I wanted to write about this earlier but I got lazy. I'm not even mad anymore. Correction: I don't even like the guy anymore. I like someone else, but I just wanted to put this out there to show that not everyone is who you think they are. I thought the guy actually liked me. I was wrong. If you want to hear my first kiss story, go to my book: My Firsts. It will make sense then.

Saturday- the kiss happened. I thought it was the best thing in the world. I couldn't stop thinking about kissing for a month. I didn't sleep that night.

Sunday- he texted me.
Him: Did you like yesterday?
Me: yeah. And you?
Him: it was dope.

I was so happy. I thought I had a chance at love.

Monday (first day back at school since the kiss): everyone knew. And A (let's call him A) didn't even talk to me correctly. I was so confused. Did the kiss not mean anything? Apparently he had told everyone in the school that he had kissed the American. So, that's when I knew. A was a fuckboy. I still liked him tho.

For a week he would talk to me one day and the other he would pretend I was invisible.
If you are one of these people, let me just say one thing. FUCK YOU!

At one point I kind of just gave up and moved on.
BUT THEN!!! My friend told me that A said I was clingy and annoying. That literally broke me. I stopped talking to him. I understand that I probably was but still. Then I told my great friend, Isa (she's great so ima put her nickname in) about it and she fought him. A was so confused. BECAUSE GUESS WHAT? HE NEVER TOLD THAT TO MAT (the friend who told me. {not his real name} ) I didn't know what to believe, but I gave A the silent treatment for a day. He was so upset. I ended up feeling bad, so I said I wasn't mad. For a couple weeks we were friends again until one day, HE PRETENDED I WAS COMPLETELY FUCKING INVISIBLE. HE WOULD HUG MY FRIEND AND PRETEND I WASNT EVEN THERE. Now I don't talk to him as much.

Before all of this broke loose, (the fight and before we stopped talking) I was told he had a list. A fucking list. You wanna know what was on that list?
A bunch of names. You might be thinking. "Names? What's wrong with that?" THE NAMES WERE OF GIRLS THAT HE WANTED TO HOOK UP WITH. LITERALLY LIKE THAT RIVERDALE EPISODE WITH THE JOCK BOOK. I WAS THE SECOND ONE ON THE LIST. MY FUCKING FRIEND WAS ON THERE TOO. WHO THE FUCK DID HE THINK HE WAS?! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! It took my all of my strength to not tell anyone what I knew.

One more thingggg lmfao
I went to a science fair and this really cute guy (we like each other now :D) named J invited me to walk with him because I had lost my friends. I said yeahhh and we ended up seeing A there. J knew about A and how he was kind of a dick. 

I shit you not 😂 this actually happened

A found a random girl, looked at me, and made out with her. This girl was a 7th grader.

The only reason I'm not mad at this is because J and I started making fun of him amongst ourselves. Funny thing. J and I kissed that night. We are getting to know each other.

What I learned from this?

Never trust someone unless it's proven to be true. My friend and my cousin told me that he was a good person and that he was going to treat me well. Maybe he's a good friend (I wouldn't know lol) but he definitely didn't treat me right.

Sorry this wasn't really a rant but I wanted to put this here lol

Love you guyssss

Byeee