uhmm...so like..i'm just going to state little thoughts I have, which dont really affect me I suppose, as I already know they're true!! but yeah.

So, i beleive everyone on here, my friends, followers...past aquantences...I didn't deserve all of you, I still don't...you guys are all wonderful..even if we possibly fight or i'm in a bad mood, even just talking 2 any1..makes me a bit happier..especially specific people!!..

I also beleive I am not capable to recieve or give love to others..all I do is hurt people, even without meaning to. I need to work on that. But I know damn well I'm never loving someone romantically again. and even if I did feel such..I would just keep it down untill i'm ready..which ik damn well it'll never come.

Also...I got a haircut- this is totally different from the other stuff stated but I just wanted to share I suppose..

Oh..one more thing, I'm going to try and get better, for everyones sake, and for my own..but it'll be hard during this month..and just having people talk to me, send me stuff, or just let me know they're there and interact with care..it'll help me try to push myself more into becoming the person I once was..but a better version.

this is all I wanted to say, also before any of you think any of this is aimed or directly directed at any1 of you, it isnt..besides the first one obviously- the second one..is just a belief of mine that has resurfaced..and honestly, i sometimes dont understand love entirely..probably because growing up I didn't really have a good household??...I mean I still don't but my friends--..people I care about, they're helping me realize how to love and cherish people more thoroughly then I already do, and I'm thankful for that, for them...for all of you!! :)