Hi all. Thank you for the support. I appreciate it all, kindly keep voting and sharing :) Namaste

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  We want to be desired, we deserve to be desired.Though there are those that will defy that, and say we do not need such things and we can not experience, desire in all its facets. Hunger, lust, passion, bliss, even pain to a degree.
We want to be touched, and I am not just talking physically, we want to feel that surge of emotion that wells up within us, when the right moment arrives, ripe for the taking.
Yet there is often a shadow to the back of us, a voice in our head, that always says no, tells us we cant have what we crave or feel we deserve, that something bad will happen, that the people will say, think and do things that are not good.
So you retreat, you go into denial, you repress, even feel shame that you ever wanted to touch the forbidden fruit.
Forbidden?

Is it going to hurt you, to touch, to taste, to go into the realms of experience and development. Is it going to hurt others for you to remove, conscious and subconscious fears, and thus become free, by stepping into greener pastures.

The shadow says people will laugh and others are just fair weather friends, it will provide you with feelings and experiences of your past. It will give you its version of the truth.
You see, its not wrong in what its doing, its not lying when it presents you with your past, your given a choice in that moment, because this what it does, it does only what it knows.
Until you choose to walk another path, until you can look beyond what the shadow is doing, When you can see that the reason is seems to be the enemy, is that, it has not been given anything else nor has it been shown light at the end of the tunnel.
When you choose every day, to live, without fear, to take baby steps, and wake up in trust, then the darkness will diminish and fade, until something else stands in its place.
It can be as destructive as your experiences, it can be as harsh as your reality has been, it can isolate everything and everyone, from you, leading you to believe it is more powerful than you and its in control

Until you wake up, until you start changing your choices, step towards your fear, rather than walk away from them
A mask, a defense, smoke and mirrors, the attitudes, the speculations, judgments towards others not just self. Saying it is right and knows best and your wrong.
Welcome to the Ego, its looking after our well being, based upon what its always known, but it can change, as soon as you do, it can lapse into quiet and leave you alone in what you wish to enjoy, feel etc. Just dont hate it, because your the one that created it, and believe me, it was not always your fault, you did what you needed to do , to survive.