Goodbye. yes. Goodbye.

well, maybe for a few days, or maybe a few days with me keep uploading stories without talking or sending anything, since this is a dead account, so yah.

Im sorry if i have done stupid and miserable mistakes throughout my life. I dont blame you, you have the right being mad, being pissed off, being sad, being overall heartless to me. I dont blame you guys for any of it, its all mine and I deserve the blame.

Im torn between maybe deleted wattpad and maybe make a new one, or maybe none. Or keep my wattpad here and maybe go off and never look at it anymore, since this is a dead account. Accounts like this, like over 4 or 5 years most people are gone or something. It doesnt mean i dont wanna talk with you guys, I know some wanting me to talk with you, but at the same time, im not sure if i want to or not, because i dont want to annoy you or disturb you while youre having a great time without me, which im very okay with.

People come and go anyways, so me being left all by myself is something common and once again, you guys getting mad, hate, ignore me is all good since all of that is something i deserve.

I actually dont think i wanna make a new story, or any kind. Ill just finish the rest and then be on my way where i wont disturb you guys again.

its better with me off the picture then you guys waiting for me to be there in the picture.

Sometimes, I just want to feel truly left alone.

Sometimes, the feeling of insanity is just something I deserve.

Sometimes, I just want to feel to feel what being truly bullied, tortured, hated felt like.

Sometimes, I could get hurt by all means.

Sometimes, I wish we can still hold this friendship strong, yet I know, in the back of my head, it won't, even after promises after promises.

Sometimes, I wish I can say sorry to all those I done harm. To all those I made them uncomfortable. To all those i made them cry.

So, I dont really know what to say. Im done.

Like seriously, im done with my life.

I dont really care if ill be a total loser in my future. Heck, I dont even care if i die alone or being tortured or kidnapped or anything.

I dont even know what future ill be having when i grown up.

But im happy you guys have it all. Im happy you guys smile, you guys laugh, you guys have a bright road for the world ahead, you guys have happy endings. Im happy for you guys, even if i suffered. One day, maybe one day, if the circumstances were different, I am a different kind of person, maybe itll be all different for all of you.

I just feel thankful, to spend these little short time with you guys. Even if you wont be there til the end, the memories and everything you gave to me will be something i always keep inside my heart <3

So, thank you.

For everything.

Please, take care of yourselves.