Sweet Night - V

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There's something tender and soothing about the silence of this night. There's not a speck of noise to disturb it, only the calming deep breathes from Taehyung's parted lips as he lays his head on Jungkook's chest, escaping farther and farther away to the world where there's no darkness or glimmers of sparkling horror.

It's all peaceful.

Just like how Jungkook feels, peaceful.

His fingers caresses delicate patterns against the soft skin of Taehyung's arm around his torso, sensing the way a shiver would rush down his own body whenever he would graze his fingertips to make contact once again. There's nothing specifically wondering his colorful mind, just silly thoughts of this night, where he can't seem to fall into the safe haven of a deep sleep like Taehyung.

It's ironic to think that when he first came to Seoul, he had three goal alone; pursuit his career as an artist for his brother and sister stability, be as far away from his father as possible, and not get into any trouble.

Two of those things he's done or is accomplishing as of now.

The last one being a completely failure.

His own complete failure.

His chocolate doe eyes gently looks over at Taehyung, unable to help himself from caressing the gentle locks of his hair away from his closed eyelids. The raven texture threads against his fingers so gently and soft, clinging onto his skin as though they didn't want Jungkook to stop. This seemed to have relaxed Taehyung completely because he squeezes Jungkook tighter in his sleep and moves his face slightly on his chest, letting out a soft sigh before falling back into a deep slumber.

Jungkook's lips gapped as he stares at him, feeling a strong warmness over come his body as the realization slowly settles in his mind.

He didn't know.

Jungkook didn't know he was going to meet Taehyung and feel as though the broken pieces of his heart are finally mending together. As though the shivers around his body wasn't from a cold but from the soft yet heavy sound that would ooze out of Taehyung's lips like the the softest cloud in the daylight sky that's coated with warm honey.

None of this is what Jungkook expected to meet when he went to Jimin's futbol game for the first time, to fall for the man with the snarky tongue yet curious and dark eyes that observed Jungkook careful as though he was something worth studying and taking his time on.

It was not planned for Jungkook to fall in love with his tender soul and tatted skin. With his happiness that is the living embodiment of perfection through Jungkook's eyes.

He didn't expect to love someone as much as he loves Taehyung.

As his fingers slowly trail from his hair to his cheek, gently running the pad of his fingers along the side of his jaw and cheekbones, recording his memory of everything about this moment just so when he sees Taehyung happy with another man, he can cling onto this night where he was holding him in his arms and think about how perfect it felt.

A shakily breath comes out of Jungkook's lips, closing his eyes to stop the burn it began to feel as his heart pounds harder against his chest.

What if this is not real? This feeling is just his head making up things to cover up his loneliness?

Is this all in his head?

Are they still going to be best friends after this? Even if they both know there's something clawing their souls for something more?

This moment is just too good to be true, and Jungkook knows the second he wakes up the next morning that this would've all felt like a dream.

A beautiful yet fatal dream for his tender yet fragile heart.

His strong arms tightens around Taehyung like a warm blanket, almost as though he was afraid he was going to disappear at any second if he didn't, letting the tears glide down his cheeks freely.

He knew their world together wouldn't work as something more. Taehyung doesn't want something beyond with Jungkook, he always shuts himself out when that topic came to light one night. To say Jungkook was hurt would be an overstatement because at that time he didn't realize his feelings for the other.

Now with the acknowledgment of the way he finds peace with just Taehyung gently breathing heavily over his body, holding him as though he was his angel to protect him from the darkness of his memories, and finds happiness just by seeing a bright boxy smile on Taehyung's lips of pure joy, he knew.

Jungkook knew just how deep he fell in love with Taehyung....... And he can't seem to find the button to make it stop.

Or maybe he just doesn't want to find it.

Falling in love feels like falling into an ocean without a mask. You're falling in deeper as the surface of where you once was fades away before your eyes. You can't breathe but you somehow don't mind it because you love the feeling of lingering into the depths of these waters a little longer. Where the scenery of the ocean looks so beautiful yet unpredictable.

Falling in love is like dying.

However, falling in love is like being on a cloud. The weight of your body feels effortless as the sun caresses you're skin in goosebumps, filling your heart and soul with the hope that maybe you deserve to feel like this; complete happiness for another day, for the life ahead before your eyes as the path to the light seems oh so clear.

Falling in love is like being alive.

There's no limit how ones love can go, and Jungkook finds himself unable to put a limit to his love for Taehyung.

He loves feeling the explosive goosebumps on his skin, the fluttering of his stomach and the electric shock manipulating every cell his body when Taehyung does just about anything. He loves feeling as though he's effortless yet drowning, where he feels the most happiest because he's right beside Taehyung

So now as he hugs onto him, holding onto the cause of his accelerating heart beat and rush of his pulses, just for a moment longer to embrace how it eased every part of his body.

Falling in love like being at peace.

Where the other person becomes your source of relaxation to your mind, body, and soul. Just a soft touch, a fragile word, a simple gesture, is all there's to it. They can breathe calmly like how Taehyung is right now as he lays his head on Jungkook's chest, and that alone filled Jungkook with peace. Just knowing that he exists id enough for Jungkook to feel at peace.

There's so much love in his heart that he promised himself to never feel for another human being, yet Taehyung single handedly tore that up completely before Jungkook had noticed he's already reached the shore. Taehyung was his new chapter, still is, and will continue to be for his future.

By now Jungkook is not willing to let him go because he knows the second he does, his heart would be completely shattered into nothing with the grasp of hope escaping his fingertips.

And that's when love with feels like dying.

That's why he's okay with what they have now, just as long as he doesn't leave him.

More tears glistened out of Jungkook's eyes until he found himself holding back his sobs, biting down his bottom lip forcefully to stop from making any noises.

He loves him so much..... That it hurts so bad.

Yet he can't do anything about it now, just to always be by Taehyung's side no matter in what type of way it is.

As long as he's beside him, that will never fail to make him truly happy.

So Jungkook wipes his tears away with his other hand, takes a few deep breathes before turning his body to hug Taehyung closer to him like a shield. Instinctively the other curls up to him and nuzzles his face on his neck, pressing a soft peck in the midst of his sleep on Jungkook's collarbone that sent Jungkook into a heated storm of multiple shivers.

Even by doing small gestures such as a simple kiss on his skin in his sleep still manages to fill Jungkook with these flutters in his stomach, unable to stop the happiness and tranquility to ease over his body like a storm.

He loves feeling like this.

To feel complete, even if he's not suppose to.

And he's going to linger onto it, until the day tears it away from his hands.

While pressing a delicate kiss on Taehyung's head, he closes his eyes and murmurs quietly the secret through his lips.

"I'm so in love with you Kim Taehyung."

Saying the words out loud felt as relieving as holding the love of his life in his arms, sounding just as perfect as it escaped out to the open.

Even if Taehyung is sleeping and wouldn't hear this, it still felt real. His emotions felt real.

This isn't isn't in his head.... And he the feeling that came with that small confession.

His body relaxed completely, sleep finding its way back into his body and this time not being afraid to close his eyes for another day.

However, he wasn't sure if this was in his dream or if it was actually true, but just as he was in the midst of being deeply into his sleeping state, he heard the words loud and clear against his ear, almost like a hushed secret.

"If this is how love feels like, than I think I'm in love with you, Jeon Jungkook."

But it might've been just in his dream.

After all, him and Taehyung were just ships in the night.

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A/N:
The way I had this whole chapter planned for weeks...... Since I began writing this book actually. As a matter of fact, this is the first scene I thought of for this book. Right here, this moment, where Jungkook recalls his feelings

Sweet Night inspired this chapter a lot, and it's just very touching. This chapter alone has to be my favorite, just by how sensitive yet touching it is. Like even for one who hasn't experienced love it feels as though you know. This chapter is so beautiful and I can't fathom enough how happy I am to finally have written it after so long.

Ahhh I'm getting sentimental, this was just so.... Ahhh.

I PURPLE YOU!<3