The feeling of emotions.
Happiness will eventually stop.
While depression/sadness will continue on, never give me a chance to move on.

I have a low self esteem.
I cant move from my safety spot.
Once i move a little and make a mistake, I'll always come back to it.

I'll never get a bright future.
I'll never will.

I give everyone happiness, smiles love and hope, is because...
All of you.
Amazing people.
Wonderful people.
Deserve it.

All of you are worthy to have it more than I do.
I deserve only insults, hate, and rotting words from your mouths.

I fucked up.
I made mistakes.
Yeah, thats me.

My mistakes are something I can't forget.
Something I'll take to the heart forever.

Im not smart and im fucking stupid as a donkey.

One of you would probably said that its not true.

Well, if you only count my kindness and all that, that will not count to me.

I just hope one day, you all will move on.
Leaving me behind.

Harsh reality.
That i must sadly accept.
But im happy though ^^
All of you can still smile and feel true happiness.

Thats what i want.

Anyway, enough of that.

I'll be okay.

^^

So a quick update.

Tests week are coming, on 3rd of December.
I don't know if I'll pass or not.
If I pass, I can keep my phone.
If i fail, my parents will take my phone for idk, years, maybe? Until I become smart.

Smart.
I dont like that word.
Its like one word that doesnt fit on me.

In this world, people need knowledge and kindness.
Or just smartness.

People dont want to have 'kind' people around, cuz people dont like it.

So yeah.
I dont think I'll survive in the world.
Probably gonna be dead soon, lel XD

anyway, i also made an art(?)

To me, its not bad?
But its shit.
Like wtf am i drawing even? Like my art is bad as shit.

Not like you guys and girls.
Your arts are perfection.

Aaand some kitty uwu

Shes at my classroom earlier, cute uwu

Like she loves me a lot.
More than anyone :')

Sad life...

Anyway that is all.
Idk if I'll pass the tests or not.
Plus, i think most people doesnt really remember me, so oof.
I guess its the perfect moment to finally leave and forgotten by everyone.

You all could forget me and all the memories we had, but its hard for me to erase it all.

Thank you, for the adventure ^^

See you all in a bit, love you all.

If you wanna leave me or hate me, then feel free to do so :3