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Areum's P.O.V

" I don't understand this. What am I doing here with you?? I left outside and returned to this hell now all of you are forcing me to be that outside again!! Why?? " Taehyung is really pissed off and I'm really enjoying this.

Flashback

Few moments ago

After I leave Seokjin Oppa's room, I come outside of the asylum as Jungkook messaged me that he already parked the car in front of the asylum but they're having a problem?

I see these two gentlemen are killing themselves by throwing anger from their eyes!! I look at them confusedly." What are you doing here? Get inside. We've got a long way to go."

" Not until we come into an agreement " Jungkook states

" What agreement? What happened? " I ask

" This douchebag of yours. also your slave saying he'll drive and you'll sit in the front seat beside him. But I don't sit in the backseat okay? I never did. So I suggest to him that you should sit in the backseat as I think you don't have the courage to face, if we need to speed up. And as you're a girl. So of course-" I cut off Taehyung's words

" So of course I'll drive. and for your kind information Taehyung, this douchebag has a name and he's also your mentor. So I want you to call him that. And about the slave, he knows too well why I don't sit in the backseat. But you don't need to know about me. So please do what he says."

" Never in a million years will I sit in the backseat. I've never did." Taehyung protests.

" Well everything has a 1st time." With that I sit in the driver seat, and close the door.

Now two of them are arguing about who's gonna sit beside me. These kids!!!. I again come out from the car and stand between them

" The fuck is your problem? What will happen if you sit in the backseat? Is there any hidden demon who will. try to kill you just for fun??" I say the last words, slowing down my voice, but I raise it again." No right? Then why are you barking like those street dogs who didn't get laid for their lifetime?? I'm giving you 30 seconds to settle yourself in the car, or I'm gonna leave both of you behind." With that I leave them and hop in the car.

I see with the side mirror they're still arguing. So I start the engine, and as soon as I do, it looks like they come to an agreement and hop in the car. Taehyung beside me, when Jungkook sits in the backseat. I can see they both are pissed off which I don't like. I've to ignore that because I've better things to do.

" But Areum, do you know the roots? I know you don't so why don't I sit beside you and direct you? You can't do that by yourself do you?" Jungkook says suddenly

" Sometimes I wonder if you've short term memory disorder Kookie. Seriously this is your car and your car has GPS that can direct me without even any one of your help. So shut the fuck up and let me drive peacefully."

I hear Taehyung snorting and Jungkook just moves his gaze outside the window. I can see he's upset with me. But he knows this too, why I don't want to sit in the backseat, so he doesn't extend the topic.

End of Flashback

I drive for an hour and I'm feeling so tired and thinking of letting Jungkook drive for sometime, but then Taehyung will kill me right here. So I park on the side of the road and get out of the car.

" I'm feeling so tired. Can any of you want to drive till we reach the next stop?? " I see how their faces lit up, but they're hesitating who will approach me first.

" This is my car, and I let you drive for an hour. Now give me back my keys." Jungkook states

" Huh lol you have some audacity here right?? The person who doesn't even know that his own freaking car has GPS is bragging that this is his car lol. " Taehyung snaps

" Well what do you want? Areum checks the GPS and some vehicles come and blow us in the air?? You may want to die but I don't want to thank you. Areum I'm coming. " Jungkook says

" Don't you dare to move from your seat. I can drive too and I'll drive. Beside you both are looking like trash so seat in the backside and let me drive "

" No you can't order me. I'm your mentor too. You've to obey me "

" Mentor my ass. I won't follow anyone except her. Because she tricked me and trapped me in this fucking agreement."

"Shut up right now will you? " I scream. They're literally arguing like kids. " Taehyung you will drive till the next stop and after that Jungkook will because he knows the ways from there better than any one of us."
I get out of the car but I hear them start to bark again so I stop and face them again " Oh and one thing, if I hear any of you bark a single word in the whole ride, no food for any of you for the whole ride. You'll starve till we reach the place. Got it? "
With that I turn and get out of the car, and come around to sit in the front seat. Taehyung quietly hop in the driver seat and starts driving, where Jungkook sits in the backseat.

I fell asleep for a while and when I wake up I see we're in the middle of nowhere. There are only trees and the road is directing us to go as far as we can see. I look to my right and see Taehyung is driving peacefully. I observe him, but he's so focused on driving that he doesn't realize that.

Whenever I look at him, I feel peace. It's true he's the present reason my life is messed up but still I feel like this. His gaze can kill anyone but me. I look at him in the same way. Maybe this is why he only listens to me. Maybe this is why he thinks only I can help him.

When I myself can't help myself.

I sigh a little that catches his attention. " I hope you had a sound sleep." He says without looking at me

I look behind to see Jungkook before replying and see he's sleeping peacefully. " Yeah I slept like a baby, but for this I didn't have to wrap somebody." I smile a little bit remembering how he slept yesterday while hugging me.

" Can you shut up? You know I was roaming and didn't sleep for days. Still you're mocking me like this. Do doctors actually don't have any heart or was I right in my whole life?? " He says

" Hmm what is your opinion about doctors' hearts??"

" Doctors don't have hearts Areum. It's true. They treat patients as guinea-pigs for their research purpose, and even if they die they just show that they're sorry but they're sorry for real but in reality they just don't give a fuck. They're sorry because they couldn't add that case in their achievement book." The way he's talking confirms that he lost someone by some doctor's mistake. If I've power in my hand I would find that bitch and cut his every nerve slowly, so that he'd bleed till death. But I'm a simple intern here who is still treated like a baby.

" Not everyone in this world shares the same heart Taehyung, some of them may give it to someone by herself to destroy it in every possible way. Some of them made their heart a garbage where she put every miserable memory. Some of them faced so many things that they made their heart like stone where they felt nothing for anyone, for anything. So Taehyung I don't know which doctor's heart you're talking about but not all doctors are heartless. They do have one but maybe not like the normal people have" I smile

" Wow, I just said a line and you gave me an essay on it. No wonder why you're so boring." He shrugs

" Well this boring girl is here to save your ass." I snap and he just chuckles.

I look at him for a while then tear my gaze and start thinking about something. Something about my heart. It's true my heart has become like a stone. I don't feel anything for anyone. It's a good thing in a way. To be heartless where people like Taehyung can predict that we doctors don't have hearts. This way they don't expect that much from us. So I feel proud that I don't feel anything.

Until I met Taehyung.

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We stop for a while near a food court and take a break. It'll still take 5 hours to reach. It's evening here so we'll reach there before dinner time. This is the 1st time I see Taehyung eating. I can say he has a great appetite, he loves food very much. He's eating like someone will take his food from him.

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"Easy there Tae. You'll choke." He totally ignores me so I look at my other side while I see another Tae, I mean Jungkook.

" Like how many years you guys were starving that you're eating like this!! Gosh this is so embarrassing."

Both of them look at me at the same time and speak while munching their food," SHUT UP!!"

I don't utter a word but chuckle a little because they're looking so cute like this.

We finish eating and start driving again. As it was decided Jungkook is driving. I sit beside him. I look behind me and see Taehyung already sleeping. Must be so tired after driving so long.

" I wonder what medicine you gave him that he's so calm right now. I've never seen him like this " Jungkook says

" I did nothing. I was just playing with his mind, that's my work to be honest. I make him believe that I'll help him, and I'll make it true. Besides, he's kinda like me. He doesn't even know whom to trust or not. Which is why I made him believe that I can help him. He can trust me, but I know he doesn't trust me either. That's not my problem. I don't care if he trusts me or not. Once he comes to his normal state, it's not like I'll see him after that right?" I explain

" Do you really don't care about him?" He asks

" Well I never said I don't care about him. I do. I actually don't give a fuck if he trusts me or not. It's my job and I'm doing it with my everything "

" Well to me you're not treating him as a job. You've said that to hyungs that day by yourself. That he's a mystery to you that you want to solve."

" Which I'll solve in any way, Kookie. I'll show him the right way. Sometimes seeing him like this kinda hurts me. I have all of you, but I don't know if he has someone for him or not."

" He has you, Areum. At least till he recovers"

" In this world everyone is alone, Kookie. Me, You, Taehyung. Nobody has anyone. You only live for yourself. No one is gonna do that for you. Or you'll regret it if you think otherwise."

Jungkook doesn't reply to me. He just looks at me and smiles a little and focuses on driving

In our little chit chat we don't even notice that Taehyung is wide awake and listening to our conversation.

We reach Hobi's house and he welcomes us with his warm hug. Though I don't hug him like that. He knows why. He even hugs Taehyung, still knowing that Taehyung is one the main reasons I'm facing everything right now.

Jungkook calls Hobi to put down the luggage from the car while Taehyung is following me. We go into the house and I don't even put my second foot inside, someone grabs me so tightly that I feel out of breath!!

" Ah you're here my baby I've been missing you so long. Why did you leave in the 1st place??"

I'm literally struggling in her embrace, "Mommy I missed you too, now please l-leave me I-I can't b-breath"

" Oh! I'm so sorry baby" She releases me and cups my face. " You can't even imagine how much I've missed this face, this smile" A tear escapes from her eyes.

Yes she's my aunt but I love her as my mother because she treats me as her daughter. When I shifted here she was always here with me. She never lets me feel loneliness, which is why I adore her. Because my own Mom doesn't know anything that my Mommy knows.

" Mommy stop crying okay? I'm not leaving soon. I swear I'll irritate you so much that you'll wonder why I came back in the 1st place."

" Not gonna happen in this life okay? I- Oh I didn't see you there!!" Aunt looks past me and sees Taehyung standing there all alone, and doesn't know what to do.

" Mommy, this is Taehyung. My. friend from the asylum." I say with a smile. I don't want to introduce him as my patient outside the asylum.

When I look at Taehyung, he looks at me confusedly," Are you gonna stand there or you come here and introduce yourself to these people? "

He comes in front awkwardly. It's all new to him after what happened to him years ago. I don't forget that he hasn't talk with anyone in the past year. So this is one of my reasons for coming here. He should start talking to people, at least try. I know it's hard. I've faced this shit too, but being in a place where everyone will give their everything just to make you feel less miserable is the 1st step of recovering from bipolarity.

" Mommy, meet this handsome yet rude boy here! Taehyung. He doesn't talk that much but that does mean he has an arrogant ass. So please excuse him."

" You mean hasn't right??!!" Mommy asks

" No, I meant he does have an arrogant ass! Want any proof? " I asks

" Well nobody has this type of thing, okay? Stop taunting this boy. Look at him, looking so tired! Must have a long journey right? " Mommy says softly

" He literally slept the whole way, it was me who brought them here, and now bringing this luggage too" Jungkook comes with the luggage in his hand.

" As if you were not snoring half of the way," Taehyung suddenly says.

" And I was out of the world the whole time right??" I say while both of them just look at each other.

" Enough of this. Hoseok, show them their room. And you guys go take some rest. Hoseok will call you when the food is ready" Mommy says and goes to the kitchen.

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" I'm gonna join you after I freshen up Mommy" I say and she nods a little. I'm about to go to my usual room but suddenly someone grabs my arm.
I look back to see it's Taehyung. He's looking at me with a little bit of tension. Jungkook already left the hall-room with Hobi, so it's only him and me.

" Tae? "

" C-Ca-Can I stay with you? " He says suddenly

My eyes widen! What is he saying? Staying with me in my aunt's house?? She'll not accept that. She's a little bit backdated in this type of matter. But that's not what I'm worrying about, I'm worrying about how I'd make him understand that? Would he understand? He doesn't even move a little without me.

" Tae. I-"

" I won't stay here without you. Please! " He says with pleading eyes.

This time my face fills with a shocking expression! Taehyung requesting me?!! Is he that much scared of this outside world?!! I get close to him and hold his face.

" Tae it's okay. I'll be here for you the whole time. But. you need to understand that Mommy won't let me. She doesn't accept these types of things." He's about to say something but I stop him, " How about I come to your room and stay with you till you sleep, hm? "

He thinks for some time and then nods. I release a sigh and hold his hand and lead him to his room to freshen up. I'm about to leave but he calls me again.

" Areum!"

" Hmm Yes do you need anything?" I ask while turning back

He's hesitating to say something but he can't say that to me. It takes me sometime then I realize. I pass beside him and enter the room. " Taehyung, you remember that day in the hospital you told me to stop acting like a baby? Now who's becoming a baby here?
I understand this is all new to you. But you've to take one step at a time okay?" I say while opening his luggage and start to find something comfortable for him to wear.

Yeah he's feeling scared to stay alone here. According to my own research, imagine a person who didn't socialize with anyone for a whole year, going through some shits that I know nothing about, but still, something not normal, will feel scared if he comes to a totally different place. He was in the asylum for months so he kinda got used to that.

But Hobi's house is not anything like that hell. This house is full of trees around it, a backyard can be seen with the window. A small but dark jungle is not so far from here to adventure a little. So many neighbors are filled here who'll never let you feel alone. I can say that tomorrow many of them will come to see me, because I used to visit their house with Mommy. Mommy never lets me feel lonely, in any way she'll keep me busy or force me to socialize which is the most important thing for Taehyung too.

No, I won't tell him to meet with those neighbors. Rather I'll be the one who'll be with him the whole time. I want him to feel those things again he used to feel before these years. This is how it will be easier for me to talk with him.

" Hmm. I think this will be enough for now. Okay Tae do one thing, go and freshen up. I'll wait here for-"

I can't finish my words when I turn around and see Taehyung is right in front of me and suddenly.

He wraps his arms around me.

I'm just standing there. My mind stops working. I can't think of anything. This is the 1st time he has become this soft in front of me. The person who basically spits hatred at me each time he finds the scope, is now. Hugging me?

I'm breathing so heavily, but he wraps me all by himself. He puts his face on the crook of my neck, his breath hitting my bare neck and I can't even tell him anything. Until he speaks.

" Why can't I trust anyone, Areum? Why did everyone leave me? Why did everyone come into my life just for a reason? "

I blink for some time because I don't know any answers to his questions. I just hold him and is tapping slowly on his back.

He continues, " Why can't I be anyone like you? What happened to me, Areum? Why am I here, in this state?? " I'm listening to him carefully, and one thing is for sure. He's trying to remember something.
The reason I'm here with him today is somehow working. It'll be a great opportunity for me to make him speak. But this is not the right time to pressure him for more information.
Right now he's on the edge of a breakdown. I need this breakdown but I've to polish it. He'll not say anything if I ask him right now, rather my chances of solving this case will decrease. I've to hit him at the right moment, at the exact right time.

I push him, holding his arm, and holding his face. No he's not crying but his face has become pale." Tae, I don't know how to answer any of your questions. But I know one thing is that if you help me a little, I might be able to answer you. You have me now, if you need something you can ask me, anytime. And while you have me, maybe I'll find what you're searching for! okay??" I say while he looks at my eyes and nods a little. I can see his eyes were roaming in mine, to find comfort, to tell him everything will be fine. I softly look at him. He's so lost in me, and I don't want that. I want him to find himself. That also by himself. I'm just a staircase for him to reach that position where he can be good enough without me.

"Now please be a good boy and freshen up. I'll wait for you outside the room. It's okay if you feel overwhelmed here. Everything takes time okay? Once you done, open the door for me, I'll be here"

He blinks and nods again and releases me. I take a deep breath and get out of the room. I shut the door and take a sharp breath. I don't know what is happening to me. I'm feeling like having a panic attack. My heart is beating so fast. I put my hand on my heart, trying to calm myself down but I can't. I need to go anywhere far from this room. I just murmured one thing before I leave the place and rush to my room.

" Taehyung. What are you doing to me??!! "

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