Hi everyone. Thank You for all the support. Keep voting ans sharing. Namaste :)

The word hard does not come into it, neither does the word frustrating'. However the word painful' does. When you comprehend and embrace the various levels of your persona, your essence, who you truly are. When you come to that point when you truly feel and acknowledge that you have needs & wants

various things can arise when we rise and get to that level. You understand you have desires, you touch upon a deep need, even a void that needs to be filled, healed, embraced and valued. More often than not though, in this process, emotions, memories and ghosts of the past come to haunt us. Guilt, shame, the fear of being judged and made to feel like we are being forced into a triangle hole when we are the shape of stars.

Guilt and shame, linked to wanting to explore our sexual needs and kinks, wanting to *experience' and not feel ashamed because we want to.

Anger. Anger rears its self, too, but anger is a human emotion, it comes to the surface to be expressed, for our self to understand that is ok to be angry, and not to bottle it up, close it down, hide it behind walls and various defenses, which can come in many forms.

Shame. Because we have been made to feel this, due to ridicule, persecution, control and indoctrination. There are so many myths and harsh opinions/norms out there, when it comes to sex, sensuality and what we feel take shape within us. We feel these nearly every day of out existences, be it by those close to us, social circles we mingle within, or role models. The media also has a strong pat to play.

Fear. The fear to communicate, the fear to break through the lies and dogma that comes from narrow minded speculations, by passing the feeling of having fingers pointed at us, harsh tongues and envious eyes. Fear to be different, fear of embracing our personal uniqueness. Fear of going beyond our shadow selves and realizing it was all an illusion.

So through all the healing, the acceptance, the transcending of our fears, we enter a space of what now and when your in a relationship or relationships that are not supportive of your needs. Where they have not grown and expanded, but you have. You love them but your not in love with them, or you love them, but the price to love them is so high that there is a choice to be made.
Communication is essential here, the bringing forth of your heart and speaking it, regardless of the tears that come to be shed, of the anger, due to pent up frustrations and the void that has been made because of the lack of communication between you and that specific other.

Its not ok to have these sexual experiences, to want to explore your passion and sensual/spiritual self. You need to be like this and be seen but not heard. This is the true crime, because it means we are cutting off and away from those sides of our selves that are, honestly nod bad, evil, wrong etc etc. The wrong comes in when we accept judgments and agree to them, and hurt our selves more, by creating walls, and shut doors so to fit in

So we have a choice to make, and as painful as it seems, do we become the butterfly and go into transformation, or do we allow the wings to be touched never to lift from the ground.

Do we accept Monogamy, and tolerate the lack of sexual expression that is healthy beautiful and profound, and go into the realms of denial, depression and manipulation.

Surely one price is better to pay than the other?

Your choice, such is the power of free will