Viraj's pov

My heart was pounding like hell when I went to meet Mili. I never ever imagined a scene like this not even in my dreams, Mili on hospital bed. Other than machines beep sound whole room was silent. A motionless Mili which broke my heart into pieces and it was paining like thousands of thorns piercing into my heart. I am the reason for her condition right now which added more pain.

I sat beside a small chair near to her bed and stroked her hands gently which was kept on a pillow rest.

"I am sorry" that's all I said  after seeing her condition. My tears fell on her hands and I don't know how I will face her once she open her eyes. She will hate me, she will feel disgust when she looks at me or she will be afraid of me. If she looks at me with fearful eyes then I can't forgive myself for hurting her.

Hours passed  I was the one who stayed beside her as bystander. Jiyah went with Ishaan to finish some paper works. Aarav went back when an important call came and I send Arjun to take some rest. Actually I wanted to be with Mili alone. I wanted her to see my face first when she open her eyes.

Restless waiting lasted for few more hours and finally Mili opened her eyes with much difficulty. Duty nurse rubbed a piece of wet cotton pad on her eyes to avoid difficulty in opening eyes after that she went to inform doctor.

Her eyes were panicky looking all around the room without getting any clue and stopped when they reached my face. I saw her eyes dilating and she suddenly turned her face to hide her tears which hurts me more.

"Mili ....." I called her gently

"why I am here? I should be dead by this time but ...." she was ranting such lines repeatedly and I was trying to divert her attention not to think about anything stupid again.

Meanwhile doctor came to room and just like him first passed a warm smile at me and then at Mili. He checked her vitals and discussed something with duty nurse.

"nothing to worry about she is fine now. Take care of hands for some days. Don't give much strain to the injured hand until I say" giving all advices and assuring that Mili is fine he went back.

Mili wasn't neither looking at me or she showed any emotions on her face. Always staring at ceiling or spacing out through window. Duty nurses came changed IV drips and blood bottle according to its time but she was still like a lifeless soul. I was watching her all these time without saying anything and understood one thing. If I leave this girl like this then it will end up badly. She is not even in her right mind.

"Mili are you hungry? You have to take medicines" I leaned towards her and asked softly so that she won't see a monster Viraj instead a sweet husband. She shook her head and turned her face from me.

"don't say like that there are lots of medicines and"

"why you are here?" that's all she want to know now?

"if it's not me then who will be here? Who will take care of you?" I asked with a chuckle. I mean what kind of stupid question was that.
I wanted to make her feel ease even though I am not an expert in that area but I am trying.

"leave me alone. I am alright like this. I don't want anybody near to me or showing their concern" she mumbled

"Mili I know you are angry at me but I am sorry I am really sorry about what all happened yesterday. I know I was the fool there without thinking properly or considering your feelings I only thought about me, my happiness, my love and my life like a selfish man"

"Viraj stop blaming yourself for all this. "She shouted at me and then  cried after that one sentence.

"I want to sleep,  you better go back to home don't spoil your sleep for me" she was tough I never saw this Mili before. In fact this Mili was totally strange.

"Mili"

"Viraj just leave from here" she suddenly raised from bed and yelled at me but winced in pain when she put stress on her hands.

"careful ..... See this will happen if I leave you here alone and I don't want to become an ignorant husband until I am with you. I have to answer for your condition in front your family. Just thinking about that my legs are shaking. I don't know how I am going to face them" I yelled back

"then divorce me why you are keeping this burden on your shoulder for nothing. I am not going to give back your stupid love like you want. I am not going to love anyone I am not ..."she pulled out all IV needles in a rage and began to throw whatever came into her hands at me.

"Mili stop it ... what are you doing girl?" I was trying my best to stop her but she was out of control like she really loosed her sense. Jiyah and Ishaan came to  room at that same time and they were shocked after seeing Mili so violent.

Ishaan  called the duty nurse and I tried to calm her down but she was wriggling from my grips to leave her. Jiyah also came to help me and held Mili. Mili busted into tears and was crying miserably hugging to Jiyah. I was not getting the whole situation right now. It pained like hell when I saw the reality that Mili hates me that much she doesn't even want me to touch her or my presence.

Putting everything back like before doctor advised duty nurse to put her under  sedation and Mili slept after making all that commotion. Jiyah was the one who stayed with her for one night.

Whole night was sleepless. Tossing around on my bed I somehow made it till morning. While working out, during my bath many thoughts were eating me and I came to a conclusion that no matter what I am going to win her heart.

I have made a bad impression in front of Mili all this time now it has to change. She will accept not this monster Viraj but a sweet hearted husband material Viraj. I will take care of her like no one does. She might hate me first but I won't step back until her hate turns back to love for me.

"Mili just wait for me. You are going to see that Viraj you like to see"

Buying a beautiful white Lilly bouquet I was went to meet her Mili at next morning itself.
Mili was still asleep may be due to medicine otherwise she is an early bird. I put lilies in flower vase and kept them on table. Ordered her breakfast meanwhile duty nurse came with her morning medicine and went back checking her vitals.

After an hour she opened her eyes and expressions were same as yesterday. Not so pleasant after seeing my face but as I told I am not going to give up so easily this time.

All IV drip needles were already removed from her hands. So I helped her to wake up from bed even though she resisted. Helped brush her teeth, washed her face and combed her hair making a neat bun. She was frowning all the time but I ignored them with a smile because I am now used to her stubbornness. I find it cute whenever she frowned at me with that cute little puppy face.

"eat this"I kept breakfast in front of her and said. Mili turned her face from food and knitted her eyebrows annoyingly.

"okay if you don't want to take it by yourself then I will feed you. Open your mouth ahhhh" I took a spoon of porridge and kept in front of her mouth but as expected she didn't even looked at it.

"if you are queen of stubbornness then I am king of tricks" I put the spoon back to bowl and took my phone.

"hello .... "

" Good morning mom. "I saw Mili's  face expression changed when she understood I called none other than her mother.
she opened her eyes widely and  shook her head as not to tell anything to mom with her pleading eyes. I eye signed at her breakfast to have it  she quickly began to eat it.

"nothing mom , I called just like that.  How are everyone there?"

"  Here everything is fine.  Mili is .... alright "my heart clenched a little when I lied to her about Mili.

"no, nothing like that. What to say about that mom.  Mili don't need kids right now so we are not planning anything right now. Sure... Is that something to ask ?  ok then bye. Tell Dad that I asked for him " after cutting the call I looked at Mili with a wicked smile and she was again frowning at me.

I walked towards her side and began to feed her. This time there wasn't much commotion because she knows I won't joke with my warnings.

"your mom was asking for a good news? She mistaken when I called her suddenly at this morning that it might be some good news. I think they desperately want to become grandparents but so bad that they don't know anything about our relationship. " I smiled sarcastically and looked at Mili expecting a frowning face or ignorant one but she cried instead.

"Hey.... don't cry I was just joking. Mili from when you become such a sensitive girl? Mili that I know is not like this.  who always chit chat around with her giggling sound and smiling face Where is that Mili? If I am the reason for that Mili's disappearance then I am really sorry. I can do anything to get back that Mili tell me what you want me to do?" I asked with an apologetic face

"stop doing this to me. Stop taking care of me I don't deserve this Viraj I don't deserve you. It's hurting like hell when you are showing much care and concern for me. It's poking my self-respect that  I feel like I don't want to live anymore. I want to take my own life" she again started crying which was worst than before

"Mili what are you saying girl. Don't, don't ever dare to talk like that or think about such things. This is your life which you have to live no matter what happens. Ups and downs are there in everyone's life but that  downs are not  the end of everything. You have to go down in order to move upwards. If everyone decides to end their life when they face sudden fall there won't be a single human being in this world. Look at me; look at my friends we had seen almost all worst conditions in our life. There are many days we starved because we never had enough money to buy food. Many times we were sent out from class because we didn't paid our exam fees. Like what all we have seen in our life in this short  time but we never gave up. "

"what you don't have Mili? you got everything in your life from childhood itself.  a good family, loving parents who can do anything for their daughter and you have me who is not going to leave you at any condition" my voice trembled while talking to her. I can't cry in front of her because if I cry then she can't become a strong girl. Mili doesn't utter anything after that. Took her medicine like an obedient child and went back to bed.

"if you want to go office then you can, I am okay now don't worry about me" before going to bed she said.

"it's okay there isn't any important case. Arjun and Ishaan is there rest assured" I said . She closed her eyes without saying anything further and slept after few minutes.