So I'm a big Billie eilish fan. I mean her voice lyrics are amazing and she herself is beautiful

Her song idontwannabeyouanymore is rlly relatable for me. I'm ugly and I hate myself. There's reasons why but I rather not say

I wanna kill some of my friends as she did in bellyache when she says "lay their bodies"
Why???
Because they spread rumors about me
One even cyber bullied me

I don't know how to cope with this

Please help me