mean everyone is the same as you. Who told you people with problems don't hurt themselves?"

" Yeah but not everyone is a doctor like you. I thought, when you need help from others, how will you help me?"

" And you made me a slut to those people who are helping me. Nice way of thinking Taehyung." I smile

" No Areum. I already told you I said those just to hurt you. I didn't know they meant this much to you. I didn't know what your relationship was, okay? I just met them by you when they basically pamper you like a baby girl. So I thought maybe they're your daddies." I look at him. WHATTTTT?????

" GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!!!!" I shout and he holds my hands.

" I know it hurts you. I didn't realize it before but now I'm. I'm sorry that I said the most disgusted thing a person can say. I never thought it'd hurt you so much that you'd tell me to leave. You never gave me any boundaries to what I can say or not. I- I never realized what you did for me even when you should do it for yourself."

He continues." Areum I've never felt what family is. I never had a brother or sister. What I have was a friend but he also left me because I was unbearable. I'm really sorry that I made you feel something that you shouldn't feel.
What happened to you because of me, you left the asylum for me, you are here because of me. You didn't waste your 6 months on me, Areum. I really want you to help me. Please Areum I didn't know this will hurt you. I said so mean things to you. I've never treated you as a doctor.
I behaved like you have to do this because you're doing your job. I never realized you take your job this seriously. I never thought you hyungs mean this much to you. They never showed any affection to me like they do to you. I never wanted it though. I don't know what happened to me that I hurt people by my words and I find pleasure in it."

" That's called bipolarity my friend. What you can't control." I smirk looking at him because we both find pleasure in hurting. One by hurting others, and another by hurting herself.

" But I never wanted to hurt you, Areum. I never even think about it. It's like something inside me forces me to hurt you, and others." He looks down. His eyes are teary. Does he really feel this much ashamed of himself?

" I don't know what to do to make you forgive me. Just tell me. Anything you want I'll do it. No matter what. but please forgive me, Areum. I can't lose you like others, Areum please."

I sigh and close my eyes. I need to be strong.

Because I've a plan.

" You'll really do it?"

" Anything for you, Areum. Just say it."

" Well. Help yourself from now on. It's good to spend a great time with you Taehyung. I hope I'll see you again once you're fully recovered that also by yourself. Please close the door when you leave the room" I smile. He just looks at me blankly. I release my hand from him and lay down and close my eyes.

" You didn't mean that right?" He asks.

" Of course I mean that, Taehyung. Do you think I didn't mean that?? Well I know you're sorry for yourself that you treated me in a bad way. But you know Taehyung, it's my character that I don't look back at the person once I'm done with them, and I'm done with you. So please leave." I turn over, showing him my back.

He looks down, blinks for some time before standing up.

He doesn't say anything to me and I hear his footsteps, and a door shutting noise.

I release some shaky breaths. I really sent him away right?? I open my eyes and wipe the tears that are flowing all the time. I lift my head a little to see if anyone is in my room. A cold room without any noise is there for me

I get up and sigh a little. I can't hold it anymore. I bury my face in my palms and start crying.

" I'm sorry Tae. I-I never even think to hurt you but I had to. Who said you just hurt me by your words? Seeing your eyes that are screaming for help hurts me Tae. Finding that you don't know what to do hurts me. Seeing you being dependent on me hurts me Tae. You don't know what you're to me Tae. you don't know. I can't see anyone treating you like you don't deserve. I'd fight to this whole world just for you Taehyung. You don't know what you're doing to me Tae. I can't control my feelings for you anymore. "

I lift up my face and move back my head that touched the wall. I close my eyes and whisper something.

" I've fallen for you Tae..."

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