I'm just like my father.

I'm annoying.

I don't understand.

I don't listen.

I make everything too complicated.

I never understand.

I don't listen.

I'm just like my father.

I'm a brat.

I start arguments.

I continue arguments.

I should shut up.

I'm stupid.

I make messes just like my father.

I don't listen just like my father.

I am untrustworthy.

How can I be trusted?

I don't trust her.

If you don't hate me, show me.

If you don't hate me, stop saying I'm like daddy.

I'm not like daddy bitch.

I start arguments, yeah, but at least I tried to end it.

I listen,

I understand.

Maybe you should try to understand me.

Yeah I amke things more complicated but if you want a conversation then yeah I'm gonna do that instead of just saying "haha yeah"  end of convo.

I trust you. I used to tell you everything. It's not my fualt you stopped caring.

It's not my fualt I'm afraid you'd judge me

I don't know what you expect me to do.

I trust you except for I don't wanna be judged.

I don't feel like you trust me.

And you don't trust me.

So why should I trust you when you've been lying to me for a long time before?

I'm not always against everything you say but if you're so sure about something shouldn't you be able to come up with a rebutal?

It's not just like dad bc I don't yell at you, I don't not care about what you think, there's difference.

You're just like dad. You're trying to compare me to other people.

I'm not you, I'm not dad, I'm not my uncle's, I'm not nevan, I'm not anyone but me.
Stop comparing me to everyone else.

You're like dad. Just stop it.

I'm not dad's perfect little angel.

I'm sorry you have no idea what to say to him bc you don't understand (even though according to you, I don't understand)
But I can't control that.

When I say something wrong I know I said something wrong and then I don't continue it.when you say something weong you do that confused look and you see dad's face just stop talking.

Yeah some of your ideas are just wrong. They're illegal.
Sorry.

Sorry for speaking my mind. Lemme guess "I'm just like dad?" Yeah that's why I'm not tagging you.

If you find your way here somehow, know that I do care about you, I don't hate you, and I'm not trying to be mean but you can stop being such a bitch about everything.

Sorry.

Stop comparing me to people.

Stop yelling at me.

Stop acting like you care when I know you dont.

Or act like you care at least a little more.

Let me be happy

Stop trying to take everything I enjoy away.

News flash, happiness matters. Work, money, family, happiness. The only 2 things from that you seem to care about is work and money.

But guess what, it's family and happiness that matter asshole.

Yeah now I'm talking about someone else, this entire thing isn't about you but some of that is for you too.

Stop doubting me.

Stop  not caring.

Stop putting work first.

You don't show that you care.

You say that you do. You say family is most important to you.

So act like it.

Stop complaining about everyone and everything.

Yeah people suck but not everyone deserves to die.

Just stop.

Just leave if you're that miserable.

It's not my fualt you decided to stay. I was too young to know better.

This is all over the place.

Just ignore it. Who it's about will probably never read this. They don't care. Maybe they do, but they don't show it well.

Megan if you're reading this, don't mention a word to KC. Just stay outta it.
Time to gaslight, which apparently I do just by speaking ?? Lol, I don't try to gaslight all the time, I'm not always manipulating people. Just stop.

Maybe this isn't about KC. Maybe this is about myself.

Maybe I'm arguing to myself bc I need the reminder.

Maybe this isn't about a physical person but rather just my thoughts.

Or maybe it is about people. But maybe these people are people I don't even know irl.

Maybe they're people who are dead. Maybe they're people who aren't alive yet.

You may never know who this is about.

But then again how are we so sure of anything?

We don't truly know 100% anything. We could be in comas, or in a play, or in a glass jar. You never know.

So who's to say if you don't know something as big as that, why should you know something as small as who this chapter is about?

Maybe this chapter is just an idea for a book I may or may not be writing?

Maybe I'm rewriting the book.

Maybe I never meant for the book to be written but just to be thought.

This is such a bad attempt at gaslighting, but hey, then again, everything starts off as just a bad attempt. You just wait. I'll be gaslighting you with a blink of an eye if you want me to. Don't say I gaslight you. If you say that, that's an inventation to do so. So, just shut the fuck up bitch.

Maybe I wasn't trying to gaslight you.

Maybe I was just trying to collect my thoughts
Maybe I'm just thinking.

Maybe that's what gaslighting is all about, just confusing people with whatever you can think of.

But maybe I'm just bored so I'm just writing words on my phone.

Meaningless words.

So just shut up.

Shut up.

Stop telling me to shut up bc it's your turn.

You think I don't listen to you, then you listen to me.

I listen. You don't. I understand. You don't.

Just bc you don't understand what I'm saying doesn't mean I don't understand what you're saying.

Am I speaking another language?

I understand what you're saying. So try to understand what im saying. No I'm not saying what you're saying but that not bc I don't understand, it's bc I'm adding to the thought.

What's the point in speaking if no one cares or if no one understands?