My love - Sia

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The warm mug is placed on his cold fingertips, dead eyes staring at the tea as the pieces of his heart tries in some way to stitch itself together.

But it's not that easy.

Yeosang can't..... Be fixed with just a tea mug and a few words of encouragement.

His friend- No, his brother- just passed away.

And not even because of a natural death in his sleep.

But because he was murdered by Segas.

There's many things running through Yeosang's head right now, and one of them being guilt.

So much guilt.

He should've told Jungkook that Taehyung is a Segas, that the tattoos are just now patched up from the eyes of others by more designs. He should've kept his guard up and warned Woosung to be careful to how Segas are easing in into their territory.

Now Woosung is dead.

And Jungkook is left heartbroken, so is Lisa and everyone here.

All the things Yeosang could've done to avoid this if only he didn't have hope that perhaps Taehyung wanted to be a changed man, the reason being he is not here and is in school, to start a new life.

But no. Yeosang can't see that image anymore.

All he sees is Taehyung making a deal with his father to turn him and Jungkook in, just for stability and money. All he sees is men with the same tattoos as him killing his best friend.

All he sees is blood and betrayal.

He shouldn't have trusted him, and Yeosang regrets ever getting comfortable around him because that just lowered his walls down to become vulnerable.

"Drink please," Jimin whispers comfortingly beside him, gently rubbing his back with a heavy frown, "Just a little-"

Yeosang can't take it anymore.

He shoots up to his feet and flings the mug against the wall, letting it shatter to pieces.

He doesn't deserve the kindness from anyone, and he refuses to take it.

"Yeosang!" Jimin shrieks, getting time his feet as well, "You can't just do that!"

His words didn't process through Yeosang's mind quick enough, only clouded with nothing but a surging rage of guilt and this need to be alone.

That's what he needs.

So without another word he just approaches the mattress on the floor of Lisa's apartment, who's currently on the search for their dear brother, and has every intention on blocking out the world from his surroundings.

"Just leave me alone Jimin," He says quickly, running his fingers through his hair, "There's just so much..... I don't want to explode on you."

He can't risk the only person he cares about besides his family to hate him. To be in the other side of his rage.

It will completely destroy him if he hurts Jimin just because he was angry.

Nothing more was said, and Yeosang actually began to believe that Jimin did as he was told to do, but then he feels a tender hand in his back and this had Yeosang shaking viciously.

Please Jimin......

"Then do it," Jimin says quickly, slowly moving his way to stand in front of him but Yeosang's eyes still refused to look at him, "Do whatever you want. I'm still be right here for you."

Yeosang is panting now, the weight piling more and more on his chest and he can't seem to control it anymore!

Repeatedly a knife is stabbing his chest, and repeatedly he feels the weight of the world fall heavier on his shoulders.

This is his fault, he should've seen this coming.

He should've not been so damn soft!

"M-My brother is dead," Yeosang croak out in a mellow dark tone, the tears glistening his brown eyes in complete heartbreak, "Jungkook is destroyed. I don't even know what the fuck to believe about Taehyung and everything is just..... I feel like it's my f-fault."

When Jimin tried to step closer and give him a warm hug, Yeosang only steps back with a shake of his head, "I saw the signs Jimin. I knew I shouldn't have trusted him! Even his brother warned me and I didn't listen! I didn't listen to myself a-and now my father knows where w-we live and he's going to hurt me again," He's crying now, his body shaking in a way Jimin has never seen before, "He's going to drag us back there and beat us and Woosung won't be there anymore to save us! Like how he always use to do..... I-I'm so scared Jimin, I-I can't-"

Jimin didn't care how badly Yeosang was fight back to not have him close, he pushes his hands away and yanks him in his embrace, keeping his arms firmly around his neck so he wouldn't escape so easily.

Yeosang tried to peel his arms off of him, but gave up with a defeated cry. His trembling hands scrunches up Jimin's shirt in his agony, pulling him closer to his body as he cries against his shoulder.

This brings them back to the many times Jimin would be like this, and Yeosang was there to ease down his anxiety and pain.

Now Jimin is going to do the same for him.

"I will never let him come near you," Jimin says firmly, despite his voice quivering, "I may not be as strong as you and Jungkook are, but trust me when I say that I will do anything to protect you. This whole mess is not your fault, you had no telling what was going to come for the future, so don't blame yourself for it. This is hard and you have every right to feel the way you do, but don't be afraid. I'm right here to catch you, always."

His words someway comfort Yeosang on so many levels that he didn't know he had. Something about Jimin's assuring tone yet with the quiver of worry for his state calmed Yeosang down just like how he use to always relax him; just by listening to his voice.

It's funny really, how the world sees Yeosang as their little gem, but for Yeosang, Jimin is his little gem.

His precious little gem, who's he's growing this massive need to protect and love with all of his heart.

No one will ever treat Jimin the way Yeosang wants and will treat him, and he will make sure that once he recovers from this that he will dedicate his time to treasure these moments he has with Jimin.

To make him feel just as he deserves to feel.

So Yeosang lets out a heavy breath, letting his whole weight drop onto Jimin, nodding slowly, "Thank you Minnie."

Just as he was about to pull away, he noticed Jimin's arms squeeze tighter around his neck and his body began to tremble, following with a soft sniffle.

Is he crying?

Yeosang furrows his eyebrows and holds onto him again, "Jimin..... Are you okay?"

The other didn't say anything at first, only lets out a heavy breath that sounded like a whimper.

"I-I just missed your voice."

That's when it truly hit Yeosang that this is the first time in so long that he has spoken to Jimin, let alone hold him like this.

Oh poor baby.....

He never thought how Jimin could be affected by all of this too. He never met Woosung personally, but Yeosang would talk about him all the time and Jimin would be present whenever they would talk on the phone but would give them their privacy by doing something else.

Yeosang always had a bright smile when talking to him.

Now seeing Yeosang Jungkook so low, losing a spark in their lives that always motivated him to keep going is just so heartbreaking for Jimin since he just wants them to be happy. He's not in this world that Yeosang is sucked into, yet he tries so hard to keep himself as a steady anchor for Yeosang and Jungkook since they both need it right now.

Now, he's so relieved he got to hear Yeosang's voice again, let alone feel him close.

That just brought Yeosang back to realize how valuable life is with people we care about. To cherish them while they're still here.

Jimin is still here.

He still has his family and that's all that should make sense right now, even if everything else feels so heavy.

Yeosang lets a few of his tears escape his eyelids and gently held Jimin closer, pressing a kiss on his head.

"I like you..... And it's not coming out of a drunken state of mind this time."

And just like that, Yeosang managed to perk a soft smile from Jimin's lips and calm him down. That warm fuzziness began to crawl into Yeosang's chest, and he embraced it.

He really does like Jimin, a lot.

And he would rather live his life with no regrets and assuring the people he cares about how he feels about them, so they can always remember that about him.

Just like how Woosung would always do with the people he cares about because the future is always unpredictable.

"You strange child. One second you're crying and the other you're trying to make me smile," Jimin chuckles weakly, slowly pulling away so Yeosang can see the puffy redness of his teary eyes but his small smile is there, "I like you very much."

That was all Yeosang needed to hear in order to believe in a bright future ahead, despite this never ending darkness in his present.

But one thing for sure is that everything will be okay, despite his shattered heart wounding his soul with that hallow of regret.

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A/N:
Aw :(

This chapter was so tender :'(

How are we doing??

Well next chapter is about to reach a very moving..... Sensitivity. Let's see how it goes!!

I PURPLE YOU! <33