I think my beliefs are different than my parents
Religion should be something you choose
Not something that's shoved down your throat
I wish I was what they wanted
I wish I was good enough
I wish I was a different person
Someone they could rely on
Someone who doesn't cause problems for them
Someone who doesn't want to die
Someone who isn't me
I try to be a nice person
I really do
I try to do what's asked of me
But it's not enough
It's never enough
Today's my Dad's birthday
I hate myself
The one day I try to be honest with myself
Is my dad's birthday
And I ruined
Everything