Broken - Isak Danielson

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Yeosang could hear the choked gasp that escaped Jimin's lips when Joshua said those cruel word, and it nearly blinded him with rage.

So blind.

Shit, he's literally seeing red.

"W-Why are you with me Joshua?" Jimin squeaks weakly, "W-Why? You always tell me this and I feel like I'm losing myself. I'm not happy!"

"The self that use to fuck different guys every night. Go fucking ahead than, I'm not stopping you. You know what, let me call Taeyong for you. I'm pretty sure he would speed right over here just for your ass."

"Joshua stop it!" Jimin pleads desperately, "I just want to be with you. No one else. Look I even stopped talking to Jungkook-"

"Yeah, who knows when I'm not around if you're fucking with him too. Probably behind my back. That sad, so disappointed in you Jimin."

Jungkook.....

He did not just drag Jimin by using Jungkook.

No.

No.

He mentioned his brother....

"I have never fucked Jungkook-

"Why are you lying to me!" Joshua sneers back, "I see the way you look at him! Maybe I shouldn't even be here to give you two some privacy."

Triggers....

Too familiar.

"J-Jungkook is just my roommate, please stop bringing him into this!"

"You know what? Perhaps even his brother? Maybe that's why you've been so clingy with me lately. You fucked his brother, didn't you? Like those times you hanged up just to supposedly take care of him while he was going through something. It was probably to fuck him. Maybe even suck his dick since you're just too good at that. That's fucking sick. He's probably like sixteen! Pedophilia looks rather ugly on record, don't you think?"

Yeosang had to move away from the door before he kicks it down. His fist met his teeth just so he can hold back the need to kill this man at this moment.

However he kept everything printed like a record player in his head.

A perfect record player.

To remember everything.

"I'm trying to hard for our relationship Joshua," Jimin whimpers hopelessly now, "When is this going to end? Why can't you just trust me!"

"You? Out of all people? I know damn well when I leave here you will just talk with your side dick until I call you!"

"But I am loyal to you! I would never cheat while being in a relationship-"

Suddenly a phone rings, that followed with Jimin's attempt to hold back his frustrated sobs from this argument.

Even Yeosang was trying not to scream himself by how fucking angry he is.

"Yeah, okay, bye," Joshua mutters lowly with a sigh, "I have to go, my roommate needs me to help with his homework."

"You know I love you, right?" Jimin hiccups, that only followed by the sound of a kiss.

Yeosang left the side of the door, sitting on the couch much more angry now.

His blood was already pumping from the fight that Taehyung and Jungkook had, now this definitely was a fucking bonus.

That adrenaline rush cruised him like a disease in his body, making his hands nearly ache in pain by how he has this need to strangle the living shit out of this man.

That familiar rage was the same rage he always felt whenever he would always overhear his parents fighting, and even thought Yeosang doesn't like his mother, he would hold himself back from laying hands on his father for speaking that way to her.

One time he didn't hold back, and he ended o unconscious for a week because of his father's fist.

He's always noticed the signs, and he's definitely not going to turn a blind eye to it.

Why exactly is he this mad though?

Him and Jimin aren't even close. Let alone do they talk to each other for him to feel this angry.

But that's just the thing, it's too familiar.

Even if Yeosang is away from home, he's still haunted by it.

Jungkook and Taehyung's physical fight, Joshua and Jimin's emotionally abusive fight, and Yeosang having to be the one to listen to it all with lips closed.

Even if he's away, he's still home.

It's still present.

Jimin in this case is the collateral damage. He's the person who shouldn't even be involved with such a psychopathic pattern. He's too genuine and naive to the world around him.

He's too good, and that says a lot because Yeosang lost hope for good people.

However, Yeosang can't disregard how Jimin literally risked a whole fight with Joshua just to take care of him. He didn't know how to, and he did it in the shadows where he thought no one would notice, but of course Yeosang did.

He has not ulterior motives, he doesn't get involved to conflict, but he's somehow always dragged into it.

How unfortunate for him.

Through those dark moments of Yeosang overcoming his withdrawals, he saw a lot from Jimin.

There he saw Jimin's heart.

And it's not meant to be going through some bullshit from a trust issues maniac.

The door to Jimin's door opens and comes out both Joshua and Jimin, looking rather normal with their smiles as usual but Yeosang was not decieved anymore.

He wasn't deceived in the beginning but now.... He most definitely will not.

Joshua looks at Yeosang and had the audacity to smile at him, "See ya kid."

Oh but Yeosang smiled back, a sadistic smile, "See you very soon."

Very soon indeed.

He could see Jimin's smile twitching as he walks his boyfriend to the door and opens it to say goodbye. Joshua only gives him a peck on the lips before walking away, making Jimin shut the door behind him.

It was silent for a moment and he didn't move, not until he took a few deep breath and was just about to walk back to his room when Yeosang abruptly stood up, "Jimin."

The other male tenses up to the sound of his name but slowly turns around, an expressionless look on his face but Yeosang could see the faint swollen red color by the corner of his eyes.

He was crying.

"Break up with Joshua."

If there's something one should know about him, it's that Yeosang doesn't do sugarcoating.

He likes getting straight to the point and this is one of those cases.

Jimin's face completely twists in confusion, arms crossed over his chest, "And who are you to tell me what to do?"

By now Yeosang is walking towards him, a narrow look in his eyes, "Someone who isn't easily decieved. He doesn't treat you right."

This evidently made Jimin panic.

"Yes he does!" Jimin stood his ground, "H-He just gets mad a few times and he has every right to be. He doesn't like the thought that I use to be in past relationships-"

Yeosang was not about to hear this.

"Ah stop it," He cringes, making Jimin shut up, "I don't care about your past relationships, let alone do I care with who you messed around with! That's just irrelevant information to me and personal information to you. He uses that against you when it shouldn't even matter. What matters is who you are now, not who you were in the past."

The air felt tense between the two that felt as though a hand was gripping to both of their throats, refusing to let them breath properly. Yeosang's words alone felt like a knife cutting through the thickness, piercing through ever nerve in Jimin's heart to shatter his wall brick by brick.

And before he knew it..... He couldn't hide anymore.

Someone sees him.

That broke him.

Yeosang knew that broke through his tough wall.

He knew the second Jimin's body began to shake under his stare and tears were threatening to ease out of his eyes uncontrollably. Broken would be an understatment to how he appears to be right now.

He's completely shattered like tiny broken diamonds, close to being nothing but crumbles of ashes.

So Yeosang softens his approach towards him, "You don't have to suffer like this Jimin," He whispers, slowly placing a hand on his shoulder, "He's never going to change... If he started off like this, you honestly believe he's going to be someone you deserve in the future?"

A small sniff Jimin manages to let out, almost as though he's holding himself back, "I-I deserve this," He whispers lowly, avoiding Yeosang's eyes, let alone moving away from his touch from his rising panic, "I am a whore. I am easy, aren't I? No one will ever respect me and I-I.... I can't h-handle this..... I can't.... DO THIS ANYMORE!"

And his body suddenly drops, in which Yeosang caught in his arms. Jimin completely breaks apart, that glass shattering to pieces. He sobs loudly against his chest, clutching to his worn out hoodie as he practically screeches out his pain from deep inside his chest.

Yeosang isn't good with comforting people. Let alone being around people crying. For some reason though, seeing Jimin like this just tore so much of his heart apart more than he ever could imagine.

This is all of Jimin's pain that he's been holding in all this time.

When he used to suffer alone.

Yeosang's vision began to blur, recalling seeing his mother on her knees, screaming and sobbing the same way after his father was finished with slicing his tongue through her soul with torturous words.

She was alone.

Jungkook and Lisa never saw her like this.

Yeosang always did.

"I-I can't take this anymore!" Jimin sobs painfully, "I feel so h-hopless. I can't even see my future ahead anymore. I-I just want to stop existing already! I want this pain to stop because it hurts! His words are like knives in my head and it doesn't.... It doesn't stop!"

Hearing this out in the open felt like a new knife is being stabbed to Yeosang's chest, every stab much more painful than the previous one. No amount of beatings that he ever experienced would ever match to how painful this feels. To hear how someone has been emotionally abused this whole time, someone who took care of him and would always mask a smile to hide his pain as though acting as everything is okay while standing next to his abuser, fucking hurts.

What's worse is being right.

Yeosang knew Joshua was not to be trusted, yet no one noticed except for him. Someone who barely knows Jimin properly while Jungkook and Taehyung knew him longer.

How fucking pathetic.

Jungkook should've known better.

He experienced this, he should've known.

He should've pressed harder.

He should've seen through Jimin.

With the thought he only rolls his eyes to Jungkook and Taehyung's imagine in his head before wrapping his arms around Jimin's shaking body, bringing a hand to his cheek to caress his skin in comfort. Whenever Yeosang would feel upset or in pain, Lisa would always caress his face and it would always calm him down. Taehyung did that when he was having a nightmare episode, and it felt nice.

Hopefully it felt nice for Jimin too.

"I just want peace," Jimin wheezes, hiccuping a low sob, "B-But I would never hurt myself. I-I can't, but if something happens to me than I will be so grateful..... Because then I won't have to deal feeling like this! As if I'm gone, then everyone would be happy. They won't have to deal with me because I-I'm gone. This feeling sucks!"

Yeosang only squeezes his eyes shut, rubbing his other hand against Jimin's spine to calm him down, even though nothing will be able to calm down the deep wound in his heart. Not instantly at least.

Yet now it has became a small task in Yeosang's head to change that. Slowly, but he will help Jimin through this.

No one must ever have to carry this pain alone, ever.

But suddenly Jimin slowly parts away from Yeosang's arms, scrambling back with hands wiping away his tears viciously, now filling them with terror of panic, "I-I shouldn't have leaned onto you. Oh no, I am a a f-fucking whore as he said-"

"Jimin," Yeosang says calmly, trying to keep him steady to the point, "Why don't you break up with him?"

Jimin shakes his head, squeezing his eyes almost in complete fear to the question, "I c-can't."

"Why?"

He lets out a weak breath and shakes his head again, "H-He threatens me... A lot... T-To tell my parents all these horrible things about me. Telling them about what I supposedly done with other guys but never done. H-He said he would do it, and he nearly did in front of my face and I-I was so scared. My p-parents would h-hate me and I-"

He's crying again and when Yeosang tried to touch him, he would back away, "Please don't touch me.... I just c-can't handle it."

Now he's traumatized being touched.... Afraid it would only prove Joshua's point right in his head.

He thinks so low of him that got Jimin thinking low of himself as well.

Who knows the horrible things that are running through Jimin's head now as he speaks to him, let alone recall the moment he collapsed in his arms.

That alone.... Is a tormenting nightmare.

And Yeosang was done listening.

So he only looks at Jimin with a dead look in his eyes, "If he calls you, don't answer."

Jimin's lips parted in protest, "B-But if I don't, than he will think I'm-"

Yeosang is already walking to the door, putting his shoes on, "Tell Jungkook I'm out. Remember what I said, don't answer the phone."

And he slammed the door shut behind him,

Leaving his phone behind and a shaking Jimin as he tries not to let those evil thoughts stab his head.

Right when his phone rings.

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A/N:

I did it.....

I did it!

I wrote it!

Uh..... It was very difficult to write this but.... I feel like sometimes writing it out usually helps... The healing process more.

I know this is a Taekook fic, but I personally connect a lot with this situation with Jimin and I believe it's very important to understand and be aware of the situation he's going through as well because it's also just so very impacting and I believe it's something that should also be voiced out as well, so I apologize if I sometimes don't have chapters with Taekook being in it.

As you all might've noticed now from my other stories, I like to shed some light on most characters too. I believe there's just so much everyone can learn when looking at things from different perspectives.

As Jimin's situation, there's people who may never notice the signs like Taehyung, who just saw it as him being distant, or Jungkook who was concerned but went along with what Jimin portrayed. Lastly like Yeosang, who do notice and actually approaches the issue.

As someone who went something almost similar to this, this is very real and it's very hard to overcome what Jimin did. I spent a lot time not wanting any physical contact from anyone without being paranoid or having sudden panic attacks.

It was very difficult, but within time it does heal.

I really love this story like I love my other stories. Although some topics may be triggering for me to write, I will continue to write. I love writing so much and I think these are important issues that must be recognized that do happen in the dark.

Thank you all so much for being so supportive to me and loving this story so much!

Apart from my lovelies, you're my healers <3

I PURPLE YOU!! <33