Once again, I'm going through a huge wave of depression. This song is my only comfort I have, even if it makes me cry. Crying makes me feel better about everything.

My best friend tried to commit suicide two nights ago. I really don't want to loose her. She'd be the only thing I have left in this world that's keeping me from having a breakdown. But at the same time she's making me want to breakdown.

There is that part of me that wants me to hurt myself to get rid of the pain, but I've been free of that sort of thing for 2 years now. I just don't feel good enough for anyone and everything is just shit right now. Other than this song my dreams are the only other comfort I have.

I don't want to lie to you guys anymore. I'm not the happy, friendly, human named Jay you all know. I'm just a huge ball of depression and lack of self-worth. I'm sick of wearing this fake ass mask. My storm cloud is back over my shoulders and it's stronger than ever. I'll try my best to act like nothing is happening.