I'm back from cali

It was nice, but I'm sunburnt on my back

I fell asleep on the beach, because for a first in a long time,

I was relaxed

I wasn't worried about things that weigh me down 

But, I'm back.

My moms pushing for a job, I'm kinda scared.

I don't think I'm ready, but shes pushing it.

Carl shut off my phone wifi, blocked twitter and some other useless apps.

Collin isnt talking much, but im sure all I do is stress him out

I miss the feeling of being needed.

It was really comforting

and i know i have friends

but

im just selfish probably

i dont know