My mother is just ugh idek how to explain it 

She leaves and then comes

Fights and fights 

And fights

Then leaves 

And it's lovely I mean I get to see her be happy 

But she's only happy when she's gone

Like rn she's in Milan for fashion week 

She missed my first tennis match 

I rlly fucking hate her but I love her but oh she's fucking awful

I'm scared to go home all the time 

During my last class I'm always anxious 

It's better now bc she's gone till Sunday but it's still bad

I don't like hike much

I don't like school much 

I don't like being alive much 

I should listen to my moms words 

"You make me wanna drag you and choke you" and mother I wish you would so then I wouldn't have to live 

"You make people wanna kts" yeah I also wanna make myself kms 

"You're the reason ppl end up fucked" Ik mother ik 

"You're a disgrace to humanity" ik mom so let me go now 

"Maybe you should cut deeper" Great advice I will