Can I wake up tomorrow and it's 2017?

Can I reverse these last five years and get a do-over?

I want a chance to fix things. To fix some of the mistakes I made and to fix the relationships I ruined.

My attempts to recapture that specific feeling are all in vain. It doesn't matter how I rearrange my room or how short I cut my hair or what I spend my free time doing. Things will never be good like that again. I can never go back and undo all of my mistakes.

I can never not let you go.
I can never not fight.
I can never not try harder.