Dear Diary,

I decided to take Lust back to the fields again, a few days later, because he seemed to really like the place. We walked through the flowers, their whispered words echoing all around us. I thought that to be a suitable way to describe them.

We wandered together until we found a small pond in the middle of the field, and sat down at the edge of it together. There, we began to chat as we always did.

"So.. What is your brother like in this universe?" Lust asked, gazing at me with curious eyelights. I sighed. This was one of the more difficult topics to talk about. Of course I knew that he knew what Boss was like, since he interacted with him everyday in the afternoon, but I guess he wanted to hear my opinion on him.

"Well, he's really rough and mean. He's a real shit-head pretty much every single day 24-7. If I ever say or do something, or even say or do something that suggests I'm going against him, he'll bash my head in."

"Like this one time, I hadn't picked up this sock in the living room for awhile. I was a real lazy ass back then. That day, I dunno what happened. Maybe I said something that just irritated him, but suddenly, he was beating the crap out of me."

"I was so scared that I didn't even fight back. I was probably shocked or paralyzed with fright. That was the first time he beat me, but of course, it wasn't the last. The beatings just got more frequent from there. But that first one was probably the worst. I lost one of my teeth permanently from that beating, and so I had to get this one." I fingered the gold tooth.

"But it's not too bad now. If I just follow what Boss says, it's usually pretty fine. I just have to make sure my face doesn't betray any dissent, because he'll even beat me up for that."

I shrugged like it didn't really matter, 'cause tibia honest, it really didn't. I'm pretty sure there were people out there who had it way worse than me.

I looked back at Lust, who was staring at me open-mouthed. "Fell.. I didn't even know! I-I'm so sorry you have to go through that.."

"Hey." I put my hand on his shoulder. "It's really not that bad. It's certainly not even worse than your situation had been. Boss doesn't even beat me up too much anymore."

Lust sighed, turning away from me. I let my hand drop, letting him mull over my words. He would eventually accept them, because really, how could beatings be worse than rape?

After a time, we picked up our conversation again, this time with a lighter subject. We had begun to compare the different foods in our universes, and for some reason, that turned into a debate about what our fruit names would be.

"Maybe Apple? Or Cherry?" Lust laughed, smiling at the obvious ridiculousness of this conversation. "Dude, are you just giving me names of red fruit? That's so racist." I complained, smiling in spite of myself.

"It's not racist! They're just fruit!" Lust protested, having trouble containing his smile. "They're still about different colours." I sniffed, turning up my nasal cavity to make my point.

Lust smiled at my display. "Fine then. Your name's going to be Red now." He laughed. "Oh my God, that's even worse, Lust!" I exclaimed, making him laugh even harder.

Once our laughter had faded off, Lust sighed, smiling a little sleepily before laying his skull in my lap.

I had to keep from startling again. It was hard for me to remember that Lust was from a different universe, where people actually showed affection to people they cared for without fear or hatred. I couldn't even remember the last time I hugged my brother. Maybe when we were babybones?

I thought that he had fallen asleep, but then he spoke again. "Have you heard the story about the 3-leaf echo flower?"

"Uh, what?" I had never heard anything like that. Tibia honest, people around here didn't really tell stories much. And what's more, I was pretty sure there was no such thing as a 3-leaf echo flower.

"There was this tale that said if you found a 3-leaf echo flower, you were granted one wish, and that wish would come true." I looked down at Lust, who was gazing wistfully off into the distance.

"That's bullshit." I said bluntly. "I've never even seen an echo flower with only 3 petals. I've only ever seen them with 4, 5, or 6 of them. They don't exist."

"They do." Lust replied. I looked down at him disbelievingly. "Have you seen one?"

"Well, no." I rolled my eyelights, huffing a little. "But it's nice to think that they exist, don't you think?"

"Whatever. I still think they don't exist." I muttered, looking away. I felt Lust shift a bit, getting into a more comfortable position.

I thought that he had dropped this dumb subject, until he suddenly said. "So hypothetically, what would you wish for if you found one?" I sighed. Really?

"I already said, they don't exist, so you can't even "make a wish" or whatever that crap is." Lust turned to look up at me. "It's just hypothetical though."

I rolled my eyelights again. Fine. So he wasn't gonna drop the subject unless I answered him. Guess I had to  humour him then.

I thought for a bit, then said. "I guess.. I would wish for frenzy to have never been created, or for the monsters not be become so violent. What about you?"

Lust hummed softly, his sockets closing. "Hmm.. I would probably give the flower to the person I loved, so they could make their wish."

Ok, what? That couldn't really be his answer. "Are you serious?" I looked down at him again, arching an eyebrow ridge.

"Yeah, why?" He looked up at me curiously. I spluttered a little. "Wh-What? Isn't it obvious? Why wouldn't you want to make the wish? You found it yourself!"

Lust shrugged, looking back at the field of flowers. "I don't really have anything to wish for. If I got a wish, I feel like it should go to someone more deserving than me."

"What about improving your life at home?" I mean, if I was him, that would be the first thing I would think about.

Lust sighed. "The things that happened to me have already happened. I'll hold them forever inside of me. There's nothing that could change that."

"And besides, like I said, I'm not worth it. I'd rather give my wish to the person I love, if I do love someone in the future, so that I could see them happy. Because if I love them, then seeing them happy will make me happy, and that'll be the best wish that I could ever have."

I blinked. I was pretty sure my face was set into a mask of confusion. That was probably the shittiest response that I have ever heard in my entire life. Why would you throw away such a good opportunity like that?

Lust watched my expression carefully. He turned back to look at the flowers surrounding us, his skull still resting in my lap. "It's ok if you don't understand, Fell. Maybe one day you will."

I looked down at the peaceful figure in my lap. Sometimes he could be so confusing, being super sappy and a romantic and all that, imagining a cliche life.

But deep down, I wished that I could understand too.