So without going into too much detail about what's being going on for the past few months, just know that I've been hurting a lot recently. I've been carrying a secret around with me and bottling it up every day has led to me losing myself in the process.

And I was listening to some happy music today, when I came onto an epiphany. I am the problem in this situation. In some twisted way I am keeping myself in pain because I don't want to leave it for a weird way. But this is obviously not healthy at all. It has to be me to get myself out of this pain, I have to want it and be determined to be myself again.

I'm so tired of hurting, I'm so tired of living in this limbo-land where I'm never sure how I'm feeling. So rather than crying, I'm going to do something about it.