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I wake up with some sound of humming. It's like someone is vibing with his jams. I try to open my eyes a little bit but fail due to having so much light in my room. I try to open my eyes again and see a figure in front of me. I blink sometimes and I see a face that makes me smile even on the bad days.

" My girl is waking up, I can see. I was dying to meet with you.." He says while smiling a little.

" Don't talk to me. You forgot about me. I don't know you" I say while squeezing my eyes.

" Are you sure about that? You'll reject me? Do you know who I'm?" He says while sitting on my bed, well hospital bed of course.

" Shut the fuck up and give me it already" I whine a little.

" You're looking so pale, my baby. Ah, these medicines aren't working right? I know it won't because there's nothing stronger than the medic I'll give you.." With that he comes close to me and holds my face with his hand and places a soft kiss on my forehead. I feel warmth..

" Hmm now you're shining like me. I know my medicine will work duh!!" He smirks

" Shut up and give me a hug.. " I spread my hands and he helps me to get up a little and hugs me, basically tries to squeeze me in him that I winch a little.

" I missed you Hobi. Without you it felt like there's no sun in my life. Why can't you come here and brighten my days.." I bury my face in his chest.

" You know my parents huh don't you? They trust me and they have faith in me, baby. I can't let them feel low.." He releases me from his grip and cups my face.

Hoseok is my cousin from my mother's side. He lives on the other side of the country because he has a whole hospital to run. He's a psychiatrist like us of course, but he has more knowledge than all of us. It came from his father's side. Uncle saw potential in him since childhood and from that time they let him have knowledge little by little.

As they have a family business to run which is that multinational hospital. Uncle gave him the full responsibility of running his business after him, and he gladly accepted. He just didn't accept but after him, their hospital is earning so much profit and all thanks to him. He's the 1st mentor of Namjoon oppa, Jungkook and then me. He taught us the basic things in the 1st place which cleared many confusion and we achieved the degree without any worries.

He was there for me whenever I needed him. He'll joke around, will sing songs, or do something that'll force me to burst out laughing. The day I joined this asylum was the day I had to say goodbye to him because my university was close to his house, and basically I spent most of the time with him and his family. I consider his parents as mine one. He came here after some months but had to leave because they found a girl roaming around in the jungle and her condition was not so good according to him.

The moment he knew something happened to me, he left all of his work and rushed here. That's what he said.

" Oppa I feel a lot better now. You don't need to worry about me. I can take care of myself. You guys still treat me as a child. " I pout.

" Because you're a child. You will be no matter what your age is. Do you even realize what you're to us hmm? We'll be insane if something happens to you and then who'll treat us?" His breath fastens.

I know where this is coming from. They love me way too much that if I get a scratch they'll turn the world upside down to ensure that I'm okay.

" Well then some of your juniors will have a chance to take revenge for how strict you were with them, and well count me in with them " I wink at him. He tries to be angry but can't hold his laugh

" You little devil. Get ready for the punishment.." He narrows his eyes.

He gets up from the bed and takes a bag and opens it. I look at it and I knew what's in there.

I practically start drooling after that.. " Oppa??? Is this what I'm thinking it is?? " My face becomes bright like a LED light.

" Well yes it is but it's mine now. As you want to take revenge from me huh? Well let's take mine one before that" He grins.

Two can play the game

I make a puppy face.. " You'll do that to me?? You'll not let me have my precious thing!!"

" Well this is mine. I cooked it by myself just for you. Hobi special " Chicken Noodle Soup ". I thought you'll need some protein so I made this. But as you've revealed your true side, well forget about it.." He opens the box and is about to dig in.

" Oppa!! " I'm really gonna cry this time, because he knows how much I love his signature dish that is also cooked by him.

" Ah stop with this drama, okay? I'll give you some" He rolls his eyes, and comes to me.

" Don't do this to me okay? Give me some more, I'm hungry..." I whine..

He just laughs and keeps feeding me. He's feeding me but I can sense he was staring at me, like he's thinking of something but can't make any sense of that.

I choke a little and take the water bottle from the side table when I see a band laying on the table. I drink the water and pick the band..

" Oppa, is it yours? " I show him the band and he shakes his head..

I take a close look at it and then I remember whose it belongs.

I totally forget about Taehyung. Even when I wake up I can't find him by my side. I assume he left or he was forced to, and when he does maybe he left it here or fell from his hand. Also his change of behavior comes in my mind again. I look at Hobi and decide to ask him about Taehyung..

He's busy mixing the heavenly delicious thing when I call him, " Oppa? What do you think about stage 4 bipolarity?"

" What to think about them? Basically their real self left them long ago, and they gather different personalities at different times. It's hard to find the difference though.." He says while giving a handful of spoons.

" So you're telling me if a bipolar person who doesn't even talk that much, or if they have the chance to run from a place but they don't utilize it, can change into a person who talks as if cutting with a sharp knife and can think about escaping?" I ask..

" Yeah they can, but it's rare, you know? Jumping from a totally different personality to another." He shrugs his shoulders..

" So what to do to keep them sane? "

" If I give you a medical explanation, when we find a person with a state we can predict, he picks up the least or the most confidential personality out of fear. Either he'll give up or he'll fight. When we start to treat him we can have a decent idea of how he changed himself and when he'll change himself.
It's like he'll give you this information without even realizing it. So we treat him according to that behavior. As we've to be patient with people at this stage, whether to be soft at them or to be strict. I assume you're talking about one of your patient. Tell me about him " He explains

" Well the 1st day I met him his expression and gaze was so... intimidating. Like he doesn't want to be disturbed, or I get to know that he never attacked anyone and when he loses his sanity he basically hurts himself, and the way he talked with me I found it normal because when you face a trauma it's normal you'll not talk normally. Nobody knows this better than me right? " I state..

" Hmm go on " He sighs and opens another box of noodles

" Well after that, I met with him several times and everytime he tried to ignore me but failed. I gave him space to talk and he did. He never tried to attack me but tried to scare me a little which I got. Other than that he never tried to escape or tell me to let him go."

" What is his present state? Did you meet him recently? "

" Yeah, yesterday he was here. He's the one who....you know.....saved me that night. Anyway he was here and he was talking like he's so pissed off and so desperate for something. He was way too rude with me when I asked him about himself. But at the same time he was like....caring.." I join my brows, looking at that band..

" Pardon me but please explain the term 'caring' please.." He looks directly at me..

I look at him for a while and tell him yesterday how he basically was stabbing me with his words and later he helped me to drink water and then make me sleep on his lap. I also made him promise that this will be in between us and he'll not tell anyone about it.

" Hmm well as far as you told me I think he changed already and he become rebel. Right now you're just a burden for him. He wanted to leave but you are the reason he's again in that room. Maybe he'll become the one he was before coming here. The way he talked with you makes me think like that.." He states.

" What could it be? And how can I help him right now? What way should I approach him? And most importantly, how would I make him believe that I mean no harm?" He left a big sigh at my many questions..

" Too many questions at a time baby. But the answer will be same "

" And? " I ask him

He takes the plates and stands up from the bed looking at me he says..

" Be like him ".

Time Skip

It's been another day since I've been in the hospital. It still hurts a lot when I try to move. The nurse left my lunch on the table. She wanted to feed me but I told her I could manage. She tried to persuade me for some time but I was stuck to my words so she left after that.

I basically am thinking about what Hobi said to me. Was he serious when he told me that? I'm confused about so many things. One of them is how to approach him, or how to make him believe that I come in peace, or how to make him feel I'm not less than him?

I'm in my thoughts as always when the door opens and a face comes in front of me that makes me literally choke and spit my soup.

" Hey hey easy easy calm down. I'm sorry to make you choke. Here, drink some water." He comes to me while smirking a little.

" Thank you Sir!" I drink the water and look at him. God why does he have to come when I'm having my lunch, and that also I'm in a hospital bed with freaking hospital clothes!!

I hate this hospital even more.

He sits down and take out his phone to check the time while I'm looking at him- well drooling over him and smiling a little when he suddenly looks at me

What the fuck why he has to be so fucking handsome Lord I'm gonna die right now. I literally turn my face so fast that it starts to hurt my neck. I hiss in pain.

" What are you doing, Areum? Are you here to recover or harm yourself even more? " He sighs

" I'm sorry Sir. I'll take care of myself properly " I look down.

" I know you will, but what are these formalities? Call me Oppa from today like you call Namjoon okay?" He looks directly into my eyes.

I can feel blood rushing to my cheeks and I can easily say my face has become a red tomato right now.

" So tell me how are you right now? I watched the CCTV footage of that night and I must have to say you have guts to try to control him. But the brutal behavior he did he will suffer more than that. I'll make sure of that " He grits his teeth.

" It's okay Sir... I mean O-Oppa. My brother is here and he's taking care of him. So you should not take the burden of mine" I smile a little

" It's not like I'm taking a burden. I'm concerned about you, Areum. I care about you. Can't you see that? " He says with a worried expression.

Okay I'm dreaming for sure. Areum wake the fuck up!!!! But it's not a dream, it's actually happening to me!!!

" Thanks for your concern Si-- O-Oppa. It means a lot to me" I say while looking down. I don't have the ability to look in his eyes.

"So much is happening with you. I don't think you should start working after the day you will be discharged. I think you need some time to distract yourself" He stands up..

" It's okay Seokjin Oppa, I can manage. You shouldn't worry about me. You have other important things to do" I place my lunch plates on the side table.

I turn my face and all I can see is Seokjin. He literally bends down at my level and is looking at me with his hooded eyes. My breath gets stuck as I can't breathe for a moment. Our faces are inches apart I can feel his breath on my lips!!

" Areum, You should know that you're important to me too. I already told you that I care about you. So I would love to give you some time to get distracted" He removes some hair strands from my face..

I'm literally shaking right now!!

He continues, " So will it be okay if I take you on a date after you get released? hmm? We can go on a long drive and have some chit chat. That's it.. "

I can't say anything like my words get stuck in my throat. He chuckles seeing me like this, and straightens his posture..

" Well I think you should take some rest. And about my invitation, think about it and let me know. We'll meet soon, love " He smiles and turns to leave.

I take a long breath which I don't know how long is holding and release it. I can't even believe my own eyes and ears that Seokjin, freaking KIM SEOKJIN, asked me for a date? a date? A DATE????

I feel myself in heaven right now. I can't think of anything else and I wish I would be able to walk so that I can jump until my legs get numb.

As I calm myself down. I realize something. It's strange to me. Like really strange. The person who's my obsession, my idol, my reason to be here. The person who can make my heart jump like a rabbit, whenever we encounter each other, I used to touch my heart and feel it's beating too fast thanks to Kim Seokjin. I do that again right now. I keep my hand on my heart but..

My heart is not beating like that. My heart is not beating for him..

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