DEPRESSING TITLE FOR A LIGHT HEARTED RANT

FOOLED U THERE

yesturday i had a terrible day that exposed the root of my depression and I stood in the mirror and noticed how red my face got when u cried

but oh wow I read so much in my book Queen of Air and Darkness and it's been so long since I have and it was magical

and then SATURDAY
I slept until 1:15 never left the house felt completely abandoned because some of my friends did stuff all together without me WHICH IS OKAY MY BRAIN IS UPSET ABOUT IT BUT TOMORROW ILL BE FINE AND IM TELLING MYSELF TO GET OVER IT BECAUSE IT IS

did that make sense? i sure hope so

But I chilled in bed and read more and watched Star Trek and watched Arrow and ate a BLT which was much better than the ones my friend's grandpa makes me because they didn't have tomatoes on them and I h a t e tomatoes

but it was relaxing i probably shouldn't be left alone for so long at a time though

I want to go to the beach tomorrow

but probably will get lazy and won't

I feel s o fat right now and it's not a bloated feeling it's I feel fat and hungry all the time and im trying not to eat but with nothing to do i want to all the time

mental ISSUES

i said this was going to be light hearted hahahahahahahaha

I want to be in Vermont where I'm always busy and surrounded by people who have never once judged me for anything in my life

i love them

and i miss them

and i wish the mcu was rea-

im getting off track

It's very very late and I'm going to try and get up early so I can shower

i told my dad that bts was as good as the beatles and the words he spoke were venomous

he like basically hates them like anything else i do that's slightly different or out of the normal

this is why i cant do new things smh

um new poetry soon!

i didnt write anything when i felt broken on friday but it still feels fresh so I'll see what I can get down

also i wrote something forever ago for stan Lee and never got around to fixing it up

a poetry contest happened at my school recently!

my friend won first place and I'm glad I didn't enter because she would have beaten me and then I would have wanted to die because I officially wouldn't be good at one of the only things I want to better than my friends at

I'm a mess

15 days after school ends to not ruin myself and finish my book report

I think I can do it

bye