(~Sleeping With Sirens) I was just gonna let this one be songless for the title but this song fits pretty well. So does "How It Feels To Be Lost" off the same album. If I posted this last night when I was actually feeling so broken I would have just rambled on a lot longer and not put a title. Next day tho. Now I'm crying in bed for a different reason

Bro. I have no idea why but I just desperately want to cry. No reasoning. Just a gut feeling of "everyone I know and love, leave me the fuck alone or I will punch you, run away, and jump off a bridge. Am I the only one who ever gets like that?? Or is it like a common thing or something I should go get checked out?? Like generally upset over absolutely nothing. Doing things you love to do, but nothing is making you happy. Just wanting to be left alone to cry yourself to sleep in a dark cold spot. Almost numb to everything around you. Like people are going to say "mood" or think I'm over exaggerating or looking for attention or pity or something like that on here. I swear for once in my life I am actually 100% being serious and just want a legit answer if I am okay and it's a normal thing or if I am just broken. I think everyone thinks I'm super facetious and sarcastic and everything I say is a joke. That's fine a lot of the time because then people don't take me seriously when I'm not being serious but rn I want to be taken seriously and understood as an actual adult. I spent all day with people I love and adore and I'm so happy I did but I spent pretty much all night with just a dreaded feeling of wanting to go home and lay down in the dark and think about life.
(Posted on my Instagram spam account 11:49pm last night)