Everyone around me is growing up and the thought of growing up freaks me out. I cried when I turned fourteen because i loved being thirteen and being treated the way I was.

Now I'm expected to be mature and a group of my friends stopped sitting with me at lunch and now I feel like hell.

Everything is getting stressful lately and everyone is growing up so fast. Like they leave the bnha fandom, the one thing that attached me to being a kid and I'm in love with. I can't watch Attack on Titan because gore freaks me out and idc how crazy I might sound, I can't stand gore. Like, I freak out if one little thing starts hurting, I will cry If I watch someone else suffer. I'm rethinking career choices cuz of that now. Like, now I wanna go back to my original plan and be an author.

I started bnha near the end of season 3. So 2018.

I was twelve. Just turned twelve. I was basically eleven when I joined the fandom. I am emotionally attached and it changed my life. I got attached to the characters.

Growing up terrifies me and bnha is like, something really important to me.

I don't even like Aot. Like, the only reason I talk about it with friends is cuz they're into it. Idc about it at all. Like, I'm thinking of deleting my Levihan reading list.

People are concerned about my mental health and I don't even know if it's ok anymore. I help people with their problems, my siblings get away with everything, and then school.

I sound so petty talking about anime like it's my child and making me sound like a victim because my friends aren't interested in the same stuff rn but bnha really keeps me attached to being a kid and I really don't wanna let it go.