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                        Hiya, it's Zoe again! 

I thought I was done, but I have more to share! I think this will be a book of life lessons that I hope I can pass on to others.

                   Alright, since my last chapter, it has been a year. You wouldn't believe how much life has changed for me. 

        This being said, I met someone this year. [Yay, starting highschool! Not really.]

Obviously, I'm not like other kids. I'm loud, weird, sad and somehow fucking shy. Dude, I'm obnoxious, how is this possible?

Anyways...

I totally have been in the slumps. My family aren't there for one another and it hurts to see it. It's been hard and I just have been used and neglected by my friends. I'm going to stay vauge, because this IS my life, y'know? 

But. I had a personal talk with someone I just met, which means a fuckton to me. This friend is one of the best things that have happened to me. But he pointed out something about needing to pick better friends. I 100% agree, honestly.

But, I have a low self-esteem, so I first thought that my friends usually being hateful and not helping me when I needed help was okay. But it's really not.

This being said, I have a little story for you guys.

I have a friend that I met in elementary.

She and I talked all the time, genuinely good girl, and a people pleaser. Let's call her Destinee.

Well, one day at recess, a girl wanted to join me and another friend.Let's call the other friend Helena, and the girl Emma. Helena and I said no, but tomorrow we can.

Well, Emma was upset. She told another girl, and at lunch, Emma told her friend. 

This friend of hers got angry at me, and I mocked her. The friend started strangling me, which I kinda was like wtf just happened. But there were teachers around and shit, doing nothing because that school hated me. [Never send anyone to Arbutus Elementary in MD.] 

Well, Destinee saw, and pulled her off me. Deadass would be dead without her, so I obviously feel like I owe her my life and shit. But, she wasn't the best friend. We would play games, and if I fucked up, she'd hit me and call me names. Destinee still was loving, had anger issues.

But after like 2 years, things changed. She hung out with these actual thots and sine she's a people pleaser, she'd join them in making fun of me and beating on me. I accepted it and continued on. 

Not until recent did I really choose to cut her off. She started doing drugs, and getting in fights. It was hard to be there for her, and have my reputation be a good rep. I at first didn't care that much because I wanted to be by her side, a sidekick for her awesome adventures. But, later on, she told people that she wasn't my friend, and that hurt. She was loving still, but she changed. Or maybe she finally showed her true colors. 

Either way, I knew I had to go. Either this pain would continue as a 1-sided friendship, or I could leave and only grieve the loss of a friend. Grief was better. It was hard to let go, but I did it.

Let me explain why I shared this. There's times where you have toxic people in your life.

Sometimes you have to let go, but it's difficult.

Trust me, leaving is worth that pain. You will find someone else who will give you love and show they care. Sometimes, it may seem people don't too, but they do. So make sure you know who to keep.

See ya!

Zoe Scott.

PS, a message for the friend I had the talk with.

Thank you, for that talk. It means alot to me. And I promise that I'll find a way to help you as much as you did. I appreciate the open ear and I hope I can be an open ear for you. I know you seem distant and cold, but I can see you have a good heart. I'm glad I met you.

Text me whenever you see this.