I am losing my self confidence...I originally went to Taekwondo so I can relish my stress..and a person that I know in my Taekwondo said, one of the other member said that I am weird over there. Like REALLY? WHY???

Look, just I am in white belt right now, and it feels like as if their saying that I am doing badly, well what do you expect?!! I have just started it! Just because your a black belt or a more higher belt doesn't mean that you have to be looking down on me, sheesh! It's so frustrating...now I have to even worry about Taekwondo...I went to Taekwondo, because I was feeling stressed out often at home, and my mom suggested that I should go there, and I agreed to go there with her..and after I did try it out in the first day..I had a lot of fun, and I felt my stress leaving from my mind, and I felt good. I was keeping this up pretty good, until...yeah...Geez..I thought that Taekwondo was supposed to be a place for to prove my self confidence, control, and self defense. 

But nope, they actually have to worry about that I am weird...and now I am saying this to myself. Taekwondo is just a place where you do your forms and train! Not a place to secretly gossip...man this is just suck..my physical strength just got weaker, I wish I could've exercised when I was younger so I could've just not feel embarrassed...and guess what? I feel embarrassed and ashamed of myself...

Thanks to those boys saying that to me. 🙄 Ugh, I don't know, I am like in the red, black and etc belts section, if I did ever decided to go to the white and yellow, there are a lot of younger kids there that are about like 6 or so..and I mean, it would feel awkward..and stuff..

I don't know...

Date: November 21, 2021

Edit January 3 2022: Looking back at this. I've figured out on how to deal with this, it now really doesn't bother me that much any more. :)