I lay on my bed and fiddled with my hair. Today couldn't have gone worse. For 3 months I'd been practicing like mad for the band auditions, but still I wasn't good enough. I can't believe I even auditioned in the first place really,  I'm crap at singing and suck at guitar so I guess there  really is no hope for me.

Suddenly my phone buzzed.

Message from-- Electric Gal to Acoustic Bitch

I opened up messages and saw that Kyoka Jirou, my best friend, had texted me. Our chat names were a bit of a joke, as we tend to argue over the superiorities of electric v acoustic guitars. Seeing the notification made my heart jitter in its cage. You see, I'd had a crush on her since forever but no way in hell was I gonna risk our friendship! Besides she's probably got a soul mate out there who deserves her much more than I do. I clicked open into our chat.

Bold= Jirou           Italics=you

Electric Gal

----- Sup! 😋 How'd auditions go!?

Acoustic Bitch

----- ugggggghhhhhh

Electric Gal

----- That bad huh? I told you they were all d*cks.

Acoustic Bitch

----- 1) I know, and I should have listened.

2) I. Hate. Everything. Uuuuuugghhh. 😡

Electric Gal

------ Can I use this as an excuse to come over and eat tons of ice cream?

Acoustic Bitch

----- You'd better. I need comfort food and television.😘

Electric Gal

----- See you in 10 💜😘😘😘💜

              -----Electric Gal exited the chat-----               

I smiled, what I actually wouldn't give for a normal girls night with Kyoka... There were times where we would tell each other everything, sleep in the same bed, do chubby bunnies together, as kids we even touched tounges just to see what it was like..( A/N lmao Is it just me who used to do that with my closest friend, like, out of curiosity?? Or was that just an early sign of my gayness? I dunno. If it creeps you out pretend it isn't there)  

Now I can't do any of those things with her. Every time we touch my heart beats so loudly I'm sure she can hear it, and I get so body conscious when she looks at me, always scared she'll think I'm ugly. I need her to help me as a friend, but I also know 'just friends' will never be enough for me. It hurts a lot so I'm going to try and forget about it for tonight at least.

I ran upstairs quickly to change out of  my audition outfit and into something comfier. I pulled on a grey baggy t-shirt and blue ripped jeans. (If you'd prefer something different just imagine something else, that's just what I'd wear)

Going to the kitchen I brought out 3 boxes of ice cream and sorbet. My favourite is F/F  so I filled a bowl and got some of Jirous favourite for her.  Soon, I heard a knock at the door and ran to open it.

Kyoka was climbing off of her motorcycle ( I know they're like, 15, but let's pretend because of quirk's like super intelligence they let people over 14 apply for a licence) I had to physically stop my jaw from dropping. Damn. She wore a striped, sleeveless, crop top and black shorts. Her leather jacket was slung over her shoulder and she turned to smile at me.

" Yo! Y/n! " She called, running up to me.

I wrapped my arms around her waist  and we squeezed each other like mad women.

" Come in! " I smiled.

×××  Time skip to later that night brought to you by my- OH LOOK A BIRD!  ×××

" And then, he was like , so.... where's your soul mate mark? "

" ewwww! What a perv! "

Jirou was telling me about a guy named Mineta in her class. What kind of a guy asks about someones soulmate mark?  I mean, some marks were obvious like eye switches, but Jirou's was a purple skin-mark on her thigh, like a bruise.  She showed me it when we were 5 and I showed her mine in turn. 

I looked down at that thought and tears began to well in my eyes. Soulmate marks were a tough subject for me..

" Hey...its okay.." Jirou shuffled over to hold me. She was one of the few people other than my family who knew about...the accident.

(Trigger Warning: this flashback mentions cuts and wound's on Y/Ns wrist, these are NOT self- inflicted or because of abuse, but I want to be extra careful in case anybody reading this could be triggered. If you struggled in the past or are struggling now, I just want to say I LOVE YOU!! You can get through this beautiful because YOU don't need to be perfect just be  you! In this world,love and caring about  others is good, but YOU are the person you should love the most. I'll leave an overall  of the flashback af the bottom :)

××× Flashback ×××

I was standing in my  bathroom looking  in the mirror trying, and failing, to fix my messy h/c, h/l hair. Today was the day. I glanced at the timer on my wrist. Today was the day I was going to meet my soulmate. I smiled at my reflection and-

Suddenly a white, hot pain shuddered through my wrist making my whole body contort. I screamed out loud as my vision blurred and  everything seemed red. My head snapped to look at my wrist and the sight almost made me puke. My timer for one was contorted, stretched into a permanent 00:00:00. What's more, thin red lines snaked their way over and around it, making it a mess of oozing blood and bruise.

I soon found out that this could only mean one thing, my soulmate, while I was in my bathroom, had died of some horrible gruesome death. Before we had even met. 

××× end of flashback ×××

( Basically one day the timer on your wrist goes haywire and gets stuck in a permanent 00:00:00 and messes up the skin on your wrist. This means that your soulmate is dead, before you got to me at them)

Jirou squeezes me even tighter and whispered " Fuck soulmates, people can love whoever they damn please!"

I looked at her and said " But Kyo ( your nickname for her) somewhere out here you have a beautiful, wonderful soulmate who'll treat you right and love you. They're perfect for you... so why  would you ever turn all that down?"

She hesitated, before saying " but what if.... I'm already in love with someone else...what if I don't want my life to be pre-planned before I'm even old enough to care.....Don't you ever feel like that? 

Hang on.. she had somebody out there, and she would just leave them? Why?

"That's silly Kyo, your tired and don't know what your saying. Everybody has to love their soulmate, that way nobody's lonely.." I told her, even though I  couldn't get those words out of my head.. I'm already in love with someone else.. she said.

 Eventually she put her head on my shoulder and drifted to sleep. I tried not to move and, before I fell asleep, I heard her whisper "G'night... Y

...". she pulled my hand into her's and I couldn't help but think...

This girl, this gorgeous girl...

She was so totally out of my league.

Word count: 1194 words 

EEEEEEEEEEEEKKK first chapter done! so.. what do you guys think? If your reading this right now and your enjoying it, please comment. it could be as little as an emoji just to let me know that people are reading and enjoying :)   Thanks for reading, I hope you did like, byeeeeeee 

- Inkie xxx