THIS WONT BE UP FOR LONG AT ALL ☆ march 12th, Tuesday, 8:44 pm, 2024

Alr imma put this up again cuz I feel like it and I might as well before I leave ☆ march 22nd, Friday, 5:23 pm, 2024

Putting this up!! ☆ march 29th, Saturday, 1:51 pm, 2024

BYE I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY IM PUTTING THIS UP AGAIN BUT I AM ★ july 26th, friday, 6:16 pm, 2024

NOT PROOFREAD CUZ ITS A RANT

This is from a long time ago like idk Jan 26th or smth and I was on my period so I was alr feelin moody and in my feels until this shit happend

I really trusted her and was friends with her. Or so i thought. I even stopped interacting with zai just because I know she hated her. I tried so hard and...I ruined it all with a joke. I called her a bitch as a joke and then I get unfriended, her friends are bashing me, and worst of all someone who's her friend who barley knows me says she never liked me... (imorddinary3) coco even says she never wanted to unblock me. She said that she had barely trusted me when I gave her my all. Fuck. Her friend keeps on calling me a fatherless fat pig. My God. I'm so tired in life. I've tired to kill myself multiple times and they never worked. I really wanna try again. Ik only 15 and I'm doing shit like this. Starving myself, trying to kill myself, everything is just to stressful and iverwhelming. Usually I wouldn't mind or care about losing a friend but.. I gave my all into trying to gain cocco's trust and all of my work went down the drain. I really tried so hard. And I might even lose eri. Ugh I hate life. Eri is a Goody friend of mine or as she would say "a good sissy". She always put up with my bullshit like blocking her just because eim bored. I feel like crying. That probably means if I lose coco and eri then I lose snow, rei, zai, nyx, Ren, hana, and most likely everyone. I wish they could see this but I'll never post it. I'm not sure if every single one of those accounts are hers but I do know that atleats some of them are cuz she made it a lil obvious that it was her. I already made a huge long apology that was my genuine feelings and all that time I did really wanna become her friend. But now she thinks it was fake I spent all of my time into that. I'm tired. I'll probably update my Kpop vents because of this. I relate so much to all of then but right now I'm really relating to Tired. I do want to kill myself. Ugh

I've never did that for anyone and I did that for her but all my work down to drain. 

K anyway bye future me I'm gonna go cry now and probably quit wattpad!