1 MONTH TILL MY BIRTHDAYYY

The song lovely by tøp

Though its kinda a weird song, i love it.

When someone hides their deep feelings from me, i can kinda catch on and tyler sings about someone struggling with this and how they lie to him about how their feeling. But, he assures them they are lovely. Theres a bit in the song where it says  "Dear friend
Here we are again pretending
To understand how you think your world is ending,
Sending signals and red flags in waves" and its how when you open up to someone about suicidal and depressed thoughts, they try to help but they cant it seems impossoble in their eyes.

This song hurts, because ive been in this place multiple times now. When someone struggles with depression their mind is very small when they get upset. And when you try to talk with them its very diffricult.

I really wish i could give this song to other people without looking like an idiot from their odd sounds but its true.

You are lovely. Dont forget that, please. And im here for you. Ill always will be.

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Okay

I realized im quite lonely in the nights. Sleep is sliping from me, from the fears of summer.

Summer depression is a thing i suffer with.

No, it isnt something to be worried about, i just require attention when i fall under it.

Without school, i fear that my friends will leave me, and ill be stuck in a loop of geting up just to use the computer like i have been the past years.

This summer i have goals to avoid that.

I want to finish a song with jen.

I want to take collin places and make him happy. (Hes very cute when he smiles).

I want to learn piano

And most of all

Have fun

Stuff like that.

Im working on a new song called Pretty Boy

(: i did some ukulele for it

Text me if you're awake.

Or, just comment a good album i dont know. Im in need of new music.

Stay beautiful
Stay brave
Stay lovely