So this is going to be mostly in Lance's head inside the healing pod. Also credit to all the art in this chapter because I will be using a lot.
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I breathed in. The sent of lavender crisp on the air. I blinked at glowing sun that cast shadows on me. I didn't want to move, what was even the point I should be dead but something didn't make sense, the last think I could remember was the moon shining through the water as I closed my eyes. I breathed again. And if I drowned then how can I still breath.

"LANCE"

I sat up at the flew to my feet making my head spin.

My rose coloured boy sprinted to me. His arms outstretched and his eyes flashing.

"K-Keith" I stuttered but then the world went black.

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Why did I say Keith, my red  boy isn't Keith.

He took my hand and smiled sweetly. "It so wonderful to have you back" he whispered and spun me around. How can I be so miserable in the real world but still feel this Immense joy here.

"Sooo where to you want to go" my rosey boy questioned. "Umm I don't know this place well so you can lead the way" I placed my hand back into his. We ran through the purple fields, my red boy's cute giggles lit up the landscape like no sun ever could.

We came to what must have been a cliff because the purple dropped off into nothing. White clouds sprawled over the blue sky like a painters work. My red boy turned and flopped onto the ledge. I laughed and sat next to him.

"Lance?" He asked, "Yeah" "why do you keep coming back here", my red boy turned slowly to me, his purple eyes like the lavender around us. How could I  Answer. "I-I don't know" I said and ripped my eyes away from his. "Lance don't lie, you do know but you won't tell me". More silence. "Please" his tone was pleading like a small puppies. What else could I do but answer.

"It's just........well...it nice coming here, I get to be away from everything else and just relax and I feel like I can trust you my rosey boy." All of this came at once and I could feel the tears welling up.

"Lance please, why why why did you try and kill yourself, was it something I did"

Those words sharply cut to my core and the black started to swim at the edges of my vision. That voice wasn't my red boy and the sound was like it was coming from outside. Like it was fighting through many layers of glass. That's voice was Shiro's.

"It's no it's not your fault please, I just wanted to make you happier" my red boy was flying away and the black ink was painting over my vision. It swarmed like bees as I cried out reaching for Shiro's hand. Then.......

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I breathed in. The sent of lavender crisp on the air. I blinked at glowing sun that cast shadows on me. I felt strange, like I was missing something, like some thing had been stripped from my mind but I can't recall it.

"Hey Lance" My red boy trotted up to me through the Lavender. His hand came down to me so he could lift me up, I reached out and brushed his finger tips and a flood of flashes glazed over me of black and water, gasping for air.

"Hey Lance are you okay" He asked. We were still standing in the purple fields a soft wind warming my skin .

"So where do you want to walk" my rosey boy asked, his finger tracing circles on the back of my hand. "Is there a beach around here" I wondered aloud, "Yeah silly" he laughed and pulled me through the fields.

The quiet bay was picture perfect, I wanted to paint it badly. White sand and deep blue waters, the whitecaps broke sleepily making my eyes feel heavy.

We sat in the sand together. For a dream everything felt so real. My red boy and I made a small sand castle, it reminded me of better times.

Something weird was happening though, every time I looked at my red boy from out of the corner of my eyes he....well he.. he looked like Keith but only just a little. At that's moment he caught me looking.

"What's wrong Lance" he asked, his hand drifted to rest on mine. "Well you look like someone I know from when I'm awake" he was hesitant to speak after that. His beautiful features looked confused but he just smiled and shook his head. "Lance do you wanna go for a swim" he stood and brushed the sand off whilst pointing to the water.

The though of water sent shivers down my spine, it was like if I touched the water the bad feeling of drowning would edge back in. I though better of that fear and said "yeah sure, why not."

We stripped off our shirts. In the normal world I would be embarrassed but my red boy didn't mind. He laughed and I ran with him to the water.

I inhaled sharply as my feet grazed the water. The thoughts started to close in and the black was breaking through. My red boy noticed my silence, "Lance are you okay" my hand found the warmth of his. As my fingers interlocked with his the feeling vanished and the skies were clear.

We danced out deeper into the cool ocean, the white caps brushing the sand off our knees.

"Ouch" my red boy yelped, "Hey what's wrong" I turned to him to see his hand holding his foot. A small shell was jammed into the sole of his foot. "Oh my gosh are you okay" I panicked . "No it's the end, I'm dying" he sarcastically moaned, he fell back into my arms laughing. I smiled too. He lifted him up and cradled him as we watched the waves roll by.

"Was it my fault, what could we have done differently to help him". my red boy startled me, he was crying into my arms. "What..what's wrong" I asked but all of this was to familiar. "What did we do wrong Lance, how could we have helped you." This wasn't my red boy, like it had been with Shiro this voice belonged to Pidge, she was sobbing badly.

"Please it, no, there was nothing you could have done, pidge" I yelled trying to reach her.

The water around me darkened Sickeningly. Like ink had been poured into it. My vision darkened as all sensation of water or my red boy's chest against mine left. Then.

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I breathed in. The sent of lavender was faint on the air. I looked around at the dark fields, the sun was no where to be found and my red boy wasn't here either.

"H-hello" my voice was weak as it echoed around. "Why won't you wake up" a voice cried. "I can't wake up" I responded to the nothing. "Y-you can Lance but why do you refuse to wake, why won't you just wake up" it said again. "I-I don't know why" I muttered but it was to late darkness was consuming me and I know what the darkness was. It was waking up

I was waking up.