I feel lonely for some reason lol.

I always wish all the time to have someone who would like me the same as I like everyone, who would talk to me with the same energy as I gave them. Idk, I'm just tired I guess for always being the one to be in a place to make a move, or a conversation. (though, some does the first move, but not all the time.)

It kinda bothers me that I'm no ones special friend, nor special someone. And it makes me feel not special, and overlooked. I get excited over small things and make a big deal out of it. I enjoy signals that weren't mutual, and I hate myself for not knowing how I deserve so much.

I love myself, but my insecurities always takes over me.

And I just feel really not special.