Not alot of this is like neg or wtvr...so yaa :D

Update: nevermind there is soo
TW/CW: mentions of A bit of more physical/verbal abuse, not major tho ig (?) @B0RTI0N, $U1C1D3 + more i think</3

Sooo...Grad! ya..finally moving on to bigger hell!! (high school)..honestly it was pretty nerve racking at first..had to do the first reading for the catholic thing y(skools catholic, i aint tho..wahhh) so ya..anyway I did good somehow (none of the rizzlers noticed me almost stuttering LMFAO..glad they didnt)..anyway after that got my fake ass diploma(get real one w report card on mondayyy)

anyway after that, when ur guests or wtv had to almost leave, my grandma and greatgrandma wanted to take pictures out side, so I said 'oke :D' and started to walk out the gym, like they told me 2, and I cant rlly hear anything cuz lots of noise (very overstimulating if u ask me) so I couldnt rlly hear them since the noises and voices(not the ones in my head) jumbled up together. Guess what my Great grandma do to get my attention.

She didn't place her hand on ym shoulder...no

She slapped my shoulder really hard it echoed throughout the gym, and it hurt. I was scared so I tensed up and slowly turned to look at them since well, I felt very overstimulated and felt like breaking down already, and they be liek 'WHERE DA FUQ U GOING U JHJBHBJIUHJBKM' (gibberish is italian since idk how to write it) and this old ancient lady b screaming this btw anyway I felt like crying so timeskip to where they left.

I PARTIED SO FUCKING HARD MAN LIKE WOHOOOOO YYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAY WE BE LISTENING TO THE DISS TRACKS BY THAT ONE DUDE AND DRAKE MAN LIKE IT BE GETTING CRAZY UP N HERE...ate alot of popcorn..(2 bags..it was tiny tho and I was hungry..and hot, there was LOTS of food...so yummi tehee) anyway then I sat down the rest of the time doodling random things on IBS PAINT on my besties phone cuz I dont have one <333

and when I got home, I was telling my dad what happened with my great grandma, so my grandma(idont wanna call them this anymore but dont wanna dox them cuz like..idk) came in and screamed very loud it shook the whole fucking earth to its very core, making me tear up so I try to leave the room to put my shit away, and she told me to come back n shit, and said why r u saying she hit u, she didn't, she just tried to stop u from zooming off. BITCH I WAS LITTERILY ONE STEP AWAY FROM U GUYS TFYM??? I WAS GOING WHERE U TOLD ME TOOO..U ALWAYS MAKE UP ESCUSES FOR HER, U TELL ME TO IGNORE HER WHEN SHE SAYS RUDE SHIT TO ME, BUT I DONT IGNORE HER CUZ THEN SHE WOULD YELL AT ME, JUST LIKE U, THATS ALL U TWO HAVE BEEN DOING TO ME ALL FUCKING DAY, BEING MAD AT ME. EVERYTHINGS MY FAULT IG?!?!?!?!?!?!? 

IF U HATE ME SO MUCH, WHY DIDN'T U CONVINCE MY MOM TO GET ME @B0RT3D THEN?!?!?! SINCE U RLLY WANTED THAT TO HAPPEN U SICK FUCK, WHICH I HONESTLY DONT CARE, I DIDNT ASK TO BE SHAT OUT, IF U DIDNT WANT ME, SHOULDNT HAVE WENT TO COURT FOR ME, PUTA. LIKE BITCH I HAVE SOOO MANY NAMES 4 U..GOOD THING U DONT FUCKING SPEAK HALF THE LANGUAGES IK..ESPECIALLLY GERMAN L BOZO(u get mad at me for speaking in it, refusing to say I love u  back whenever I say it in this cuz u 'dont speak it' I've told u waht it ment a thousand times, u also rasict btitch I will expose u and ur momma abt what u guys b saying in a future part of the book teehee <333)

Neither of u should have had kids, this why I cant socialize normally irl, even online tbh I get rlly bad anxiety..GUESS WHO I GOT THAT FROM HAHAHAHAHHAA (ur bitchass) ..AND U ALSO BE SAYING I DONT HAVE AUDHD (Autism + ADHD/ADD) DUDE I HAVE ALOT OF SYMPTOMS FROM BOTH SIDES, AND WE EVEN WENT TO A PYCIATIST AND THEY SAID I GOT IT, LIKE BRO, HOW U KNOW I DONT GOT IT IF LITERALY OUR WHOL FAMILY IS NEURODIVERSE...LIKE NAHHH, MY UNCLE IS, MY DAD IS, MY STEP SIS (she def is but cant get diagnose cuz u guys r dumbbbb<333 saying we fine<33 WE ARE NOT BITCH I'VE BEEN SUICIDAL SINCE EITHER in 2nd OR 3rd GRADE AND U DIDNT EVEN NOTIcE BAHAHAHAHHA, U DONT EVEN KNOW MEEE, THAT KIND OF SAYS LOTS ABT U