i just want to feel okay
not live in extremes

walk around in the gray
rather than live in saturation and drown in colors

you say: "THAT WOULD BE BORING, YOU ARE SPECIAL!"

and i reply with: "LET ME BE BORING FOR ONCE, I AM BEGGING YOU."

because this world shoots down the colorful until they are nothing but red

i don't want to be red
i don't want to bleed anymore

let me be gray
let me breathe the same air as you

but let's call it how it is
i am a disaster in the making

a time bomb which has been ticking
a hurricane by design