I lie in bed, struggling to keep my eyes open.

I didn't want to sleep.

To sleep could mean my last time to ever live.

Well...as me.

It's...hard to describe....

Mmph...so tired....

But...I don't...want to....

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6134 days....

That's a long while to be in control....

Why not let one of us handle things for a while?

I sighed, sitting up from my lying position on the ground, glancing up at the 3 entities surrounding me.

Now, I've given them several names.

Rebekitah.

Turmoil, or Becky.

Anger, or Rebecca.

In the end, however, they are simply called Left, Right, and Chaos, in their respective mentioned orders.

They were attempting to look intimidating, like a gang about to beat someone up.  Honestly, with my mental state recently and what they're actually going to do, they were pretty successive.

I ran a hand through my hair, not attempting to stand.  "Look, guys, I reeeeeally don't wanna do this right now.  Can we call a rain check or something?"

Chaos scoffed, Right chuckled, and Left shook her head.  Sweetheart, you should really give us a shot.  Life could be better for you.

"AKA, never see my friends again.  Left, just...no.  It's bad enough that I have not one, not two, but THREE voices in my head constantly trying to take over my body every night, as well as just making me seem crazy in general.  Just...leave me alone.  Please."

Chaos grabbed the front of my shirt, yanking me up into a standing position.  You can't tell us what to do.  We're not just voices, we're living beings.

"In my head."  I replied, trying not to sound scared.  "You're just in my head."

Right sneered and disintegrated, becoming a mass of red particles.

I tensed, preparing myself.

The red particles swirled around me before rushing at me, entering my body.

"AGH---"

Chaos dropped me and I fell to my knees, gasping for breath.

I could feel Right inside me, attacking my mind, trying to weaken my defenses.

You're weak.  A waste of space.

Yeah, that kind of attacking.

"No...I'm...not...."  I growled, my body trembling.

You've said it yourself, hun.  People don't like you.  Maybe they'll like us better.

"Hardly...."

An immense pain filled my...uh, head, making me cry out.

Pathetic.  Always doing the wrong thing.

"M-Maybe...but I'm better...."

Becca, please, just make it easier on yourself.  Let go.  Stop holding on to who you are.  We can make your life better.  I promise.

Ugly.  Worthless.

"AGHHH, SHUT UP!"  I lurched to my feet, punching Chaos in the face.

She cried out, stumbling backwards.  Blood was already beginning to drip from her nose.

Pity case.  Friendless.

Why you little----

Becca, don't make me fight you.

"Bring it.  This is MY body---umph!"

I jerked sideways, falling to the ground again.

Right was slowly getting through, allowing her more access to my body.  If she takes over completely, I'm screwed.

Drama queen.  Crybaby.

I struggled to my feet, but then I didn't really need to as Chaos grabbed me and threw me across the...area?  I'm not really sure where we are.

I hit the ground and rolled a bit, gasping for breath once again.

Give.  Up.

"Screw.  You."

Failure.  Screw-up.

"For God's sake, will you shut up, Right?!"

No.

"Screw you too, then."

Suddenly, Left appeared next to me and grabbed me, holding me up in the air.

Becca....

"Left, you're logical.  You understand that I own this body, right?"

Panicky.  Horrible communicator.

"You're seriously running out of things to say, Right."

Shut up.

We all own this body.  Unfortunately, you just had to be the one in charge.  Do you know what it's like to be secondary?  To have your personality mashed with two others to create one that ends up being just a mess?  I'm talking about you, by the way.

I kicked Left in the stomach hard and she dropped me.

Failed ab---

"Shut up.  One, no.  Two, that's a tad bit too far, Right, even for you."

...

I felt Right back off my mind for a moment before forcing herself at it again.

I winced as my own hands started choking me.  To make matters worse, Chaos decided to join in on the fray, her nose no longer bleeding.

You're weaker this time.  Something's happened out there.  Something that makes you weaker.

I grimaced as Chaos sat on my stomach, getting uncomfortably close to my face.  That's right, hun.  Let go.

I struggled...uhm, internally for a moment and gained control of my hands again.

I punched Chaos in the gut (that sounds so awesome to say!) and she flew off with a grunt.

With my momentary control, I jumped up and punched Left, causing her to stumble back.

"Get...OUT!!!"

Right shrieked slightly as I forced her out from within me (ewww...that sounds weird) and her red particles flew away from me, converging on the ground to remake Right again.

Before she could recover, I grabbed her and threw her quite a ways away.

I collapsed to one knee with my fist on the ground, breathing hard.  "Just...stop.  All of you.  I'm sick and tired of all this.  Leave me be.  I have enough problems in life without you guys constantly trying to possess me.  Please.  Please."  I felt a tear run down my cheek.

I'm just...so tired....

Left helped Right to her feet, then she helped Chaos up.

Chaos glared at me, Left seemed to be deep in thought as she watched me, and Right was dusting herself off.

Left sighed, shaking her head.  I don't understand how you do that.  One moment, we're trying to beat you, the next, we're seriously considering letting you be.

Chaos sighed angrily.  Fine.  Whatever.  Your world sucks, anyway.

Right shrugged.  Eh, whatevs.

I laughed airily.  "I swear, half the things that go on in here just don't make sense."

Right gave a half-smirk.  You're welcome.

I rolled my eyes with a grin, sitting back with my arms propping me up from behind.  I yawned.  "I'm tired...."

Just go to sleep....  We'll see you tomorrow.

My eyes shut on their own and I fell back, though I do not know if I ever hit the ground completely.

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"Becca...."

I groaned, prying my eyes open.

"Becca, are you ok?  You've been tossing and turning all night."

I looked up to see my dad looking over me with concern.

I winced at my forming headache.  "Yeah...just a nightmare, is all."

He bent down and hugged me tightly.  "Well, just always remember that I love you."

I smiled.  "I know, Daddy...I know."

I pulled back and stretched, grinning widely at him.  "I love you, too."

Until the next time, hun.  >;)

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Is dat one better?  :D

Cassia16

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