Neutral (many mixed feelings) rant

Themes: mental health, zoloft and shit, feelin chaotic

Warnings: mental health issues, stress, disconnected feelings

Rating: no idea brain weird

Length: medum

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So I got prescribed zoloft/sertraline (an antidepressant) on Sunday, been taking since Monday and oh boy is this weird.

Like at first I thought that the side effects wouldn't really show that much since I already deal with a lot of issues that are side effects (like tiredness, randomly feeling sick, that sorta stuff) and I'm not really that uncomfortable but holy shit I feel weird. I feel like I'm in another body or some shit like my movements feel sorta foreign and also I am incredibly tired like usually me being tired does nothing to stop me from doing wtf I want but my God I just gotta lay the fuck down because my body is disagreeing with what I want like I wanna fucking draw and shit but now my eyes have decided to stop seeing and my fingies have decided to just not like wtf is that about.
And don't even get me started on the weirder fucking things I'm feeling like I'm swearing more than usual (I know I too thought it was impossible) and as you may have noticed the sentences are built like shit and all together because that's how my internal monolog is rn like it's one big block of text rn and instead of going slower or something idk it's just going in a line instead of all at the same time but for it to process that goddamn line has to move even quicker than the original think.

This shit doesn't even do shit like get rid of my hyperactivity so I'm both unable to function normally because of how fucking tired I am while still feeling the urge to run off into space at Mach 7.

And don't even get me started on the weird fucking urge to listen to fnaf songs idk what's about that but ever since I've been taking that bullshit I've been getting the uncontrollable urge to listen to fucking fnaf songs like I already liked them before but now they just fucking hit I seriously need to listen to fnaf songs I'm gonna listen to fnaf songs after writing this.

OH AND THERE'S ALSO THE CONSTANT GODDAMN YAWNING. I fucking hate yawning it's so annoying like I wanna do something and I have to wait until I fucking finish yawning because yawning is a special snowflake and requires all the attention and has you put everything else aside because YOU LITERALLY CAN'T DO ANYTHING WHILE YAWNING LIKE YOU HAVE TO WAIT TILL IT DECIDES TO STOP.
PROBLEM IS I CAN'T STOP FUCKING YAWNING BECAUSE OF HOW TIRED I AM.