It's funny to be told you can't have something. It makes you want it more. It's funny how losing something is more scary than waiting for it. How do I know this will work out? I don't...but I hope it will. For I could cry a thousand tears if it does not. I have never felt so intensely...

I have never feared so much the loss of someone...
They say if you love something let it go...
I can't.