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What I am feeling right now, is totally fine. Right?

But I don't feel totally fine. I should but I can't help but feel hurt I have to do this. Raven has covered me countless of times when it comes to things like this.

Why can't I help him this one time without feeling this hurt?

Pretend that you're Raven's girlfriend. When really in my mind. I'm imagining Beastly.

At least I tell myself.

Fake through the hurt of being used. I'm not being used, I'm being useful for once. Except it's kinda painfull knowing your savior can't get over their savior.

I'm supposed to get rid of my past, make new beginings don't let anything stop me. So what's stopping him?

Isn't that what you're always supposed do. Have your best friend's back?

Raven is my best friend? Yes Raven is my best friend, I won't easily admit but he is. The only person who knows almost everything about me. I actually want to protect him.

It's not faking it's protecting his heart.

Sticking with that,I hit Grace with one of my winning smiles.

Reaching on my tip toes, I give a peck on Raven's cheek. Which surprises him, but he doesn't show it. Snuggling deep into his arms. I intwine my hand with his.

From the corner of my eye, I can see Beastly's expression is pure bewilderment.

Raven regains an expression of love. That's pretty damn convicing?

I'm doing this for him. I need to pay him back, at least try to.

He spins me around so it looks like we're hugging. Whispering in my ear,"Are you ok with this?" His eyes stare into mine.

Am I okay with this? I should be, but there's a part if me somehow wishing this was real.

Maybe it's the Korean air, I've never found Raven so beautiful like I did right now.

Being sincere, I answer him with a smile and kiss on the cheek.

Smiling from his heart,"Thank you."

Finally the VIP audience of the show, appears.

"Raven what are you doing here?"

I turn to the sound of the unfamiliar voice. It belongs to Grace. She looks like a super model. She probably is a super model.

God how do I compete with that. I can never beat her.  I know that even know that from the bottom of my heart. There's always that person who you now, who will stay looking flawless for decades.

I compose my self. Reminding my self smile to sell it. I smile brightly at her,"Ravey who is this?" While giving him a look of deep affection.

Ravey? Blah would she buy it?

She visibly flinches she smiles at me and offers her hand. I guess she does.

"My name is Grace I'm a friend of Raven and more."

Frowning she didn't have to say more. I offer my hand,"I'm Halima."

Beastly semi acknowledges her he nods his head ,"Christopher."

I could tell Beastly was still starring at us. Without actually looking at him.

Grace clears her throat acknowledging that she has someone with her. "So this is my boyfriend."

"Alexander,"Giving a small smile his golden dyed hair bounces slightly. He reminds me of the kpop idol ikon's Bobby.

I must admit Alexander is hot. I really want to check him out, but can't because of the situation.

Instead I wave slightly," Nice to meet you."

He nods his head in recognition. Grace then directly turns to Raven. " Raven what brings you here back to Korea? Are you on an assignment?"

Say that shit again but slower?! I can't help but feel like she was aiming that assignment towards me. My fake smile slightly turns into a frown.

Raven clears his throat knowing that I will show no mercy. " I'm having a day out with my bestfreinds and girlfriend before we leave for the U.S."

You could hear the meaning behind the words bestfreinds and girlfriend. He is a greate actor.

" Oh, Leaving so soon?" She gives questinable smile. 

Raven squeezes my hand. " Not so soon actualy, if you were in my life you would've known." I can hear Beastly snicker. While Alexander acts non chalent.

A small," Oh." Is all that comes out her mouth.

I decide to end it by while taking both Raven and Beasts hand. "While it was nice to meet you two. We have a day planned out, and we can't miss our plane. "

I wave, "Bye!" While I run hand to hand with Raven and Beastly.

Now we're laughing and I can fell the dark cloud leave. I admit it was mean, but efficient it works. Raven stops laughing and hugs me.

"Thanks for being there for me."

He whisper's in my ear," Let your Topper pay you back, no arguements"

Beastly crosses his arms and glares at us. "You owe me an explanation."

"I promise I'll tell you later."

He ends up saying," You better." While dragging me towards another ride.

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Finally I've finished this chapter yay!