I think you guys are misunderstanding my situation.

Yes, my dream is to become a professional musician, but I do have a back up plan. I don't really expect myself to be some sort of musical prodigy that can make it into a band like the Tokyo Symphony, London Symphony, or Cleveland Orchestra. So I have a back up plan. It's not like I have nothing else I want to do.

I could become a lawyer and work in town. I could very well take over my grandfather's business when he dies (cause I sure as heck know he ain't gonna retire); I don't know.

I don't know what the future holds for me. All I know right now is that I'm going to make the best grades possible now in order to go to a good college with a minimum amount of student debt. It's just...

I really don't want to go into a risky business. I don't want to work my a** off for years and years just to find out I'm...subpar. Or to just find myself hating it and then just giving up after decades of dedication.

To be honest, I don't know what's going to happen. And I'm terrified of choosing a job. Just the idea of doing one thing forever is just scary.  *sigh* I guess I'll cross that bridge when I get there.

Whatever.