Im sorry for this.

that epic gamer moment when your mom tells you to bring your grades up after you do everything and all you can do is wait for your grade to go up but now she takes away your music and you cry yourself to sleep because nobody is there to help you when you need help and there's this person who decides to call you a bitch and tells you to shut up over discord and then another person says that you talk too much and that makes you feel like you have to shut up or people will hate you even more than you already hate yourself which seems impossible to happen but it does

that epic gamer moment when you're mom says something you didn't know could trigger you so you spend your morning crying while asking yourself why it isn't over yet.  

that epic gamer moment where you feel so left out that you can't even think or breathe without feeling criticized or suffocated

that epic gamer moment when you start choking in front of your family and nobody helps you and then when you finally stop choking from performing the Heimlich maneuver on yourself, you ask why they didn't help you and they say "well you weren't crying, we thought you were just being over dramatic like always" even though there were tears formed in your eyes and you were ready to die. 

that epic gamer moment where you make new  friends on discord but this person who is older than you decides to call you names that make you feel worthless and pathetic and just make you want to die

that epic gamer moment where you actually thought about cutting yourself at 5 am in the bathroom after trying to cry yourself to sleep

that epic gamer moment where your school councilor keeps asking if my parents got me a therapist yet because i obviously need one and you have to say that we are still waiting even though the only reason you are waiting is because your parents forgot about all your problems and expect you to be perfect

Im sorry to you.