(Play the video and turn on the loop, please)

The whole chapter is in Taehyung's P.O.V

I'm freshening up in the washroom. I think about something. Why was I behaving like a kid back then? Why did I make her come with me to my room? And why the fuck I hugged her. And I don't know why I asked her those questions. She doesn't even know her own problem. Her slaves, which she calls Hyung, always protect her like she's gonna do something. But from what I've seen she is aware of what she's doing. She is also aware that I'm changing.

Yes I'm changing. It's been months since I was about to give up. I was about to take my life. I was about to lose everything from that night. But the day she came and started to monitor me, something changed in me. It was like I was starting to remember something, or from her point of view, I started to regain my previous self.

I don't know talking with her kinda helps me. That douchebag also tried sometimes but it didn't help me. But still I can't stand her. She sometimes becomes way too caring about me which I absolutely hate. Again thanks to my bipolarity, I don't behave properly for a single day.

I come to the dining room where I see Areum's family preparing for dinner. I just stand a little bit far from them but a toned face that anybody will love noticed me. He smiles widely and comes towards me. Then I remember he hugged me when I came here but we didn't introduce ourselves that time.

" Ah! I guess you're so time conscious. We're about to start. By the way I didn't get the chance to introduce myself. I'm Jung Hoseok, Areum's Hobi. '' He says with a smile that if anybody looks at it, they will smile instantly and so do I.

" I'm. Taehyung, and I'm."

" Oh I know you're working with Areum. She told me about you. Anyway let's share a hand here shall we?" I wonder why they're not showing that I'm actually her patient and she's mentoring me? Why are they saying I'm her friend, I work with her.

When I stand beside the table I see that douche- that boy looking at me blankly. I don't know why I don't like this kid. It's like sometimes you don't like a person without any reason, he's like that to me. He always looks so pissed off. He never tries to talk with me like Areum does.

" Taehyung, do you know how to cut lemons?" Hoseok asks me.

"Well maybe." I reply

" That's great! Please cut this one. Areum loves lemon with meat" He says smiling at me. His smile is something else, like it makes me feel warm. I wonder why

" Sure." I reply and take the knife and start to cut the lemon on the chopping board. I cut the lemon carefully when the lady comes and put her hand on my shoulder." You're such a good boy. I wonder why my baby addresses you like that. Anyway, please don't mind her, ok?" She smiles

"It's ok. I'm glad at least she didn't address me as her patient who is uncontrollable." I smile and look at the other two who just look at me where tension can be seen in their faces.

I ignore that, and put the sliced lemon in a bowl and take a seat. They are arranging the plates and the food where I start to think about something. Something logical. Why are they acting so strange in front of this lady? Doesn't her own mother know what happened to her?

" Why Areum taking so long?" She suddenly speaks.

" She's a girl, Mommy. It's normal she'll take her beauty time" That kid says

" Jungkook, even you know it yourself, Areum isn't like that. She must be doing something. Let me bring her" Hoseok says

" You stay. I'm bringing her. You start your food, it's getting cold" With that the lady leaves the table and goes to Areum's room.

Few minutes later she returns but alone. I'm about to start but Hoseok says Areum loves to start together. Her family loves her so much I see. It's so rare to see. Well I don't even consider my one as a family lol.

" Where's she?" Hoseok asks

" She's coming, but she is behaving strangely. I don't know how to say this but she was looking scared??!!" She replies

" What are you talking about Mommy?" That kid asks

She can't able to reply. We see Areum is coming with an oversized T-shirt and sweatpants which covers nearly her full body. I wonder why she never shows her skin? A girl at her age should know about fashion and stuff. But why does she dress like a boring person?

They are having a little chit-chat when Areum starts babysitting me and somehow I don't like that so I backfired.

" Go to hell you, your family and your dinner. I'm out of here" With that I stand up and leave the room.

I enter my room and lay down in bed. She's actually pissing me off. Who the fuck she think she's. Just because she's helping me, she can't brag about it. I hate this type of person. And what with the attitude she's showing. Do I look like I care?

I close my eyes and suddenly I hear the door of the room swing open and a face reveales with a tray which I never want to see, well at least not now.

" You can ignore me all you want, but you can't ignore that growling sound coming from your belly. Get up and eat your dinner." She says when I just close my eyes and turn my left, showing my back. She's saying something to gather my attention but I just want her to go from here. She pisses me off.

" You know I was going through your file, and I saw you were a very hardworking person. But I was wondering where you've kept those things you made by working hard." I'm listening to her while she suddenly says something that forces me to get up from the bed.

" Nice ass you've made Tae. Any girl will get jealous of you." I can sense she's smirking and I was right the moment I look at her

She just chuckles and tells me to finish the dinner and she leaves. Well not this time.

I grab her hand and pull her backwards and when she falls on the bed, I grab her hands with my one.

I pin her so that she can't even move and I can give her a piece of my mind.

She's still processing what happened and I look directly at her eyes.

I'm not gonna lie but she's looking so different underneath me. I never get a chance to see her face. Her eyes widen, a shocking expression fills her face. Her cheeks become slightly red because of this . Her lips part a little telling me to bite that right fucking now. but I control myself because I've got a better plan for her right now.

I move my face close to her. She doesn't even blink and I look at her feverishly. I lick my lips seductively and start to talk.

" Who the fuck do you think you are ha? Do you fucking know who I'm? Why are you doing this to me? I came back just because you told me you can help me. But I never ever thought that you'd use that to pinch me. Like seriously? Don't you have better things than this?" She's still looking at me directly. For the 1st time I think my charisma is working on her. She gets lost in my eyes.

But I never thought she'll look so sexy, which will make me crazy. I'm a man of course. And it's normal when a beautiful woman like her will be with me like this where I'm literally pinned her in the bed with my whole body. My body will react.

And it's reacting but I remember how she threatens me yesterday with this same thing and now she can do nothing if I use my machine to punish her.

" You were talking about my hard work right?" I say moving my face even closer to her that our noses are touching. This time she just blinks a little, but she doesn't try to move.

I look at her eyes directly where my eyes are dominating her. " My ass is not the only thing that I got by hard work." I move a little more and bring my lips close to her ear and I whisper." There's more in me that I got by hard work or should I say. fucking someone so hard." I chuckle and look back at her. She's still looking at me but this time she doesn't have any emotions in her eyes

((Keep your attention to him ok?? Don't look at those dimples askggighdudubdubfjbgnfjbgnjo)

I continue, " You're studying about me right? And you were right when you said I should help you. And I thought why not?? Let me give you something that'll make your job much easier."

I move back a little again and look at her lips. She can sense what I'm about to do so she closes her eyes. I watch her and chuckle

I move my face to her neck. I brush my nose on her bare neck. She shivers a little underneath me. I whisper, " Areum. Let me give you some information about me." She's literally shivering under me while she hears what I say.

I start to kiss her neck lightly that she can't even feel it, but when she does she moves slightly by shock. I start to place soft kisses around her neck. I never realized her smell is so nice. A little bit of strawberry which fades away everytime I try to smell it again. She's literally making me crazy. I don't know if I can control myself or not.

I see she's enjoying this and I start to kiss her neck devoriously. She's breathing heavily but can't say anything from the feeling she's having. I have that power in me, which I get from her so called 'hard work'.

I kiss her skin but suddenly she moans a little, that's about to fade out but I hear it clear and I realize that I found her sweet spot.

I kiss at the same spot a few times and she's literally in heaven I can sense. Then I just lick her skin as she moans my name, " Tae."

I just smirk and then what I do brings her back to reality. Which I wanted.

I bite her skin with a full force on the same spot I'm kissing. She screams and tries to get away from me. But I hold her tight. I'm not giving her love bites. I'm actually biting her like a demon and I bit her many times on the same spot. She's just screaming my name which is making me feel so good

" TAE aaahhhh TAE STOP IT AAHHHH Tae it's hurting me. Lea-leave me aaahhhh"

Eventually I leave her when I taste something ironic. I bite her until she bleeds.

When I look back at her, she's panting heavily and her eyes are rolling backwards!!?? Did she really enjoy that much?? Then why was she screaming? Someone love erotic things huh? Should I continue? I can punish her till she bleeds. I'm damn sure she's not a virgin, maybe she fucks so many times with that kid who knows. But this one is not anywhere compared to me. I'm smirking just thinking about how I should punish her.

" Ah see! I knew it would help you right? Now you know how much I worked hard? Or should I give you some more examples?" She doesn't say anything. She rolls her eyes and is blinking repeatedly!! Like if she really wants it just say it or give some hints. What with this behavior!!

Right after it she says, " Let. me go" She says as I'm strangling her. She's not looking normal. Like she is about to pass out. Lord, I'm done then. What'll I use as an excuse?? She can't be here in my room while she passes out.

I look at her again, her heavily breathing face is like something else which I can't even describe. I wish she'd be like this after I fuck the shit out of her. "I see you learnt well today. I really want to finish our little interaction but we'll wait for tomorrow. The more we'll wait. The more it'll be fun ha?" With that I release her hands and move back.

She just gets up and closes her eyes. I observe her for what she's gonna do after that. But she's doing nothing she usually should do. I thought she'd give me a piece of mind and will burst out on me, but no. She's just sitting there with her eyes closed.

Few minutes later she stands up and is about to leave the room, but I can see legs are trembling. For fuck sake I didn't fuck her, I didn't even strip her so why is she walking like that?? " Areum, stop behaving like we actually fucked. I just gave you some valuable information about me." I chuckle.

" Thanks," She says lowly. Now she's really acting strange. I'm about to say something but she already reaches the door knob. She turns it and leaves the room.

I knit my brows out of confusion. What happened to her? I literally attacked her and about to rape her and she's saying me thanks??!! I think she's on her period, because maybe she was sure I can't fuck her. I chuckled a bit and lay down on the bed. I was humming a tune and was feeling proud of myself. At last I show her what is her position in my life. lol.

I'm feeling so tired. It's a hectic day. My eyelids are feeling heavy, at the same time I'm shivering. NO, not like Areum did. I still remember how my touch made her feel so many things. She was having goosebumps too. But the shiver I'm feeling is because of the cold. This place is full of trees and I see a huge field from the house, and by luck my room faces the field, and the wind is literally blowing me right now.

I get up from the bed and walk to the window. Maybe if I close the window it'll keep me warm.

It's so quiet here. The sky is so clear. It's a good time to drink a cup of coffee and spend quality time with your loved ones. I used to love these moments. Where silence used to fill our hearts, and we felt a strange peace from it. We used to hold each other and drink coffee from the same cup, and talk about the days. I still miss these things. I wish I could feel this again.

What I'm even thinking. It's not like my luck will support me. I'm that type of person who if I touch a flower which is blooming brightly will fall like a rotten flower. There's no such words like happiness or love in my vocabulary. I sigh and look at the sky. " I hope you're having a good time there. Don't worry we'll meet soon."

I look down in the field. The heavy wind is caresing the grasses. letting it blow. Countryside is actually a good place to have some peace of mind, which I'm getting. I Look at the field, but I see someone is walking in the middle of the field at this hour?? It's nearly 2 in the morning.

Maybe someone is returning from work. But as I look closely I see a female figure. her hair had fallen down her waist. as I narrow the eyes it feels like the overall structure of the lady is familiar to me. She's heading towards the jungle. There's another one I saw last time, but she's not heading to that one. As it's too dark but I can see the lady isn't walking properly, or can't walk I say specifically.

I have a straight face. Maybe it's not the one I'm thinking of. What will she do at this hour alone in the field? Maybe she is sleeping in her room. Maybe it's some random lady.

Anyway it's not my problem. Let the lady do the fuck she want. I don't even care if it is the one I'm thinking of. I don't give a fuck about anybody. I close the window and get back to my bed again.

But something in me telling me I saw her. I can't let her roaming in the field alone. She may face danger. I should go. I close my eyes so that the voice in me stops saying these things. But no. It's like that day when they found me. Someone in me was telling me to rip off that skirt. To keep something to me that'll remind of someone and eventually I did. But not this time.

Again I start thinking. That time it was like hurting someone, but this time it is telling me to do something for someone. Should I listen to it??

Gosh this fucking voice is killing me. I get up. take my hoodie. Wear it and burst out of the room.

I pass through the hall room when I hear that douchebag is asking me where I'm going. I don't reply and open the main door and leave the house. I can hear him screaming my name, but I don't stop.

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WARNING: Mature contents ahead. Which means there will be self harm, brutal behavior, blood etc. Read at your own risk.

I run towards the field. It's too dark here. I call the name that is screaming in me, I hope nobody will answer. " Areum." " Areum" " AREUMMM." . No response. Where I should be relieved but I'm feeling more and more conscious about the lady. Thanks to Areum who behaved like that before leaving my room.

It feels like I ran like a mile and I come so far from that field and it feels like I'm in the middle of the jungle. Finally I see a figure moving forward. I'm about to call her name again but what she's doing shocked me.

She takes something from the ground and holds it tightly. and she literally stabs her hand with that. My eyes widened from what I saw. I come back in sense when she stabs in the same spot again. And the strangest thing is that she's not screaming. I look closely and carefully so that she doesn't notice me. She moves a little and her side face can be seen with lots of difficulty..

It's Areum.

I don't know how to react. I just take a deep breath and see what she's doing. Her eyes are closed. She pulls out the thing from her skin and she holds her head and takes a fist of hair and starts to pull it so harshly even I can feel far from here that it's freaking painful. But the odd thing is she's not screaming, she's just whimpering.

It's like she's taking the pain. She again takes the sharp tool and sits down. She sits there calmly, and I don't know why it feels like the calm before the storm.

And that is exactly what happened.

She squeezes her eyes and starts to stab all over her legs with that. Her sweatpants get soaked by her own blood. She's about to stab one more time but I rush to her and hold her right hand.

She looks at me, well like looking somewhere else, " Leave me" She's breathing calmly. " Areum, what the fuck are y--"

" FUCKING LEAVE MEEEEE!!!" I never ever imagined I would witness this Areum. She goes crazy when I don't leave her. She uses her other hand and starts to scratch her legs. I really don't know how to stop her. If she continues doing this she may kill herself.

I'm about to hold her left hand too but I missed it because she's touching her neck. Especially where I bit her wonder how many times. She closes her eyes again and starts to bury her nails in the wound. Her skin has already gone purple from what I did. Scratching the same area is making it even darker.

I hold her left hand this time and she again looks at me. But she doesn't look directly into my eyes. It's like she's looking somewhere else." I don't know who the fuck you are, but I'll kill you if you don't leave me right now." She says, I don't get that?? Has she gone blind too? How come she couldn't recognise me??!!

" Kill me if you want but stop hurting yourself." I hold her hand and try to get her up from the ground. She's struggling but eventually she does. I just leave her one hand to hold her but she takes the chance and she pushes me so hard that I fall on the ground.

" GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!!!" She screams and again starts searching for that tool.

This time my mind goes blank and I don't care what she'll do. I stand up and take a deep breath. I clench my jaw for the wrath I'm holding. My eyes are burning out of rage. What the fuck she think she's doing. I see she picks that tool and about to stab her again but I hold her hand again.

She's looking so fucking angry for what I did. She's literally hurting me to let her leave. Well I had enough. The next thing I do is shock her and she just stands there silently.

I slap her so hard that she tries to balance her for a moment.

She holds her face and looks back at me. right now I can see her eyes clearly. Right now she is actually looking at me. I look at her with so much anger in my eyes. I can sense my eyes becoming red for my anger. If Areum is in her right sense she would easily force me to take some pill and calm me down. Because according to her, my anger is a demon inside me which forces me to do bad things.

Her eyes are sparkling like she's about to cry but she doesn't. She looks at me. I see how her eyes became soft slowly. There's no anger in them, there's no wrath in them. It's like she's seeking help from me. It's like she's feeling tired, and looking for someone to hold her, and I do.

She blinks for some time and then suddenly she moves back. She's about to fall but I hold her face with my left hand. She literally passes out and I see how her breathing calms down.

I look at her for some time. Right now she's looking like the most beautiful girl I've ever seen in my life. I couldn't find the Areum I had seen some minutes ago. It's like a little kid sleeping peacefully. I remove some strands of hair from her face to observe her beauty.

I wonder what happened to her that she came this far away from her house and was hurting her like that. Me who literally likes these types of acts, is feeling scared for her. What happened to her? She's a fucking doctor by herself. She knows the consequences of these types of actions still why she did this??

I get literally lost in her beauty when I hear some noise far from here. I forgot for a moment that we're in the middle of a jungle in the middle of the night.

I hold her right hand and let it rest over my shoulder where I lift her up like bridal style. I look at her for the last time, and my face softens.

"What happened to you, Areum??"

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Hey lovelies. It's been so long.

My exams are literally killing me. I became so sick in the middle that I had to skip my study for three days.

So many things happened and I don't know how to process all of these

Well enough about me. I don't want to make you bore by talking about my shitty life

So Taehyung saved Areum again huh?? And what was that moment in Taehyung's room??

Why did Areum react like this again??

Stay tuned to reveal lovelies. I'm gonna blow your mind

07/05/21