To my love,
I could tell you how much I love you and how nothing can compare. Which would be so very true. I could tell you how our fights and my hard headedness is something I don't love but it doesn't matter to me as much as you do. Which again, true but I want to speak of something else. I have a fear of being left, forgotten, and hurt. I believe you won't but stubborn black thoughts due to my past do plague me. In turn your right baby when it comes to that. I want you to be aware it is not that I doubt on you nor our relationship. It's a deep fear from within that rattles me from inside out. When I detect those things there is a reason I just about lose it and cry. My mind is so choatic and trained to the negative I lack the common sense to realize things. To realize that you want to marry me one day and have a future with me. That you won't leave me in less I do the unthinkable which I will never. I could never enjoy the company of another. You see I have been unhealthy conditioned to such things.Had them happen to me which is perhaps terrible but sadly true. While those facts remain as does another topic I have issues with not seeing you. Entirely out of our control but everyday I do see you the days following without you leave me feeling a looming loneliness but I degress. I guess what I'm trying to get at is so help me God I fear losing you more than I can bare and to be without you is insanely horrible for me. Although not now but in the future I wanna marry you and never leave your side for I love you. I love you more than time shall last. May we last forever and a day. May all our dreams come true and all our plans.
With all the love,
         Your princess