Hey guys. So to those of yoy who dont know im the type of person to hit someone I dont get along with and then forget about it. But I can hold a grudge. The longest I've gone withiut talking to one of my closest frienda was 7 months and we were in the same class.

So a few days ago I got into a fight with my cousin. He said something super inappropriate and completely insensitive to my situation and I got mad at him then decided to ignore him. My best friend (who is currently in a relationship with him) got him to apologize to me, but I continued to ignore him. Somehow she and I got into an argument over how she said I made fun of how he can't spell my name and that she can't either (which was completely fucking stupid because I was complaining and not making fun of him). Anyway apparently (according to her) I didn't take her feelings into consideration.

Well fucking news flash! Did you even think about how I felt? No I bet you didn't, coz you were to busy feeling sorry for yourself and then going to bitch at your boyfriend about how I hurt your feelings and that he needed to get me to apologize to you because I'm the one who's in the wrong and you're a fucking angel sitting on a throne of 'That's right spend some time alone with ur thoughts and think about what you've done'.

What am I a fucking five year old!?

So lets get something straight Joanne. I'm not your fucking pet. I'm not a dog who'll wag my tail if you give me attention and when you say jump, I will NOT say 'how high'. You might have my friendship but your still a long ass way from ever having my trust. This little incident just showed how great a friend you really are. The next time you decide to cut, don't expect me to fawn all over you and tell you never to do it again. You wanna know why? Coz you won't listen to me anyway. You're your own person and I can't make your decisions for you and right now I'm just past the point of even caring.

You think you know me so fucking well, but really you don't know shit.

You don't know what I've been through in my life. You don't know what I've had to deal with to get where I am now. I'm not about to let people walk all over me or my feelings. I might seem like an emotionless, stone cold bitch to you, but you don't have a fucking clue why I'm the way I am or way I act the way I do. Everything I do or say has a reason. There has never been anything I haven't done without a clear motive behind it. Even this post has a reason for it, but I doubt you give a rats ass about that.

I've pondered over writing this for a while now and I've been rethinking our entire friendship. To be honest I think the only reason we even became friends in the first place was because you have this unbelievable obsession with my brother and not because of you genuinely wanting to be my friend.

But we're all human, we all have our motives. Some just aren't as good at hiding them as others.

So hey Joanne I hope you have a nice life coz I'm officially done with your shit.

Oh and cuz if your reading this, I've considered it an I'm not apologizing I did nothing wrong and I'm not gonna apologize for something I didn't do and sont feel sorry for. If I did I'd be lying to her and to myself and I'm not about to do that. But thats not the only reason why, I've also got my pride and Pride is a sin after all.

So to those of you reading this go ahead and please comment about what you think about this entire ordeal. Go ahead don't be shy, I think we all nees an outsiders opinion.

See ya!

Till next time guys

Z♥