Untitled 2014 - G Dragon

Warning: Some of you guys who came specifically for a Taekook Romance - despite reading the disclaimer - will not be fond of this chapter. I will remind you, this is not just a ship story, please see this story as something more than just *Taekook* Thank you.

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Jungkook huffs as he walks out of the office, feeling a sense of slightly relief yet annoyance from that conversation alone. He's more so on the calm side since he's not dead, but slightly annoyed that he has to look after little gem as if he's his son.

Then again, he would much rather take that role than their actual father.

Little Gem can't be here, Iodine is right. He will only end up dead.

Jungkook just knows that Gem will be a hassle.

He won't listen, let alone even respect Jungkook, so it's going to be a long process.

Just as Jungkook walked out and closed the door to the office while shrugging the thought aside, he sees Woosung leaning against the wall beside it. When the elder heard the door close he perks his head up, letting his eyes look over at him worriedly.

"Anything bad?"

Jungkook found some sort of relief upon realizing that the other stayed just as he said he would, and he shakes his head, "No, just to take Gem with me for a while until things calm down here."

Woosung nods to this, understand as to why he has to go and stands in front of him, "Can I go with you to see him? I want to make sure that he's okay."

Oh how Jungkook would want nothing more than anything to just drag Woosung anywhere he goes with him, just to not be separated from him again. However he then remembers someone specifically in his mind and he twitches a frown.

At the moment Jungkook can't afford anymore fights or confrontation or explanations more than he's already carrying right now.

So he shakes his head with a slight sigh, "I brought Taehyung with me and he doesn't really know anything about what happened between us, let alone does he tolerate you."

And that's when Jungkook saw it, that twitch of irritation behind Woosung's eyes. The other is very calm most of the time so to see that slight emotion wave over his orbs is a bit surprising.

Woosung very evidently rolls his eyes, "I want to see little gem, not get into a fight-"

"Look just trust me on this okay," Jungkook pleads, growing stressed now, "The last thing I want to be around is more tension and having to explain more things to Taehyung, especially as I try to handle things with Gem. Just.... Trust me."

Woosung didn't say anything, only studied Jungkook's face before his own slightly hardens, especially when he glanced down to his neck, "Is he your boyfriend?"

Why would he suddenly ask that?

Instantly Jungkook scrunches his face and shakes his head, "No! We're just pretty close that's all."

"That hickey sure marks the spot to that sentence," Woosung slightly scoffs sarcastically, slightly catching Jungkook off guard to the sour tone in his voice.

Is he mad?

Why would he even be mad?

The fuck?

Jungkook was just about to snap something back when Woosung suddenly closes his eyes, shakes his head for a moment to calm himself down before masking a small smile, "I didn't mean to sound-..... Nevermind..... I'm glad you've moved on. You should be happy."

WHY THE FUCK DOES HE ALWAYS DO THIS!

He always brushes his feelings aside as if they're nothing! He can't just hide them forever!

He's walking away now and Jungkook instantly got fed up with this.

So he grabs his arm and yanks him back towards him, "Stop doing that!"

Woosung's face tenses up with slight narrowed eyes now, "Doing what?"

"That!" Jungkook exasperates, letting him go aggressively, "You always try to make yourself seem as though everything is fine, that this is actually how you feel when it's not! Just tell me what the fuck is on your mind already and stop being so careful with me!"

"I can't!" Woosung retorts back, "Not when I'm in a relationship. What I'm feeling right now is not acceptable and I can't just -"

"YOU OWE IT TO ME!"

It got silent, very silent.

For a moment Woosung refuses to say anything. He didn't want his feelings or his thoughts to get in the way at all, but after see the pleading look in Jungkook's eyes he knew this is the least he can do for him.

So he breaks a weak smile.

"It bothers me to see that mark on you," He breathes out in such a fragile tone, almost as if he's walking on thin glass, "Something so hypocritical of me to say since I have a girlfriend, that's why I didn't want to say anything. I'm happy for you. I'm happy you're moving on where you are now, but it hurts not being the one to make you happy, okay? It's not a big deal and it's stupid."

Now there's tears in his eyes, only making Jungkook feel completely shattered to the weak sight before his eyes, but Woosung only wipes them away with his still small smile, trying so hard to seem like everything is okay, "Please just... We're done, I shouldn't be feeling this way so please just don't listen to me."

There's so much vulnerability within this moment itself. When the two broke up it all just happened so fast. It seemed like it was the perfect thing to do at that moment, but now this is speaking out of emotions.

Now they feel this break up, and it fucking sucks.

Even though he shouldn't, Jungkook couldn't fight against himself from raising a hand and wiping a tear away from Woosung's cheek, not helping himself from needing to explain more to him, "We're just fuck buddies, nothing serious than that. I don't want anything right now after what we had."

And that's not what Woosung wanted to hear.

"Please stop making it seem as though I'm restraining you from pursuing things like these," Woosung whispers with a slight strain in his voice, "You don't have to reassure me of anything, we aren't anything."

Well.... That's true.

"I'm just telling you-"

"Why?" Woosung huffs, his eyes growing more filled with tears, "Nothing will stay like that forever. We started off like that too. We fucked around and then you became my everything! At one point through this little game between you two will result with either you or him falling deep into it.... And I don't want what we had to be an anchor to stop you from pursuing your happiness if he makes you happy. I don't want to stop yourself from feeling anything for someone else because of me."

Jungkook bites hard to his bottom lip to prevent it from quivering, his heart swelling so hard in his chest, "You think just moving on is easy? You think I don't miss what we had? You think I don't miss being able to go on motorcycle rides with you until the sun rises up or to lay at the roof top with you to watch the stars? Let alone do I miss just being around you? Woosung, you are my first love..... I can't just move on like how you did!"

Now that was a very fatal slap.

Wrong words, definitely wrong choice of words.

Woosung pursed his lips and moved his face away from Jungkook's hand, avoiding his eyes now, "You think it's been easy for me? I loved everything that we had together..... Fuck, Jungkook I gave you my literal heart! You held it at the palm of your hand and I wasn't afraid of you breaking it because I trusted you to keep it safe. I am trying to move on and my girlfriend knows I am and she knows I'm not using her to get over you because I'm not that type of person. You told me to let us go, so why haven't you?"

Jungkook has had enough.

And he finally breaks that wall of his emotions being restrained, "Because I don't want to love anyone like how I love you! I don't want to Woosung... I don't want to!"

It was as though the tough barrier between the two completely shatters down. That façade that everything is fine and that they were okay being friends when in reality.... This is hurting them more than it should. They've been together for five years as a couple, and a love like theirs was stable and unique and special to them.

Maybe because they were so young or because it was very genuine, but it's not easy moving on from it no matter how much time passes.

They know this, they experienced it, and it's so hard.

Woosung gulps the knot in his throat and tries to calm himself down, taking a few steps back away from him, "Jungkook please.... W-We can't d-do this."

Please don't leave me....

Out of complete heartbreak and devastation, Jungkook's legs finally gave out so he's on his knees, pouring all of his emotions out through his tears, "I-It hurts okay! Y-You were my everything from one moment and than the other you're not!" He exclaims with his whole chest, making Woosung cover his eyes to hold back his own tears, "I was your Bambi.... I was yours alone! You were my Woosung, not Sammy but Woosung! It hurts in my chest having to wake up every fucking morning and to see you not there with me. It hurts like hell not seeing a message from you and it fucking hurts seeing that you have moved onto someone else! I'm tired! I'm tired of feeling so alone without you!"

Suddenly Jungkook latches his arms around Woosung's torso, burying his face against his abdomen as he shakes heavily from the uncontrollable sobs, "Come b-back to me! Please don't l-leave my side a-again. I will come to Busan every weekend! I will take online classes! I will not sell drugs anymore! I won't get into any fights! I will cook for you every day! I will help your family with any financial needs once I get a job!I will do anything for you! Anything just please don't leave me!"

Never in Jungkook's life has he been this desperate for anyone to be in his life. He didn't realize how much the breakup had affected him until now, and at this point he doesn't care if he sounds like a whiny little bitch.

He misses him so much.

It's so hard being apart from him.

So hard.

He's tired of feeling so damn broken!

Woosung quietly weeps with hands on his face, feeling his heart shatter to the younger's desperate begging for him. If it was a few months back, he would accepted this without a problem. He would tell Jungkook to run away with him and for the two to start their own lives together somewhere far from here, from this place. They can go anywhere or be anywhere.

Now..... Now things are different.

He's in a relationship now, and as much as Jungkook would do all of this to be with him, he knows that it's not the right thing do to.

Jungkook had so much ahead for him, so much that he can't just give it up for him.

So Woosung slowly goes to his knees in front of him as well, taking Jungkook's teary and bruised face in his hands and wipes his tears away with his fingers, "I love you..... So much Bambi," Woosung whispers shakily, making Jungkook only squeeze his eyes shut to let more tears run down his cheeks, "But I don't want you to change anything for me. You're not thinking well with everything going on right now. You left here with a purpose, to start a new life for you and your siblings. We broke up for this purpose alone so you wouldn't have anything holding you back from pursuing it.... Please don't make this so hard."

It's already hard as it is.

It's true what they say, for someone you love one would go through great lengths to be with them.

They feel that with each other, but it can't happen.... This is not like a regular love story where they'll make it work. They won't.

Yet Jungkook can't handle this pain.

A weak wheeze stumbles out of his lips as he leans his face to Woosung's chest, "I feel alone. I'm all alone and..... I don't want to be away from you."

Now it was Woosung who had to squeeze his eyes shut, running a hand through the other's raven hair, "Me neither but you know... You know we have to. I'm still tied here, my family is still tied here and I can't leave them behind. You deserve better than someone like me, someone better who couldn't afford money for college with no future at all, let alone enough money to keep myself stable. You're going to big places but I am not. I will be only dragging you down back here and I don't want that for you Bambi, I can't do that to you."

Jungkook sniffles to those words as he hugs tightly to Woosung's waist, "I wish things could've turned out different.... I wish you would come back with me," He whimpers, slowly moving his head up from his chest to stares into Woosung's eyes, "In another life.... Would you come back to me again? This time stay with me forever?"

Now this made Woosung's lips quiver with a weak sob escaping his lips, caressing the side of Jungkook's face, "Without a doubt, and I will never leave your side in that life. God, I love you so much," And he wraps his arms around his neck tightly, closing the distance between them in this emotional endless embrace.

Jungkook only cries out lowly to the familiar sparks in his stomach of holding his ex lover like this, squeezing him tight to his chest as if he would fade away in thin air, "I love you with every part of my soul, that won't ever change."

They both know he means it.

If in the future he does happen to fall in love again, that won't ever mean he will not love Woosung. Maybe by then it will be a more respectable love of a distant friend, but as for now it's still going to be hard moving on.

Though it doesn't mean he won't at some point in life.

And so they stayed like this, holding each other in this peaceful silence since they know this will be their final goodbye to this chapter in their lives. Their path is meant to be divided by fate, now they will have to see each other go onto different lives. From here on they know their paths might merge at a few times but it's never be meant to interlace together again.

Their love was to pure and raw for this world, now it's time to move on from it.

For good.

Even though it feels like they're dying inside.

"Now," Woosung whispers as he rubs Jungkook's back tenderly, "Go back there and do amazing things. Don't be afraid to love, embrace it. You deserve to be happy and for someone to make you happy.... Even if it means I'm not the cause of it."

Jungkook's lips wobbles childishly as he takes in his soft scent, letting it give him a nudge to lie perfectly through his words, "I'll be happy for you too. I wish you the best in your relationship and I hope it only continues to grow into something g-good.... I'm always here for you, even if it's not in that sense anymore. Before anything we were friends, I will always be your friend."

He didn't lie for the last part. If there's anything he's sure of, being by Woosung side someway some how will always be something he will sure be. Even just as friends.

And this was the closure they needed to be able to move forward.

Reluctantly they pulled away and lean their foreheads together like how the use to always do when they or the other felt sentimental, and they both feel like this now. They stayed like that for a moment with eyes closed, savoring their last moments together before they have to let go of their beautiful past romance officially.

No one can possibly understand how hard this is for them. Letting go of your first love feels like dying, because you have no choice but to see someone that was your everything moving on and expected for you to do the same. It hurts how someone that was your everything becomes your nothing.

That's what makes this moment more scary, to end up as their nothing, yet they know that this is for their best. For both of them.

So Woosung was the first to speak from the silence, "Take Taehyung somewhere out at noon. I want to see Little Gem before he leaves."

That will be a difficult task to do, but Jungkook will find a way somehow to get Taehyung out for a while but he will try.

After all, Woosung always was like a brother figure for little gem too.

"Okay," Jungkook whispers, letting out a heavy breath, "I love you Woosung."

"I love you Jungkook, my little star."

And so they slowly let each other go, giving one another a final longing look before Woosung gets to his feet and walks away.

Not turning back around because he knows if he did, he wouldn't be able to leave.

And Jungkook let's him go, not chasing after him anymore.

They knew their story together has came to it's end and now they're left to keeping moving on, without each chapter filling with their precious moments anymore.

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A/N:

Uh.....

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Do I have any words? Nope.... Am I sad, yes.

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I think I'm just in too much shock myself to what I wrote that I don't even have words.....

Like I vividly imagined this whole scene........ Did I cry? Perhaps I did.... Very much so...

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Alright well.... Time to go cry a little more so yeah...

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